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whose face was attempting to express nothing but a pleasant detach-

ment, and rose to follow Bunce out.

“So what the hell’s all that?” Bunce said, still a step ahead of her.

“I came to visit. To see if I could find you, see where you worked.”

She showed him her pass.

“And you found that guy instead.” He flicked one look her way,

then fiercely on ahead again. “You don’t know what it’s like around

here,” he said. “The men around here.”

She caught up with him, took his arm.

“Bunce,” she said with soft urgency. “Just look at him.”

Prosper was gathering himself now to leave the table, and Bunce

stopped, looked back to see him manipulate his crutches, swing his

inert legs away from the table, steady himself, and attempt to rise; fail;

try again, and succeed. Then set off.

“Yeah well,” Bunce said.

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“I was being nice.”

“Yeah.” He looked down at her. “Yeah well. Be careful too.”

She took his arm. Adolph was still held in his other arm. She wanted

to look back too, and see how Prosper had managed in the milk bar, if

he’d got out all right, but that only made her cling tighter to her hus-

band. “So you’ll be home for dinner,” she said. “I’ll make a Swiss

steak.”

“I can’t come home. I’ll be back late.”

“Why? Where are you going? Do you have overtime?”

“No.”

“Then what—”

“Nothing.”

“Well what—”

“Connie, you don’t ask me!” He shifted Adolph violently in his

grip. “Connie you just come down here, you bust right into my life here

without asking, and you . . . Just listen when I tell you. I’ll be back

later.”

She said nothing more, marched along beside him, didn’t shrug away

his arm when again he took hers. She’d come so far. She’d come to fight

for him, and she knew what that meant, it meant actually not fighting.

She knew what happened to the desperate weepers and beggars, the

cold schemers and the furious hair-pullers, they never won and she

wasn’t going to be one of them. You just kept your head high. You

waited and you saw it through and stayed ready and kept your head

high. The only way you could lose was if you stopped wanting to win.

In that month a directive came down from the front office, ultimately

from the War Department, that all men with deferments had to report

to their local draft boards to be reassessed. Rollo Stallworthy told the

men on his team that this did not, repeat not, mean that anyone was

necessarily going to lose his deferment. Just Our Government at Work,

he said: they want to make sure they’re using every available person to

maximum gain. Most of the men at Van Damme had registered at draft

boards far away, so arrangements were made to bus the men to the

capital, rather than burden the local Ponca City board and cause delays

in getting back to work. Chits were handed out.

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Prosper’s draft status was ambiguous. He’d gone down that first

time to register, before the war began. Then somehow the notice to

report for his physical never came, or had been missed. (Actually Bea

had discarded it, supposing the army must know better and it had come

in error.) Then he’d worked at The Light in the Woods, and all the

workers there who weren’t already iv-F got a provisional deferment, till

they quit or were otherwise let go; then he’d left town. So he signed up

to be sent with the others, in order to be finally rejected. On a morning

growing fearsomely hot, he mounted a bus with the skilled machinists,

tool-and-die men, draftsmen, engineers, farm laborers, Indians, and

fathers in war work (fatherhood alone wasn’t enough now), and took an

empty seat. A school trip hilarity prevailed on the bus as it set out,

except among a few men who found the exercise a waste of time (the

unions were arguing with Van Damme Aero as to whether the men

would be paid for this jaunt) or who actively feared losing their status:

not every floor sweeper or lightbulb changer or pharmacist’s helper in

the vast complex was “a man necessary to national defense” and might

see his cozy iii-A rating evaporate. We didn’t all want to be heroes.

The bus had turned out onto the highway, a hot breeze coming in

the window, when someone changing his spot sat down next to Pros-

per. Momentarily, Prosper tasted chocolate ice cream. It was Connie’s

husband. Bunce.

Prosper moved his crutches out of the way and gave Bunce a nod;

Bunce thumbed the bill of his cap in minimal greeting. He neither

spoke nor smiled, and turned away. Neither of them remarked on

Bunce’s having shifted seats. Bunce pulled from his denim coat pocket

a toothpick, and chewed delicately. Prosper felt sweat gather on his

neck and sides.

“So this is stupid,” Bunce said at last, but not as though to Prosper.

“I’ve got a war job, I’ve got a family dependent on me.” He turned then

to point a look at Prosper. “You know? A family.”

Prosper made small sympathetic facial movements, what’re you

gonna do. They rode in silence a time, looking forward, till Bunce, still

unsmiling, began to regard Prosper more deliberately, as though he

were a thing that deserved study. Prosper had been the object of hostile

scrutiny before, though not often so close to him. He thought of Lar-

ry’s instructions, how to win a fight, or not lose one.

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“So that’s tough,” Bunce said. He made a gesture toward Prosper’s

body.

Prosper made a different face.

“What’s the toughest thing?” Bunce said. “I mean, living that

way.”

Prosper cast his eyes upward thoughtfully, as though considering

possibilities. “Well I think,” he said, “the toughest thing is drying my

ass after I get out of the bath.”

Not the shadow of a smile from Bunce. That line always got a

laugh.

Bunce withdrew the toothpick. “I think I’m asking a serious ques-

tion.”

“Do you mean,” Prosper said, “not having the chance for a wife

and kids, a family I mean, such as yours?”

Bunce made no response.

“Well yes,” Prosper said. “Yes, I’d have to say. Not having that.

That’s hard.”

“I knew this guy,” Bunce said. “He used to go around the bars and

the Legion hall. He had no legs. He rolled on a little truck, with these

wooden blocks on his hands to push with. He made candies, and sold

them. Always smiling.”

Prosper smiled. Bunce didn’t.

“Funny thing was,” Bunce said, “if you saw him in his own neigh-

borhood, not making his rounds. I did once. He had a couple of, I

guess, wooden legs. And two canes. He was dressed in a suit. He

looked fine.”

“Oho,” said Prosper, not wanting to seem too familiar with this

dodge.

“He had a wife,” Bunce said.

“He did. Well.”

“Not bad looking, either.”

“How do you like that.”

The bus swung around a sharp right, entering the streets of the

capital. Bunce fell heavily against Prosper somehow without taking his

eyes from him. Then he climbed out of the seat. “Do yourself a good

turn,” he said. “Stay away from my family.”

5

On a Friday night the Teenie Weenies bused or drove into Ponca

City to watch Vi play fast-pitch softball with the Moths under

the lights. The little stadium had been built by the oil company,

but the new lights were Van Damme’s gift to Ponca City. The