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had said, hadn’t he seen it in the papers? Hadn’t his mom and Buster

told him?

“Goddam profiteers,” Bunce said. “Serves them right.” He aimed

this darkly right at Connie, as though she were one of them, or it was

her fault. Then, in sudden realization that time had gone on while she’d

unfolded these things before him, he said to no one or to himself: “Man

I’ve got to go, got to get to work.”

“I couldn’t figure out why,” Connie said.

“Why what? Why they closed? Cause they’re dopes. Crooks. Just

out to take from the working man.”

“No, but why? What did they do so badly?”

“What’s it have to do with you? You don’t have to worry about that

stuff.”

Connie lowered her eyes, catching up with herself. “I was just won-

dering,” she said.

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“So it doesn’t matter anymore,” he said, and came to kneel by her

chair, where Adolph stood to look up at her. “That’s good.”

“So I came,” she said.

“Uh.”

“I just wanted us to be together again. The three of us staying

together.”

He disengaged from their embrace. “Not here,” he said.

“Well I just thought . . .”

“Connie. Our home’s not here. When all this is over . . .”

“My mom’s watching out for the apartment. It’s all all right. I had

the gas turned off and the electricity. She can send the furniture any-

time, Railway Express, it won’t cost that much. I have the money.”

Maybe she shouldn’t have said that last part. He’d risen away from

her now with a look that made Adolph start to cry, she’d cry too if she

didn’t keep up her courage. Why’d she just blurt all that out?

“That’s swell, Connie,” he said, not loud. “That’s just swell. You

don’t ask me a damn thing, you just decide we’re not living in our own

damn house anymore, that you’re a working girl, that you— Shut up!”

He shot that at Adolph, who only cried louder, and Bunce picked him

up and held him.

“I read about this place here,” she said. “It was at your mom’s.”

Tears were leaking from her eyes, she tried to just keep on. “It seemed

so wonderful. That you could help, that you could be a help and be

useful, and still have a good life, a family life. You could have what you

needed.”

“You’re going back,” he said, his words soothing in sound for

Adolph’s sake but not in import.

“I saw the pictures of the nursery in the plant, and the part about

the free clinics, the way everything was thought of.” She thought of

telling him about Mrs. Freundlich but stopped herself. She wiped her

eyes with her wrists. “I just wanted to help.”

Bunce holding Adolph put his hand in Connie’s hair.

“Well you’re not working here,” he said, grinning as at an impossi-

bility, but not actually amused. “Honey no.”

“Oh Bunce.”

He lifted her up and by the hand and led her to the broad bamboo

chair. He sat, drawing both of them into his lap. “Connie,” he said,

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and stroked her cheek with the back of his hand. “Baby. You think I

want to see you every day on that floor in a pair of trousers? What are

we going to do, head out for work together every day with our tool-

boxes?”

“Women do. People do.”

He pressed his face against her neck, his sweet lips. “Sure they

work. Till they get enough money to get their fur coat. Then they quit.

Or when their man comes home from overseas. You’ll see them down

tools right in the middle of the shift. ‘My man’s home, I’m done.’ ”

“Oh Bunce.”

“You know when my dad was first hurt, Mom went to work, in that

hotel kitchen. It almost killed Dad; it was worse than his back. Him

sitting home and his wife working. My mom.”

Just as he said that, Connie’s eyes fell on a comic poking out from

under the others on the box-table. The part of the cover she could see

showed a woman, caped and booted in red, her arms extended the way

flying heroes always held them and she never did when she flew in

dreams. The woman was shooting straight down through the clouds,

toward earth presumably, and toward the bottom of the book, where

huge red letters spelled MOM.

“I gotta get to work,” he said, lifting her.

She let him go and dress, watched him and talked with Adolph: See

Daddy put on socks, put on boots and lace them up, put on his shirt

and button it up to his neck, and his jacket. She wandered the little

place, went into the bathroom, where Bunce’s razor and brush and cup

of soap stood on the back of the sink. He used a straight razor, liking

the skill it took, proud of his skill with it. A comb there too, clogged

with hair. Blond hair.

“Do you live here all alone?” she called to Bunce, and when he

couldn’t hear she came out with the comb in her hand and asked again.

“Of course not,” he said. “Couldn’t afford it. I have a fellow lives

here, that’s his room over there. Except he just got fired for some black

market stuff, stealing from the company, and he’s gone. Good riddance

to bad rubbish.”

He was done dressing, he was Bunce again, broad belt buckled and

the long end tucked in, crushed cap on—he put it on Adolf, then back

on himself as Adolph reached for the buttons on it.

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“What’ll I do?” Connie said. “Adolph’s going to get hungry.”

“There’s milk in the icebox,” Bunce said. “And here.” From the

table he picked up his brown pay envelope, two-fingered out the bills,

a thick wad it seemed to her, and took a five to give her. “There’s a bus

that stops at the corner, that way. It goes out to the market. They’ll tell

you where. Go buy some food.”

“Okay.”

He took her in his arms. “So no more about working,” he said.

“You make a home for us.”

“All right I’ll try,” she said—what else, in his arms, could she do?—

and it wasn’t as though she lied, or didn’t mean it; it was as in Confes-

sion, when you had a Firm Purpose of Amendment in regard to

something sinful (Bunce, the back seat of the Plymouth) and meant it

with all your might even as you heard yourself dissent deep inside, a

you that you knew you’d listen to, the you on whose side you always

really were. The priest called that a Mental Reservation.

“Good,” he said. “I love you, Connie.”

“Oh God I love you too Bunce, so much.” So rarely could he say it

to her with that kind of plain sincerity that it swept her hotly to hear it,

and she assented within herself, she’d do what he asked, all that he

asked, with only the Mental Reservation because there was no help for

that.

When he’d shut the door she looked around herself. She could

clean up.

“Daddy,” said Adolph, as you might say A storm.

“Daddy,” Connie said, nodding. “Tell him that. Daddy.”

She pushed the papers on the table into a pile, and the comic book

with the red-clad heroine on it came out, and she saw she’d got it

wrong. The girl—Mary Marvel, a windblown skirt and cascade of

chestnut curls—was flying not down but up, through the clouds to blue

sky beyond, and the real title of the book, now right side up, was

WOW.

4

Toward the end of his shift, as he was making his way up the

Assembly Building, Prosper caught sight of the woman from the