They marry a few months after that and a few months later she’s pregnant. They planned it that way and it worked. They wanted to conceive the baby in February so they could spend most of the summer in Maine and have the baby in October, a mild month and where he’d be settled into the fall semester. He goes into the delivery room with her, does a lot of things he learned in the birth classes they took over the summer, to help her get through the more painful labor contractions. When their daughter’s about a month old he starts dancing with her at night just as that man did three years ago. He has two Mahler symphonies on record, buys three more and dances to the slow movements and to the last half of the second side of a recording of Sibelius’s Fifth Symphony. Denise loves to see him dancing like this. Twice she’s said “May I cut in?” and they held the baby and each other and danced around the living room. Dancing with the baby against his chest, he soon found out, also helps get rid of her gas and puts her to sleep. He usually keeps a light on while he dances so he won’t bump into things and possibly trip. Sometimes he closes his eyes — in the middle of the room — and dances almost in place while he kisses the baby’s neck, hair, even where there’s cradle cap, back, ears, face. Their apartment’s on the third floor and looks out on other apartments in a building across the backyard. He doesn’t think it would stop him dancing if he saw someone looking at him through one of those windows. He doesn’t even think he’d lower the blinds. Those apartments are too far away — a hundred feet or more — to make him self-conscious about his dancing. If his apartment were on the first or second floor and fronted on the sidewalk, he’d lower the living room blinds at night. He’d do it even if he didn’t have a baby or wasn’t dancing with it. He just doesn’t like people looking in at night from the street.
5. Frog Fears
His daughter’s asleep upstairs, his wife’s out. After his wife left he got his daughter to sleep by giving her a bath (very brief; small portable plastic tub in the kitchen into which he poured three parts hot water to two parts cold), reading to her for about fifteen minutes, then in the dark telling her another part of the “Mickey and Donald Go Fishing” story he’s been making up for her just about every other night for the past year, and finally singing a few nursery rhymes in a low voice to his own impromptu tunes. His wife went to a movie in the nearest big town from here. Seventeen miles along mostly curvy country roads. She wanted him to go with her, he would have but not enthusiastically (doesn’t especially like movies, and especially in theaters and in the evening when he has to drive a good ways to one), but they couldn’t get a babysitter. “You go,” she said. “No, you go, since you’re really the one who wants to.” A new Russian movie she’s been eager to see since they saw the trailer of it in a Manhattan theater last year and she read a couple of reviews. Being shown in the town hall meeting room, on hard fold-up chairs, so not the most comfortable place to see a relatively long and, from what the trailer suggested and she told him the reviews said, slow, dark, dense movie. About two-and-a-half hours. That’s what someone at the town hall said tonight when she called up about it. It’s been almost an hour since she said she’d be home. The movie might have started late. The organizer of the event, Denise has said, tends to wait till the last possible customer has bought his ticket, decided if he wants anything at the refreshment table, sat down and taken off his sweater or shawl and hung it over the back of the chair, before she starts the movie. The single showing of the only movie being shown in that town this week, other than a nature movie at the library, let’s say. There’s no real movie theater there. White Hill. The nearest real theater (marquee, box office, refreshment stand and soft movie seats), which shows a movie two to three times a day on weekends, is in an even larger town twenty-one miles past White Hill. Elksford. It’s twelve on the dot now. Takes a half-hour to drive back from White Hill under normal driving conditions. There may be a thick fog on the road and she’s driving very slowly. The route from their village to about five miles from White Hill is along a peninsula. Or even stopped for a while when the driving became too hazardous for her because of the fog. He’s never seen a movie in that hall. She’s been to two this summer, both times with a friend of theirs who couldn’t go tonight, and came back around when she said she would. He did see one in the Elksford theater, only because she’d wanted to see it even more than this one and he didn’t want her driving that far alone at night or even walking back to her car after the movie was over. Elksford’s about ten miles from a national park and can get rowdy at night. Motorcycles; campers filling up on food, booze and gas and getting drunk or high. White Hill has no bars or stores open past nine. Only times he’s been inside the town hall have been in the basement once a summer for the last few years when they take their cats there for their annual shots. Cheaper and easier than in New York. An Elksford vet who sets up a clinic every Monday night. Even puts a desk nameplate out, probably so the pet owners can spell his name right on their checks. Dr. Hugh van Houtensack or von Hautensack. There have been accidents on the roads around here because of the fog, most of them early morning or late at night. He reads about them happening every other week or so in the local weekly. One man lost a leg last summer. In a rented car, visiting his daughter and son-in-law for a few days, so probably wasn’t familiar with the area and also might not have known how to drive in fog. Denise knows the roads and what to do with the headlights in fog. She’s more than seven months pregnant. Maybe she shouldn’t have been driving. Her stomach’s already pressed up against the steering wheel. If she pushes the seat back any farther she can’t reach the floor pedals. Maybe she suddenly got labor pains or false labor pains she took for the real ones and went to the White Hill hospital. Should he call? His daughter snores upstairs. She sleeps in a crib in the one room upstairs, their own bed behind a screen. Don’t call. Denise knows the difference between the two pains, and he’s sure she’d try to call him before she went to a hospital, but definitely have someone at the hospital call him once she got there. Maybe she met someone she knows at the movie and they talked after, wanted to continue the talk so went for coffee or ice cream at the sandwich and ice cream shop a couple of miles past White Hill. She would have called, from the town hall if it had a phone, but definitely from the shop. She might be driving along the secondary road to their private road right now. Or driving down the private road any second now. He’d see the headlights thirty seconds or so before she reached the house. My worries are over he’d say if he saw the lights now. He’d go outside to greet the car, open the door for her, help her out, kiss her and walk back to the house holding her shoulder and hand. The headlights would only be from her car. Maybe twice a summer someone’s driven down their road by mistake — none so far this summer, far as he knows — and for some reason almost always in the day. Not many people around here leave their grounds after dark. And so few unusual things happen around the cottage that he thinks they’ve always told one another when someone’s driven down their road by mistake. Olivia snores. Loves to see her sleep. He goes upstairs to see if she’s OK. He knows she is but goes upstairs just to do something but also, he just now thinks, to pull the covers back over her if they’ve slid off and to push her left leg back in if it’s sticking through the crib bars. That’s the one that recurrently comes out; the other side of the crib’s against the wall.