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borhood, and—though this he never knew—neither was she. What

became of them all, she and Hoopie and Wally and the others whose

names he couldn’t recall, those he had once spent all day with, in school

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or after, on Saturdays and Sundays? He rarely thought about them

afterward, but they certainly were a Passionate Series as Pancho Notz-

ing would later describe it to him—lovers of power and lovers of plea-

sure, the greedy and the indifferent, the retiring and the unhesitating,

an entire spectrum of human temperaments, needs, and wants, enough

anyway to make a complete society, the only one he’d ever know him-

self to be a member of until he came to live and work among the Teenie

Weenies still far away then in time and space.

2

That orthopedic hospital, though a source of civic pride pictured

on postcards that visitors to town could buy, was not used as

much as the founders and supporters had expected: not enough

people willing to go have the clubfoot or the gimp leg they’d

lived with for years corrected, or with enough money to pay for it. So

the local chapter of the International Order of Odd Fellows (whose

building, with its name at once comical and sinister, had hung over the

wasteland where Prosper’s gang had played ball) volunteered to survey

the county and learn who was in need, who could be helped, especially

among the children; and to raise the money to pay for the surgeries of

some. It was Mrs. Vinograd who brought Prosper to their attention,

Prosper and one or two others she had observed as well. Despite her

belief that Poor Posture could be overcome by will and self-control,

Mrs. Vinograd also believed in doctors and the advance of Medicine;

she believed in efficiency, in principle and in practice. She didn’t tell

Prosper or his mother what she had done, though, and when the two

moon-faced men in great double-breasted suits appeared at the Olan-

ders’ door and announced who they were and their interest in Prosper,

he assumed that they had come to claim him as one of their own: an

Odd Fellow, as they were; the lodge he was a member of.

When it became clearer what the two wide smilers actually meant

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by coming there, Prosper’s mother lifted four fingers to her chin in

doubt or fear. “Oh dear,” she said.

“Get you some help, you see,” said one, gently, knowing to whom

he spoke.

“Well he’s been fine this far,” she said.

“But he could be fixed right up,” said the other Odd Fellow, and

tousled Prosper’s hair as though he were six, or a dog.

“Oh but an operation,” Prosper’s mother said. “An operation?”

“At no cost to you now or ever,” said the first, a salesman.

“But what about his schooling? That’s important too.”

“We’re just here to make sure the boy gets examined, ma’am.” He

drew out from within his capacious jacket a memorandum book and a

gold pen; and they all turned to Prosper.

Examined. To see, first, if it really was possible to fix him right up.

On a sloppy winter day Prosper and his mother took the streetcar to

the hospital, which stood on a rise above a raw new neighborhood on

the other side of the city. They had to cross a construction site on duck-

boards, then climb up a path and two flights of stairs to reach the

doors. There they made themselves known at the window, waited on a

bench in the echoey strange-smelling waiting room where hortatory

posters had been put up. His mother lifted her eyes to one after another,

patted her bosom, moaned almost inaudibly. One showed a funny man

about to sneeze, finger beneath his nose, and warned that coughing,

sneezing, spitting spread influenza! Another showed a family

man, his wife and child cowering behind him, desperately trying to

keep shut a door on the outer darkness where a vague white hideous

specter was trying to come in. Tuberculosis. Shutting the door on the

thing looked hopeless, though it wasn’t probably supposed to.

After a long time a nurse all in white, even to her shoes, called their

name and led them down wide high corridors across floors more highly

polished than any Prosper had ever seen, gleaming tile seeming to

vanish beneath his muddy feet as though he walked on water. Doors

opened on either side and he glimpsed people being ministered to, lift-

ing legs or arms with nurses’ help or playing slow games with big balls.

They were shown into a room to wait with other young people, other

culls of the Odd Fellows he supposed, some of them glad to see people

in their own case and lifting hands in salute or recognition, some who

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wouldn’t meet his eyes. One a delicate pale girl with white-blond hair

carefully marcelled, her spine so out of true it seemed she had been cut

in two across the middle and the two parts put back together incor-

rectly. She shrank farther away as Prosper helplessly stared, as though

she could feel the gaze she couldn’t meet, and his mother at last pulled

his hand to make him stop.

The young doctor he was finally taken to see—hawk-faced, his hair

laid tight against his head with Wildroot oil, its odor unmistakable,

the same that Prosper’s father had used—made one judgment right

away. Prosper was to stop using the Boston girdle: it could do him no

good, the doctor said. He took it from Prosper and with thumb and

finger held it up, fouled with sweat and other things, edge-worn and

splitting, as though it were some vermin he had shot. Prosper’s heart

lifted.

Then he was taken, more wonderful still, to have an X-ray, the

nurse telling him it wouldn’t hurt and would show what the inside of

his body and his bones looked like, but Prosper knew all that, and

stepped up bared to the waist smartly and efficiently, put his breast and

then each side and his back against the glass as the doctor showed him;

it didn’t hurt, though he was sure he felt pass through him coldly the

rays without a name. Then that was all. Back through the waiting

room, still unable to make the pale girl see him, along the corridors

and through the doors and down the steps and home. Three weeks

later a letter came from the hospital saying that he was being consid-

ered as a candidate for surgical correction of spinal lordosis, and set-

ting another date for more examinations.

Prosper couldn’t know it, but even that first uneventful journey into

the hospital had nearly undone his mother. He did know that she was

someone to whom you couldn’t bring your bleeding body parts to be

bandaged, as she would faint, or say she was about to, and turn away

white-faced and trembling; also best not to tell her you’d thrown up, or

had sat on the pot with the gripes until a load of hot gravy was passed

that flecked the bowl and lid. These things were for you to know. Long

afterward, in one of those reassessments that come upon us unwilled,

like a sudden shift of perspective in a movie scene that shows the lurk-

ing villain or dropped gun that couldn’t be seen before, Prosper real-

ized that it was actually his father who had bound up his wounds,

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carried him to bed in fever, washed out the white enamel basin ( Hasten

Jason bring the basin) with the horrid black chipped spots in it; and

that therefore it had certainly cost him something when his father

blew.