The judge went, after calling some kind of recess, and a buzz went over the place, now that people could talk. Lucas went. Suddenly Holly got up, came over, took my hand, and spoke my name, the first word she had said to me, just between us two, since that morning when we held hands in her car. Brice grabbed her hand and pulled it away. He said: “Damn it, Mrs. Val, haven’t you done enough, wrecking this whole case while you admired your cheesecake, without this? Suppose a juror sees it? Or a bailiff? Don’t you know there’s no such grapevine as the door of a jury room?”
She pulled her hand from his and put it back in mine. She said: “I’m sorry, Mr. Brice, if I haven’t acted to suit you, but I may never see Duke again, and there are things I have to say to him — if you’ll excuse me.”
“I beg your pardon, Mrs. Valenty.”
He went back to his place, peevish, yet pulling for us both.
She said: “Duke, do you love me?”
“I said so, didn’t I?”
“As I did, darling, and do again. At least they didn’t break us, to set us against each other. Duke, one thing I have to say. It wasn’t that I doted on — cheesecake, whatever that is. But I had to show them, they had to know, what Val would have done to me, and what you did for me... Duke, it seemed wonderful, heaven on this earth, that one day you would see me as I was created to be. I little dreamed the whole world would, that I must practically undress in front of them all. We all get what we pray for. The trouble is, we get it all.”
The whispering went on, but I was stretched on my back and could only hear this crowd, not see it. She pushed pillows under my head, so at last I got a view of what went on. It was a mob, with everyone staying put, for fear they’d lose their place when the jury came in with the verdict. Lippert was gone, not having been called back to the stand, the cops were gone, the colored boy was gone. But the Valenty sisters were there, and Mr. and Mrs. Hollis, huddled with Marge and Bill. That huddle caught my eye, as Marge seemed to be frantic, and she never fussed up over nothing. And then here the four of them came, she leading the way through the gate. She whispered with Holly a minute, then stooped over me. She said: “Duke, that cat? Did it by any chance have a bell?”
“I said so, didn’t I?”
“No! You said: ‘He shot at a cat’ — like you didn’t even believe it yourself — ‘and I let go the tank with my right.’ If only, just once, you could have forgotten your left and your right and told what happened, so someone could understand it.”
I said I was sorry, and she turned away. Then Holly was there, pulling a chair up close, and I asked what it was about, and what difference it made whether I mentioned the cat bell or not. She said: “Nothing you could help, and I’ll never blame you for it. It wasn’t a bell, Duke. It was a spur, the one the colored boy heard. The same one as caught in a flag, the night Lincoln got shot.”
She said it solemn, and I could see she believed every word. By then Brice was there, over his peeve, now that he’d heard this news, and taking it very serious. Holly said to me: “Marge was the one who realized that when I didn’t hear that spur, it proved my heart was pure.”
“Mine was set to kill.”
“But for my sake only. You could hear, but you weren’t meant. Only Val was called.”
“He did some praying too.”
“When did Val ever pray?”
“For Hollis Hill. He got it.”
Her eyes opened wide, but about that time Brice put her hand in mine. He said: “Mrs. Val, I apologize — maybe, maybe you proved your case, instead of ruining it.” And then, to me: “If she’s a socker, boy, now let her sock. The door of a jury room can even hear heartbeats. From now on it’s a question of faith.”
He left us, and our hands gripped together, but hers so hard it locked on mine like a clamp. She closed her eyes, and I did, and it was pure communion in prayer.
The lights came on, the judge came in, the old geezer spoke his piece, and once more the court was in session, with the judge calling the jury back in, to see how things were going. The foreman talked pretty glum, said he saw no chance of agreement. A gray-haired woman stood up, said: “We can agree. What’s more, we will.” The judge said they must try, and recessed until nine. Marge raced through the gate, whispered: “She knows! Oh, thank God, she’s got it!”
“How do you find the defendant Holly Valenty?”
“Not guilty.”
“How do you find the defendant Duke Webster?”
“Not guilty.”
She bowed her head and I closed my eyes, each to pray our thanks up before people swarmed all around. I was raised on spurs; my father was a packer in the Sierras on the Truckee, I know what they sound like, which is more like tambourine clickers than any bell. What went by was a cat, that had probably been under the pump-house and made tracks when things got noisy. But when her hand at last was tucked into mine, so thin, so tired, so strained compared with what it had been, I knew, and will believe the rest of my life, that John Wilkes Booth was on Hollis Hill that night, and knew who he was looking for.
Chapter XX
So now we’re out in Nevada, on a ranch she bought, after she wound up the business and picked a church in Virginia where we could slip off and be married. We’re doing for other people what I did for her, and it gives her a boot to take some wreck of a guy, all shot from booze and food, and build him into a man, clean, lean, and hard. Just the same, in all that the papers carried and all that she said in court, too much was made over what I did for her, and practically nothing at all over what she did for me. I know what that was, and it’s more than you might think. After that fall, I’ll never fight again, never even be able to punch my way out of a paper bag. That I didn’t go haywire, that I found a meaning in life, work that might be some good, and ideas that make some sense, was due one hundred per cent to her.
So I want it known, and I’ve told it, all as it was, exactly, so if she ever wants to go back, her people will know we tried to walk in the right. They’ll also know, in the little St. Mary’s church, what she said the other night as we stood watching the sun drop back of the hill beyond the Tonopah road. Those hills look five miles off, and are actually fifty-five. She said: “Duke, they’re like the ocean, that’s why I love them. I saw the ocean once. We went to Ocean City, as my mother had heard salt water might make me lose weight. It didn’t, but I watched the waves, and realized they’d always been there, even before Columbus discovered America. So have those hills. They’re eternal, that’s why they speak to me. You know what they talk about?”
“God.”
“That’s it. God.”