“ Who said that?” She heard a man’s voice, but didn’t answer.
“ I didn’t say nothing, buddy,” the rumpled man said.
“ Then who did?” The man’s voice again.
“ Just you and me in here and I didn’t say nothing.” The rumpled man scratched under his left arm.
“ You sure?” the man’s voice said.
“ You hard of hearing? I told you, I didn’t say nothing.”
“ Okay, sorry, I must have imagined it. I’ve had a bad night and I’m having an even worse morning.”
“ I’m not exactly having a picnic here myself.”
“ What did you do?” the man’s voice asked.
“ So now you’re talking to me. All night you been sitting there staring off into space. People coming and going and you don’t say a word and now you want to talk? Well la-de-da Mr. Big Shot, maybe I don’t want to talk to you.”
“ Then don’t.”
“ I know who you are, Mr. Monday, Mr. Jim Monday. I know who you are and I know what you did.”
The rumpled man was looking right at her, but he called her Jim Monday. “Why?”
“ What?”
“ I said, I know who you are.”
“ I thought you said something else.”
“ Well I didn’t. I said, I know who you are. You’re a rich bastard. You’re in deep trouble and I’m glad.”
“ Why, what did I ever do to you?”
“ You made your money off the backs of the working class. You keep your workers down by paying low wages, so you can sit in your big house and drive hundred thousand dollar cars, while your employees can barely afford twenty-year-old Chevys.”
“ I live in a rather small house, I drive a five-year-old Ford and I don’t have any employees.”
“ You’re a millionaire big shot.”
“ I may be wealthy, but I’m no big shot.”
“ Oh, yes you are. The way people talk about you, you’d think you shit gold.”
“ Think what you want, I don’t need the conversation anyway.” Donna felt herself lean back and then it went dark.
“ Don’t turn out the lights!” She screamed the thought and instantly it was light again and she saw the rumpled man glaring at her. Then her eyes involuntarily roamed around the room. She saw benches, a toilet without a seat, a sink, bars. She was in a jail somewhere. She was dreaming that she was in jail.
“ Voices, I’m hearing voices.” She instinctively knew she was hearing the man who had been talking with the rumpled man, only now he wasn’t talking, she was hearing him in her head.
“ Me, you’re hearing me!” It was her dream. If the voice could hear her, then she could talk to it. Maybe it wouldn’t send her away this time.
Jim closed his eyes and tried to clear his head.
“ No, please don’t send me away again. Please don’t turn out the lights.”
He opened his eyes.
“ Thank you.”
“ Something wrong?” the drunk sitting across from him said.
“ You ought to try minding your own business.” Jim had had just about all he could take from the man.
“ Big man.”
Jim stood.
“ Sorry.” The drunk cowered back, pushing himself against the wall.
“ That’s your last word.” Jim stared down at him. He wasn’t usually like this. He’d spent the better part of his life learning to roll with the punches. It was like all the years since Vietnam were being washed away.
The drunk nodded, fear in his eyes.
“ Did you have to talk to him that way? It wasn’t very nice.”
Jim tried to clear his head.
“ No, I’ll be good. Please don’t send me away.”
He stopped trying to fight the voice. “Who are you?” he thought.
“ I am Donna Tuhiwai. I am asleep in the Park Side Motel, in Fungarei and this is all a bad dream.”
“ Great, I’m going crazy,” he said.
The drunk started to say something, but checked himself. Apparently he had no desire to tangle with a crazy man.
“ It’s my dream. I can hear you fine if you just think the words.”
“ This is not happening,” Jim thought. He knocked on his cast, heard and felt the knock, therefore this was happening. It was real.
“ I am Donna Tuhiwai, I am asleep in the Park Side Motel, in Fungarei and I am dreaming,” the voice repeated.
“ Where is Fungarei.”
“ Come on, it’s the biggest city in the North.”
“ Never heard of it.”
“ What pakeha doesn’t know that we pronounce “w-h” with an “f-u” sound. Whangarei then, now don’t tell me you don’t know where that is.”
“ No, I don’t.”
“ Who are you, Jim Monday?”
“ Right now I don’t know.”
“ Where are you?”
“ Jail, but you probably know that.”
“ What Jail?”
“ Long Beach City Jail.”
“ Long Beach? Where? In California? In America?
“ I am going crazy.” Jim got off the bench, started to pace the cell.
“ If you talk out loud, you just make that man curious. And even though this is only a dream, I don’t think I like him.”
“ This is no dream.” And to underscore his thought, he knocked on his cast again.
“ It can’t be real.” Donna thought.
“ It is for me.” Jim couldn’t put his finger on it, but the fact that she was in the same boat as him, sort of made the situation easier to take.
“ Then where does that leave me?” Donna thought. There was anxiety in her thought-voice. She seemed young.
“ I don’t know, where are you?”
“ New Zealand.”
“ You’re kidding?” Jim was stunned.
“ No.”
“ Let me think this through.”
“ Does that mean you’re going to send me away again?”
“ I don’t know. When I push your thoughts out of my head, is that when you go away?”
“ I think so.”
“ Where do you go?”
“ I don’t know. It’s dark. I don’t like it.”
“ Okay, I won’t force you away, but you have to let me think.” He sat back down.
“ I won’t think a word.”
Jim fought the panic threatening to rise. Somehow he was receiving a woman’s thoughts from halfway around the world. Unless, of course, it was some kind of an elaborate hoax, but that didn’t make sense. Who would do such a thing? Who could do such a thing?
He got up, started pacing again, five steps across the cell, five back. It was some kind of telepathy, he reasoned. It couldn’t be anything else. Somehow he was tuned into this woman’s mind. He remembered hearing a story, when he was a kid, about a woman who spoke Chinese under hypnosis. She was supposedly picking up the thoughts of a peasant woman in China. Everybody thought she was faking. She probably was. But this, this was real. He was hearing another person’s thoughts like they were his own. It was frightening and fascinating and it was something he had to keep to himself. One word of something like this and it was the nuthouse for Jim Monday.
And it would also be the nuthouse if he went around saying his wife’s lover was trying to kill him. He was sure of what he had seen in Kohler’s eyes, but it was possible for the doctor to hate him and not want him dead. He made a giant leap based on nothing more than his own feelings for the man. Maybe Kohler was innocent.
Even the rifle shot through the back window of the police car could be explained. Plenty of people hate the police. It could have been a drug dealer or someone high on drugs, who saw a squad car and took a shot at it for kicks, or maybe Washington or Walker had enemies, maybe somebody they once arrested. The rifle shot couldn’t have been for him. He was being paranoid.
But paranoid or not, David was dead and he was in jail, charged with assault and battery. How stupid, letting his emotions control him like that. Kohler was probably going to sue and he would have to pay, whatever the amount. The last thing he wanted to do was to go into court against Julia’s lover. No matter how much he despised the man, he still loved her. If they wanted more money because he attacked the son of a bitch, he would just pay it.
“ That’s dumb,” Donna thought.
“ It’s how I feel. If she wants money, she can have it. I can make more.”