"A pity the makils always draw on the Arkamye," said San, with smug, pious disapproval. He was not a very high-class owner, in fact he owned no assets;
but he was an owner, and a bigoted Tualite, and liked to remind himself of it. "Scenes from the Incarnations ofTual would be more befitting such an audience."
"I'm sure you agree, Rega," she said, enjoying her own irony.
»-® 56 a-'-s?
Forgiveness Day
"Not at all," he said, with such toneless politeness that at first she did not realise what he had said;
and then forgot the minor puzzle in the bustle of finding their way and gaining admittance to the backstage and to the performers' dressing room.
When they realised who she was, the managers tried to clear all the other performers out, leaving her alone with Batikam (and San and the Major, of course); but she said no, no, no, these wonderful artists must not be disturbed, just let me talk a moment with Batikam. She stood there in the bustle of doffed costumes, half-naked people, smeared makeup, laughter, dissolving tension after the show, any backstage on any world, talking with the clever, intense man in elaborate archaic woman's costume. They hit it off at once. "Can you come to my house?" she asked. "With pleasure," Batikam said, and his eyes did not flick to San's or the Major's face: the first bondsman she had yet met who did not glance to her Quard or her Guide for permission to say or do anything, anything at all.
She glanced at them only to see if they were shocked. San looked collusive, the Major looked rigid. "I'll come in a little while," Batikam said. "I must change."
They exchanged smiles, and she left. The fizz was back in the air. The huge close stars hung clustered like grapes of fire. A moon tumbled over the icy peaks, another jigged like a lopsided lantern above the curlicue pinnacles of the palace. She strode along the dark street, enjoying the freedom of the male robe she wore and its warmth, making San trot to keep up;
the Major, long-legged, kept pace with her. A high, trilling voice called, "Envoy!" and she turned with a
FOUR WAYS TO FORGIVENESS
smile, then swung round, seeing the Major grappling momentarily with someone in the shadow of a portico. He broke free, caught up to her without a word, seized her arm in an iron grip, and dragged her into a run. "Let go!" she said, struggling; she did not want to use an aiji break on him, but nothing less was going to get her free.
He pulled her nearly off-balance with a sudden dodge into an alley; she ran with him, letting him keep hold on her arm. They came unexpectedly out into her street and to her gate, through it, into the house, which he unlocked with a word — how did he do that? — "What is all this?" she demanded, breaking away easily, holding her arm where his grip had bruised it.
She saw, outraged, the last flicker of an exhilarated smile on his face. Breathing hard, he asked, "Are you hurt?"
"Hurt? Where you yanked me, yes — what do you think you were doing?"
"Keeping the fellow away."
"What fellow?"
He said nothing.
"The one who called out? Maybe he wanted to talk to me!"
After a moment the Major said, "Possibly. He was in the shadow. I thought he might be armed. I must go out and look for San Ubattat. Please keep the door locked until I come back." He was out the door as he gave the order; it never occurred to him that she would not obey, and she did obey, raging. Did he think she couldn't look after herself? That she needed him interfering in her life, kicking slaves around, "protecting" her? Maybe it was time he saw
s*s> 58 'Aa
Forgiveness Day
what an aiji fall looked like. He was strong and quick, but had no real training. This kind of amateur interference was intolerable, really intolerable; she must protest to the Embassy again.
As soon she let him back in with a nervous, shamefaced San in tow, she said, "You opened my door with a password. I was not informed that you had right of entrance day and night."
He was back to his military blankness.
"Nomum," he said.
"You are not to do so again. You are not to seize hold of me ever again. I must tell you that if you do,
I will injure you. If something alarms you, tell me what it is and I will respond as I see fit. Now will you please go."
"With pleasure, mum," he said, wheeled, and marched out.
"Oh, Lady — Oh, Envoy," San said, "that was a dangerous person, extremely dangerous people, 1 am so sorry, disgraceful," and he babbled on. She finally got him to say who he thought it was, a religious dissident, one of the Old Believers who held to the original religion of Gatay and wanted to cast out or kill all foreigners and unbelievers. "A bondsman?" she asked with interest, and he was shocked
— "Oh, no, no, a real person, a man — but most misguided, a fanatic, a heathen fanatic! Knifemen, they call themselves. But a man. Lady — Envoy, certainly a man!"
The thought that she might think that an asset might touch her upset him as much as the attempted
assault. If such it had been-
As she considered it, she began to wonder if, since she had put the Major in his place at the the-
FOUR WAYS TO FORGIVENESS
ater, he had found an excuse to put her in her place by "protecting" her. Well, if he tried it again, he'd find himself upside down against the opposite wall.
"Rewe!" she called, and the bondswoman appeared instantly as always. "One of the actors is coming. Would you like to make us a little tea, something like that?" Rewe smiled, said, "Yes," and vanished. There was a knock at the door. The Major opened it — he must be standing guard outside — and Batikam came in.
It had not occurred to her that the makil would still be in women's clothing, but it was how he dressed offstage too, not so magnificently, but with elegance, in the delicate, flowing materials and dark, subtle hues that the swoony ladies in the dramas wore. It gave considerable piquancy, she felt, to her own male costume. Batikam was not as handsome as the Major, who was a stunning-looking man till he opened his mouth; but the makil was magnetic, you had to look at him. He was a dark greyish brown, not the blue-black that the owners were so vain of (though there were plenty of black assets too, Solly had noticed: of course, when every bondswoman was her owner's sexual servant). Intense, vivid intelligence and sympathy shone in his face through the makil's stardust black makeup, as he looked around with a slow, lovely laugh at her, at San, and at the Major standing at the door. He laughed like a woman, a warm ripple, not the ha, ha of a man. He held out his hands to Solly, and she came forward and took them. "Thank you for coming, Batikam!" she said, and he said, "Thank you for asking me, Alien Envoy!"
"San," she said, "I think this is your cue?"
'S9.S60 <3-»-3'
Forgiveness Day
Only indecision about what he ought to do could have slowed San down till she had to speak.
He still hesitated a moment, then smiled with unction and said, "Yes, so sony, a very good night to you. Envoy! Noon hour at the Office of Mines, tomorrow, I believe?" Backing away, he backed right into the Major, who stood like a post in the doorway. She looked at the Major, ready to order him out without ceremony, how dare he shove back in! — and saw the expression on his face. For once his blank mask had cracked, and what was revealed was contempt. Incredulous, sickened contempt. As if he was obliged to watch someone eat a turd.
"Get out," she said. She turned her back on both of them. "Come on, Batikam; the only privacy I have is in here," she said, and led the makil to her bedroom.
He was born where his fathers before him were bom, in the old, cold house in the foothills above Noeha. His mother did not cry out as she bore him, since she was a soldier's wife, and a soldier's mother, now. He was named for his great-uncle, killed on duty in the Sosa. He grew up in the stark discipline of a poor household of pure veot lineage. His father, when he was on leave, taught him the arts a soldier must know; when his father was on duty the old Asset-Sergeant Habbakam took over the lessons, which began at five in the morning, summer or winter, with worship, shortsword practice, and a crosscountry run. His mother and grandmother taught him the other arts a man must know, beginning with good manners before he was two, and after his