Nhi Handrys had not been so fortunate. His body, brows bound with the red cord to tie his soul within until the funeral, rested between death-lights upon another bench in the armory.
Erij stifled a scream at the touch and hiss of iron, and Vanye flinched. There was a stench of burned flesh. Eventually Erijs moans grew softer as the drugged wine had effect. Vanye lifted his head, fearing this brother dead alsosome died under the cautery, of the shock, and the drugged wine together. But his half-brother yet breathed.
And Nhi Rijan struck with all the force of his arm, and cast Vanye sprawling and dazed, his head still ringing as he crawled to resume his kneeling posture, head down at his fathers feet. Chya murderer, his father said. My curse, my curse on you. And his father wept. This hurt Vanye more than the blow. He looked up and saw a look of utter revulsion. He had never known Nhi Rijan could weep.
If I had put an hours thought into your begetting, bastard son, I would have gotten no sons on a Chya. Chya and Nhi are an unlucky mixing. I wish I had exercised more prudence.
I defended myself, Vanye protested from bruised lips. Handrys meant to draw bloodsee And he showed his side, where the light practice armor was rent, and blood flowed. But his father turned his face from that
Handrys was my eldest, his father said, and you were the merest nights amusement. I have paid dearly for that night. But I took you into the house. I owed your mother that, since she had the ill luck to die bearing you. You were death to her too. I should have realized that you are cursed that way. Handrys dead, Erij maimedall for the likes of you, bastard son. Did you hope to be heir to Nhi if they were both dead? Was that it?
Father, Vanye wept, they meant to kill me.
No. To put that arrogance of yours in its placethat, maybe. But not to kill you. No. You are the one who killed. You murdered. You turned edge on your brothers in practice, and Erij not even armed. The fact is that you are alive and my eldest son is not, and I would it were the other way around, Chya bastard. I should never have taken you in. Never.
Father, he cried, and the back of Nhi Rijans hand smashed the word from his mouth and left him wiping blood from his lips. Vanye bowed down again and wept
What shall I do with you? asked Rijan at last.
I do not know, said Vanye.
A man carries his own honor. He knows.
Vanye looked up, sick and shaking. He could not speak in answer to that. To fall upon his own blade and diethis, his father asked of him. Love and hate were so confounded in him that he felt rent in two, and tears blinded him, making him more ashamed.
Will you use it? asked Rijan.
It was Nhi honor. But the Chya blood was strong in him too, and the Chya loved life too well.
The silence weighed upon the air.
Nhi cannot kill Nhi, said Rijan at last You will leave us, then!
I had no wish to kill him.
You are skilled. It is clear that your hand is more honest than your mouth. You struck to kill. Your brother is dead. You meant to kill both brothers, and Erij was not even armed. You can give me no other answer. You will become ilin. This I set on you.
Yes, sir, said Vanye, touching brow to the floor, and there was the taste of ashes in his mouth. There was only short prospect for a masterless ilin, and such men often became mere bandits, and ended badly.
You are skilled, said his father again. It is most likely that you will find place in Aenor, since a Chya woman is wife to the Ris in Aenor-Pyven. But there is lord Gervaines land to cross, among the Myya. If Myya Gervaine kills you, your brother will be avenged, and it will be without blood on Nhi hands or Nhi steel.
Do you wish that? asked Vanye.
You have chosen to live, said his father. And from Vanyes own belt he took the Honor blade that was the peculiar distinction of the uyin, and he seized Vanyes long hair that was the mark of Nhi manhood, and sheared it off roughly in irregular lengths. The hair, Chya and fairer than was thought honest human blood among most clans, fell to the stone floor in its several braids; and when it was done, Nhi Rijan set his heel on the blade and broke it, casting the pieces into Vanyes lap.
Mend that, said Nhi Rijan, if you can.
The wind cold upon his shorn neck, Vanye found the strength to rise; and his numb fingers still held the halves of the shortsword. Shall I have horse and arms? he asked, by no means sure of that, but without them he would surely die.
Take all that is yours, said the Nhi. Clan Nhi wants to forget you. If you are caught within our borders you will die as a stranger and an enemy.
Vanye bowed, turned and left.
Coward, his fathers voice shouted after him, reminding him of the unsatisfied honor of the Nhi, which demanded his death; and now he wished earnestly to die, but it was no longer help for his personal dishonor. He was marked like a felon for hanging, like the lowest of criminals: exile had not demanded this further punishmentit was lord Nhi Rijans own justice, for the Nhi had also a darker nature, which was implacable and excessive in revenge.
He put on his armor, hiding the shame of his head under a leather coif and a peaked helm, and bound about the helm the white scarf of the ilin, wandering warrior, to be claimed by whatever lord chose to grant him hearth-right.
Ilinin were often criminals, or clanless, or unclaimed bastards, and some religious men doing penance for some particular sin, bound in virtual slavery according to the soul-binding law of the ilin codes, to serve for a year at their Claiming. Not a few turned mercenary, taking pay, losing uyin rank; or, in outright dishonor, became thieves; or, if honest and honorable, starved, or were robbed and murdered, either by outlaws or by hedge-lords that took their service and then laid claim to all that they had.
The Middle Realms were not at peace: they had not been at peace since Irien and the generation before; but neither were there great wars, such as could make an ilins life profitable. There was only grinding poverty for midlands villages, and in Koris, the evil of Hjemurs minionsdark sorceries and outlaw lords much worse than the outlaws of the high mountains.
And there was lord Myya Gervaines small land of Morij Erd which barred his way to Aenor and separated him from his only hope of safety.
It was the second winter, the cold of the high passes of the mountains, and a dead horse that finally drove him to the desperate step of trying to cross the lands of Gervaine.
A black Myya arrow had felled his gelding, poor Mai, that had been his mount since he first reached manhood; and Mais gear now was on a bay mare he had of the Myyathe owner being beyond need of her.
They had harried him from Luo to Ethrith-mri, and only once had he turned to fight. Hill by hill they had forced him against the mountains of the south. He ran willingly now, though he was faint with hunger and there was scant grain left for his horse. Aenor was just across the next ridges. The Myya were no friends of the Ris in Aenor-Pyven, and would not risk his land.
It was late that he realized the nature of the road he had begun to travel, and that it was the old qujalin road and not the one he sought. Occasional paving rang under the bay mares hooves. Occasional stones thrust up by the roadside and he began to fear indeed that it led to the dead places, the cursed grounds. Snow fell for a time, whiting everything outstopping pursuit (he hoped that, at least). And he spent the night in the saddle, daring only to sleep a time in the early morning, after the movings in the brush were silenced and he not longer feared wolves.