Gets out of bed, thinks of taking the stick, leaves it. Goes into Olivia’s room. Covers are on her, she’s alseep, kisses her, strokes her head. Eva’s room. Asleep, covers off, puts her back on her stomach, covers over her, reaches down to kiss her. Mattress position in the crib so deep his lips can’t reach her, so he strokes her head, leaves his hand on her forehead. Goes through the apartment. Everything OK. Jumps when the cat walks into the living room, cat runs away. Goes back to bed, under the covers, holds the stick. “Denise?” No sound. Holds his breath. She’s breathing lightly, on her side, back to him. Lets go of the stick and snuggles up to her. She’s wearing a bathrobe. Pulls it above her waist, nothing on underneath, sticks his penis between her thighs and leaves it there. Doesn’t want to bother her. Really doesn’t. If he gets an erection he won’t do anything like press even closer to her, wiggle around a bit to show he’s interested in making love if she is. Kisses her shoulder through the robe, her neck. “Do you want me to get up and put the thing in?” she says. “I’m sorry. No. I thought you were asleep. I didn’t kiss you for that. Just as a good-night.” “Oh?” “No, really.” “It might get rid of some of your tension.” “And yours, but better we just sleep. We haven’t got many hours left and the kids might get up again tonight.” “I don’t mind if you don’t. If I stop being involved in it it’ll only be because I’m too sleepy or still too nervous or something of before all of a sudden came back to me and took my mind off it, but you just go ahead.” “Same here then. OK.” “OK I should get up?” “Sure, if you really don’t mind and it’s not too much trouble. But I don’t want you to think I needed all that fighting and violence to incite it. I’m perfectly happy to go to sleep now holding you like this.” “How about if I put it in just in case?” and she gets out of bed and goes to the dresser.
12. Frog Wants Out