Despair." "I have never seen despair as a sin." He looked her in the eye and smiled. "Then you've never considered it." "What do you mean?"
"Despair is the forsaking of hope, believing that you know all paths.
Embracing doom. But no mortal can see so far-even those like us who have been shown"-the belkagen stopped and swallowed-"shown such things. We are given the greatest burden of all, I think, to be shown some of what lies ahead that we might still dare to hope." Amira scowled. She had the feeling that the belkagen wasn't talking about Gyaidun anymore. What had the old elf seen in Hro'nyewachu? She'd asked, but he'd refused to answer. In some ways, he seemed little more than a simple, old mystic who'd spent too long out in the sun, but at times like now she found him more inscrutable than the greatest masters of her Art. "I know Gyaidun is no coward," she said. "You know it now, but later, when this fight is done… the thought might come to you. When it does, know that it is a lie." Amira looked down at Jalan, who was still sleeping. She didn't look up as she said, "You really think there will be a later?" "Dare to hope, Lady. We must dare to hope."
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
The Endless Wastes The land lay on the verge of true darkness when the lone guard saw them. They came from the west-a dozen ghostlike shapes only slightly darker than the surrounding snow. Still crouching in the shadow of the great rock, the guard took a wooden pipe out of his belt pouch and put it to his lips. He blew a long note that rose and fell with the wind.
The nearest of the approaching shapes stopped. The guard stood and stepped out of the shadows. He waved his spear in three wide arcs. The figures resumed their run, and by the time full dark had fallen they had gathered around the rock-twelve winter wolves and eight Frost Folk riding. Their leader brought his mount forward until he towered over the guard. Steam from the great beast's breath enveloped the guard in an icy cloud. "We have come," said the new arrival. "To where does the master call us?" The deepest shadow under the great rock moved. It stood, a tall man wearing the tattered remains of an ash-gray cloak and cowl. Snow and frost clung to him, and there was no warmth in his breath to cloud before him. He stepped forward until he stood beside the guard. The winter wolf before them let out a small whine and took several steps backward, its ears low and its tail between its legs.
"To Winterkeep," said the sorcerer. "We go to Winterkeep."
Sitting before the meager fire, Jalan curled up next to her, Amira gripped her new staff as she studied its runes. She'd never seen their like, and she had studied most of the languages of Faer?n, both ancient and modern, living and dead. Still, there was something familiar about them, something she felt she ought to recognize. It nagged at her, just as the staff itself seemed to… to sing to her.
It was not unlike the times she'd lulled Jalan to sleep as a baby with a lullaby-oftentimes nonsense words where the sound and melody were more important than the meaning. Something within the staff spoke to her like that-not in words or even meaning, but in a deeper connection that had more to do with the beating of her heart and the passions of her flesh than the knowledge of her mind. Even now, she could feel it flowing through her, and she felt a strange communion with the golden wood, and through it to all the land around her. So strong was the sensation, that she could feel the sun setting in the distance, even though it was hidden behind countless miles of falling snow and cloud.
She heard movement and looked up to see a pale elf sitting down across the fire from her. At first she thought it was Lendri, but it was not.
In his exile, Lendri had collected various bits of other cultures upon his person. His clothes and supplies showed he had traveled among half the peoples of the Wastes, but the one before her now was all Vil Adanrath, dressed only in leathers and the fur of various animals. His hair was wild and free, and though it was now sprinkled with snow, still it drank in the firelight and seemed to glow with its own warmth. "I am Leren," said the elf, speaking each word with careful precision. He held his palms open before him and offered a small bow.
"Son of Haerul, Omah Nin of the Vil Adanrath." "I am Amira," she said, her voice low so as not to wake Jalan. "Amira Hiloar, War Wizard of Cormyr. Yes, I know." Amira did not know what to say, so she said nothing. "I have seen you with the belkagen. He speaks well of you."
"He saved me and my son," she said, and placed a gentle hand on Jalan's shoulder. "He and Gyaidun and Lendri. They saved our lives."
Leren flinched at the mention of his brother and Gyaidun's names. "I did not come to speak to you of the hrayeket." "Then why did you come?" "My father sent out summons to all the packs. Many have come, and others may come still, but he and the belkagen agree on this: We cannot wait. The belkagen says our enemies will be here soon, and he says you know this also." Amira nodded. "The belkagen speaks the truth." "Then we must prepare. The omah nin will make amrulugek. You know what this means?" "Yes. A council." "Council, yes. The omah nin asks you to come." A shiver went up Amira's spine. She'd spoken with a few of the Vil Adanrath over the last day or so, but for the most part they kept to themselves. She thought it was mostly because they avoided Lendri, and when he was in camp, he was most often around Amira's fire. The belkagen had acted as a sort of go-between, and Amira had liked that just fine. The Vil Adanrath made every hair on her body stand on end. She'd known elves all her life, but none like these. Shapeshifters who could walk as wolves as easily as elves- and even when they walked on two legs the wolf never quite left their stride or their eyes. "Will the belkagen be there?" she asked. "He will." "And Lendri?" Leren flinched. "That one is hrayek. Exiled. He cannot join our council." "He may join our fight and risk his blood but not sit at our fire?" Leren said nothing, simply sat and watched her. "I will come," she said. "But I do not like Lendri being excluded." "You do not know his crimes," said Leren, though there was a tone of respect in his voice. "And you do not know mine, but still you ask me to your council." "Your crimes were not against the Vil Adanrath." Amira scowled. "Fine. When is the council?" "The scouts should return soon. We meet then. Someone will come for you." Leren stood to go. "My son," said Amira. "I will not leave him." The elf looked down on Jalan. "Your son may come."
Amira did not have long to wait. Leren had been gone just long enough for full dark to fall when the belkagen trudged up to her fire, his long cloak trailing in the snow. "It is time, Lady," he said. "The council of the omah nin gathers." Amira gave Jalan a gentle shake.
"Jalan," she said. "Jal, you must wake up." He stirred, turning so that the blanket fell away from his face. His eyes went wide and he gasped. "It's dark," he said. "I know, dear. We're in camp. We're safe. But you must wake up, just for a little while. You and I have been invited to a council." Jalan squeezed his eyes shut, and his whole body shuddered. But he forced himself up, and he and Amira followed the belkagen, his staff emitting its cold green fire and lighting their way. The camp was spread out in a shallow valley that probably turned into a river in spring and early summer. Autumn-bare trees, their branches drooping under a heavy load of snow, lined the ground between the valley and steep embankment, and the Vil Adanrath had made fires and erected small lean-tos beneath them. Wolves and elves slept in some of the campsites, others were empty, and a few sat beside fires and watched the trio pass. The omah nin had built his fire at the very edge of the camp where the eastern embankment fell to a flat area of scrub and boulders, all made into formless humps of snow. Behind a large fire stood Haerul himself, shirtless but with a long cape of black fur draping his shoulders. His hair was unbound and hung heavy with snow well below his waist. He was almost as tall as Gyaidun, but his frame had the lean strength of the elves. Scars crisscrossed his torso, and one particularly nasty gash, long healed, streaked down his neck and chest. Like the rest of the Vil Adanrath, only bits of pale skin peeked out from a twisting maze of black tattoos. As she approached the chieftain, Amira caught glints of red among the darker inks and thought at first that they were new scars, still raw from healing. But her breath caught in her throat when she took a closer look. They were runes, and although there were differences, she recognized them. She couldn't read them, but there was no doubt that they were the same language as was carved into her new staff. "Belkagen," she whispered. "Those marks upon the omah nin.