No. That wasn’t right.
Okay, shit. I just fucked the unbelievably gorgeous Mike Haines, who was hot when he was seventeen but who was astronomically, amazingly, super hot gorgeous now, my sister’s ex-boyfriend and it was by far and away the best sex I’d had in my life.
And my brother had never died so I couldn’t know unless we had sex again, and Jesus, God, please, I pray, let it happen again, but it wasn’t about emotional trauma.
It was just that Mike was astronomically, amazingly good in bed.
Okay, shit. Okay, shit!
Right, I should probably not pray to God to give me great sex but, seriously, He created Mike and gave him his abilities, He had to know a woman would want more.
But now what did I do?
I drew in a breath and felt Mike’s fingers drifting on my shoulder. His touch was light. It was also sweet. And I liked it a whole lot. But it was messing with my ability to concentrate.
Further messing with it was that I had my head in the middle of his chest, my arm thrown around his flat abs and my leg tangled in his. After we were done, Mike put us in bed and pulled the sheets up to our waists.
I stared down his chest to his abs trying to think. Then my thoughts about what to do next drifted away with Mike’s sweet touch as I stared at his abs and I found a more pertinent thought to think of.
This being if it was possible that his abs were another divine miracle. I mean, at his age, how did he have a six-pack?
I shook this thought from my brain and, doing what I’d done my whole life, I decided to wing it.
So I turned, shifted slightly up him, my naked torso pressed to his and I got face-to-face.
“Okay,” I started to lay it out. “My brother just died and since I bawled in your arms, you know I’m upset. My sister is a bitch and she’s pissed me off and since I blurted that shit out to you, you know I’m upset about that too. And, the gig with this is, straight up, I needed something to take my mind off all that shit. And you’re gorgeous. And you’re Mike. And you showed up out-of-the-blue at my hotel room and set me off. And I had a crush on you when I was a kid. But, babe, seriously, about two seconds into your kiss, it wasn’t about that. It didn’t have anything to do with that. I swear to God, I’m not lying and I need you to know it.”
After laying it out, I shut up. And when I did his dark brown eyes blinked and they did this slow.
Shit. Even that was hot.
And I’d always loved his eyes.
No. That wasn’t right.
I’d always loved everything about Mike Haines. His thick dark blond hair. His tall, lean frame. His easy smile. The way he teased which was never mean and always sweet. The way, when he was looking at you, he made you feel like the rest of the world had melted away and you were the only person he could see.
Everything.
I watched him grin even slower and he muttered, “Don’t beat around the bush, darlin’.”
I grinned back as the pressure around my heart released.
Then it built up again when I did what I’d done my whole life, made a decision and didn’t hesitate before I took a chance.
“Since you just gave me three mind-boggling orgasms, payback doesn’t exactly scream ‘Reggie’s Pizza’, but it’s a start. I’ll pay if you stay and they deliver.”
I wanted him to say yes. I wanted it more than I wanted to be three years older when he was dating my sister so he could, instead, date me. I wanted it more than anything I’d wanted in a long time.
Years.
Maybe decades.
And the pressure released when he gave it to me by saying, “Works for me.”
I smiled straight out this time and his arm around my shoulders gave me a squeeze as his other arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me further on top of him.
“Coupla things though,” he muttered.
“Sock ‘em to me,” I muttered back and his lips twitched.
Then he said, “Reggie’s boy Toby does the delivering but it’s rare. We’ll order, I’ll go get it.”
That was a bummer because I didn’t want him to leave that bed or my sight but I still whispered, “Right.”
“Second, I pay.”
“But –” I started and his arms gave me a squeeze, his face growing serious.
“Women don’t buy with me,” he said quietly. “I get it, women’s lib and all, got no problem with that. But you’re with me, I pay. No discussion, definitely no stupid-ass fight. That’s just the way it is with me.”
Women’s lib and all. That was funny.
That’ s just the way it is with me. That wasn’t funny. I liked that. A whole lot. The best part was that it intimated it was about more than just one-time pizza.
Still, there was a debt to be paid.
“So how do I pay you back for three mind-boggling orgasms?” I asked.
His face changed but he didn’t answer. This was because the way his face changed was the answer.
An answer I liked. It was sexy as all hell.
And it also intimated this was more than one-time sex after a funeral.
“Okay then, we’re good,” I muttered through another grin, his arms gave me another squeeze, his lips did another twitch then he muttered back, “Reach out and get my jacket, honey.”
I slid off him, scooted to the edge of the bed, reached out and grabbed his suit jacket. I lifted it up, pulled the covers up my back and rolled under them toward him, bringing his jacket with me. I gave it to him, he fished his cell out of the inside pocket then he threw it over me and back on the floor.
I rolled into him as he pressed buttons on the phone.
“What do you like on it?” he asked, eyes to the phone.
“Pepperoni, sausage, mushrooms, onions, peppers, olives, ham or any combination of the above.”
His eyes went from his phone to me, “Pineapple?”
My lip curled as my nose scrunched and I didn’t try to stop it. Then again, I never tried to stop it. I was me. I thought what I thought. I liked what I liked. And I didn’t hide much of anything. Life was exhausting enough with all the ups and downs and bullshit people kept trying to feed you. Expending that kind of effort for essentially no purpose seemed a ridiculous waste of energy.
“I’ll take that as a no,” Mike murmured and I stopped scrunching my nose and smiled at him again.
“That’s a resounding no,” I clarified.
He smiled back then asked, “Meat lovers?”
“Sounds good to me.”
He pressed a button on his phone then put it to his ear.
“I approve,” I stated, shifting my body deeper into his, his arm immediately moved around me and I liked that too. “Reggie’s on speed dial,” I finished.
“Got two kids, only way it could be,” he muttered then, “Toby? Yeah, Mike Haines. I’m ordering a large meat lovers for pickup.”
He continued to order and my thoughts turned to the fact he had two kids.
I knew that. Darrin told me. Darrin also told me Mike was divorced. Darrin had called the minute he heard. Darrin, until four days ago when he died, had delusions that he could wring a miracle. That miracle being that Mike Haines would put his ring on my finger thus bringing me back to The ‘Burg so I would be in the bosom of my family. Better yet, that I would be in the bed of a decent man who wouldn’t work my last nerve and Darrin could quit worrying about me. Therefore, Darrin had been generous with his information that it was known throughout town that Mike’s ex was a total bitch. Also that she treated him like shit. And further that Mike was roundly liked so it took effort to stop the town council from organizing a parade when the divorce was final.
What I got out of this was that it sucked a good guy like Mike got caught up with a woman who treated him like shit. I also wondered how good women like me, and I hoped I was a decent person or at least I tried to be, found myself losers and good guys like Mike found bitches and people like us never found each other.