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life, and Elaine never came back again. Nothing was said to Prosper. A

week later, school started.

The bus that made its rounds through his part of town picking up the

students of the special health class arrived at the school building a little

after all the other students were beginning their classes—Prosper and

the others walking or rolling in could hear them reciting in unison

somewhere—and it returned for them just before three o’clock, was

awaiting them just beyond the ramp, engine running, when they were

dismissed: they’d begun climbing or being lifted aboard by the driver

and his husky helper even as the bell of the school exploded like a giant

alarm clock and the kids inside poured shrieking out. Some of those

aboard the bus looked out longingly at the games forming up on the

playground, one perhaps naming a child out there among the capture-

the-flag or pitch-penny gangs who had once said something pleasant to

him or to her; Prosper wouldn’t do that. He was he, they were they.

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Back home again he went to his room and took up his work where

the day before he had left off.

He’d learned a lot from his book of Commercial Art and Studio

Skills, and what of it he couldn’t understand he made his own sense

of. He used all the tools and the inks and the papers, the French

Curve, the Mat Knife, but what he loved best were the Ruling Pens,

which made the perfect even lines he saw in columns of type and

bordering newspaper ads, squared at each end as though trimmed by

scissors. He’d later learn that his method of using them was all his

own—like a man who learns to play a guitar the wrong way around—

but he got good at it. You turned a little dial atop the nib to narrow

or broaden the stripe it scribed. He still never tried to make pictures,

or copy nature, or draw faces. He created the letterheads of imagi-

nary companies (ACME with beautiful winged A). But most of his

time was spent producing, with great care and increasing realism, the

documents—tax stamps, stock certificates, bank checks (he’d studied

forms for these in sample books that May in puzzlement brought

home for him)—of a nonexistent country. Once it had been a real

place, he’d found its name in a ragged set of books on the shelf called

the People’s Cyclopedia: the Sabine Free State. At some past time it

had been part of the territory of Louisiana. The Sabine Free State had

been the home of the Redbone people, though no more, and no one

knew where the Redbones who had once lived there had come from,

or where they had gone. As he drew and lettered and crosshatched

with precision he could see in his imagination the places and people

of the Sabine Free State, the streets of the capital, the white-hatted

men and white-dressed women like those in magazine pictures of hot

places; the brown rivers and the cone of an extinct volcano, Bea’s

postcards of Mexico showed him those; the files of dark Redbone

women bearing baskets of fruit on their heads. He saw all that, but

what he drew were only the visas, permits, railroad shares, docu-

ments headed with the crest of the state: wings, and a badge, and a

curling banner with the unintelligible motto that all such things

seemed to have, Ars Gratia Artis, E Pluribus Unum. The motto of

the Sabine Free State he took from what May and Bea had first spelled

out on the Ouija board that guided their meditations: Fenix

Vigaron.

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Prosper went to the special class in the school for two years. Bea and

May gave him valuable advice on how to pay attention and please

those in authority without yielding up your Inner Self to them. He

was among the most able in that class, as he was among the least in

his old school, which somehow didn’t seem to add up to an advan-

tage, but it gave him a certain standing with the girls. In the boys’

toilet he learned what he would learn of the vocabulary employed in

what Bea called the gutter, trying to work out the meaning of each

new term without admitting he didn’t have it down already, and fall-

ing for some common jokes ( ’D you suck my dick if I washed it? No?

Dirty cocksucker! ). Then in the next year there was no city or state

money for it any longer, no money for anything, and certainly not for

a special health bus and a special class; tax revenues had evaporated

just as the welfare services were overwhelmed with desperate need,

more every day, husbands deserting families to go try to find work

somewhere and just disappearing, children living on coffee and crack-

ers and pickles, pitiable older men in nice suits with upright bearing

and faces of suppressed dismay as though unable to believe they’d

come to ask the city for food and shelter. May saw her pay cut; there

was not a big call to furnish new offices. Bea’s commission on per-

fumes and oils went down.

What would the two aunts do with him now? Miss Mack had

shaken her head wordlessly when Bea brought up the State School as a

possibility. But she did tell them (with some reluctance, it was easy to

see) about a Home in another part of town, and May one hot day,

without telling Bea, took a trolley out. Just to look at it. She’d never

been inside such a place, had only seen them in the movies or read

about them in novels, where orphans and crippled children were helped

by warmhearted baseball-playing priests, tough hurt boys who learned

and grew. The place itself when she reached it was smaller than she’d

expected, just a plain brick building amid old streets in a featureless

neighborhood. The first thing she noticed was that the windows were

barred: even the wide balconies that might have been nice places to sit

were fenced with wire barriers. Alarm made her tongue-tied, and she

asked the wrong questions of the torpid caretaker, and was refused a

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look around, though she could hear a faint uproar. She’d have to make

an application, she was told. Couldn’t she just meet some of the chil-

dren? Perhaps if she came on visiting day. Bea was feeling faint with

sorrow, as though the walls were soaked with it. She seemed to smell

cat piss, though there were no cats here.

She wandered, trying to peer down bleak corridors and into rooms.

She got a glimpse of a line of girls being taken from a classroom, she

thought, to somewhere else. The girls were dressed alike in gray jump-

ers washed a thousand times, their hair cut short, for lice maybe.

Coldly strict as their teacher was she couldn’t get them to march

straight. So many different things were wrong with them May couldn’t

distinguish. One looked back at May, dull drawn face, wide-set eyes: a

mongoloid, perhaps, but surely a soul, what would become of her.

May went home in the awful heat and never spoke of her trip. She

convinced Bea it’d be all right, that Prosper was old enough to stay

home alone; they’d get lessons from the school if they could, and do the

best they could when they could.

By then Prosper was almost fourteen, and should have been going

into high school, even if the actual grades he’d passed through didn’t

add up to that. The high school had never had provision for special

cases like his; if he reached the eighth grade he was considered to have