“Are you going to tell me where you’re taking me?” Reeve asks me, for what I think—by last count—is the fourth time.
“No,” I tell him, giving him a side glance as he sits in the passenger seat of my car. “Let it be enough that there’s something important I want to show you, and you’ll have to cool your heels until we get there.”
It’s been four days since Reeve and I made up.
Four days since I promised him that I wouldn’t hold his job against him. That I knew and accepted that anything he did in this case was not designed to hurt me personally.
I made that promise willingly and with utter truth in my heart. I’m not willing to let this case stand in my way of being with this man. As a rational woman, I have to accept that Reeve is who he is. He’s my opponent on this case, and we can’t change that. He’s going to fight me tooth and nail when we get in that courtroom, and I’m going to fight him back just as hard. That’s the way our legal system works.
What I did with my promise is assure him that no matter how much blood we draw in the courtroom, I am not going to let it change my feelings about him.
And there are indeed feelings involved.
Deep feelings.
I realized it the minute Reeve walked away from me after the mediation. The finality of his words and his tone of voice immediately made me see that I was getting ready to lose something very good in my life. Now that I have him back, I’m going to try harder than ever to continue to cement this bond we’ve established.
And that’s why on this Saturday morning, I insisted he get up, get dressed, and we go for a drive. I told him there was something I wanted to show him.
It’s time for me to share more of who I am. It’s time for me to pull the door open wider and let him all the way in.
“Duplin County?” Reeve says as we pass a welcome sign on Interstate 40.
“Yup. Where was I born and raised,” I clarify.
Reeve’s head turns toward me quickly, and I shoot him a quick look. His eyes are round and surprised. “You’re not taking me home to meet your mom, are you?” he asks seriously. “Because we really need to stop and let me get some flowers or something.”
I laugh and reach over to pat his knee. “Um . . . no. I’d give you a better heads-up if that were the case. And besides, my mom now lives on the coast, just below Wilmington. I bought her a small house down there about two years ago.”
“Why the coast?” he asks with interest.
“She’s always loved the ocean. And just . . . you know . . . for everything she did for me growing up. All her sacrifices. I wanted her to be at peace somewhere she loved.”
Reaching over, Reeve takes my hand off the steering wheel and brings it to his mouth, where he kisses my fingertips. “You’ve got a beautiful soul, Leary. I can’t imagine how proud your mother must be of you.”
I smile and blink back the small prick of tears in my eyes over Reeve’s lovely words. The validation he gives me is a comfort, because I haven’t always been so giving to my family.
“So, if we’re not going to see your mom, what are we doing?”
“Patience, my extremely hot and sexy man.”
“Hot and sexy?” he asks with interest. “Like . . . would it be hot and sexy if I put my hand between your legs and got you off while we were driving?”
I take my eyes off the road briefly to shoot him a sharp look, just to see if he’s kidding.
And holy hell . . . he’s not. His eyes are dark and licentious as he looks back at me.
“Hands to yourself,” I croak. “I’ll wreck the car for sure.”
He chuckles and turns his head back to watch the scenery go by.
We pull off the interstate a few miles down and head into my hometown of Kenansville. I show him the town square, point out the old redbrick hospital where I was born. As we pass through town, I point down a side street and say, “If you go that way about two miles, the trailer park I grew up in is down there.”
“Want to go by there?” he asks softly.
“Nah,” I tell him with a tiny smile. “I don’t need that trip down memory lane.”
We hit the outskirts of town, follow Highway 24 for a few miles toward Jacksonville, and then I put on my blinker to make a right-hand turn. Reeve looks out the passenger window, and I can see him sit up straighter in his seat in surprise.
I pull into Shadow Glen Cemetery and follow the main road. It winds around rolling hills studded with grave markers and pine-tree clusters. When I reach the correct spot, I stop the car, put it in park, and turn off the ignition.
Without looking at Reeve, I get out of my car and I hear him doing the same. It’s relatively comfortable outside for November, and the small sweater I put on over my blouse is enough to keep me warm.
Reeve meets me at the front of my car, and I hold my hand out to him. He takes it, wrapping his large hand around mine protectively, and I turn to lead him up a small grassy knoll.
I weave my way past three rows of graves and come to stop in front of a large headstone of a deep, dark gray, which has a matching stone bench sitting alongside the grave. I point at the headstone and say simply, “My sister . . . Lauren.”
Reeve is silent as he reads the words carved into the monument. I didn’t spare any expense.
LAUREN RENEE MICHAELS
SLEEP WELL, OUR DAUGHTER AND SISTER.
TAKE THY REST FOR GOD CALLED THEE HOME
SO YOUR PAIN AND OURS IS NO MORE.
1990–2011
“She had just turned twenty-one before she died,” I murmur, then bend to pluck a few weeds at the base of the granite stone, tossing them to the side.
“What happened?” Reeve asks softly.
I stand back up, feeling my knees pop, and turn to face him. “A drug overdose. Heroin.”
He brings a hand up to stroke my cheek. “I’m sorry.”
Leaning into him, closing my eyes, I say, “Me, too. She was a good person, a kind woman. She just had demons that she couldn’t conquer.”
Stepping back, I take Reeve’s hand and pull him over to the stone bench. I bought this last year so Mom, Jenna, and I could have a place to sit when we came to visit Lauren.
After we sit down, Reeve’s arm comes around my shoulder, and he pulls me in close. I lay my head on his shoulder and stare at Lauren’s grave.
“You asked me a few times why Jenna’s case is so important to me.”
“Yeah,” he says in a soft voice.
“She was Lauren’s best friend. They grew up together, were inseparable, really. Lauren and Jenna partied hard, ran with a bad crowd, barely graduated from high school. They both moved to Raleigh when they turned eighteen.”
“You would have been, what . . . twenty-three?” he asks.
“Yeah, just finishing up my last year at Stanford. Honestly, I was so busy with law school, I really didn’t pay too much attention to what was going on with Lauren. The five-year age difference ensured we weren’t overly close growing up. Mom kept me up-to-date on her. I knew she was partying. She was dancing to make a living, same as Jenna. Living a pretty hard life. But honestly, it was so far removed from me and where I was, I didn’t care too much about it.”
“Nothing you could have done anyway,” Reeve says softly.
“Probably not. At least not while I was living out in California,” I agree. “But within a year, I was back in Raleigh. Jenna got pregnant with Damien and she cleaned up her act. Stopped the drugs and partying. Lived with Damien’s father for a bit, so he supported her. She and Lauren drifted apart a bit during that time, and Lauren got worse. Started using hard-core drugs. She would come to me often asking for money. I’d refuse to give it to her. Refused to reinforce her drug habit.”