“This is fucking incredible.” I glanced over my shoulder. Gryffin leaned against the far wall, watching me. “Do you know how she did these?”
“Hey, if you’re asking me—”
“I’m not. I know. You don’t?” He shook his head. “It’s an unusual method. “See, this is all really heavy watercolor stock…”
I tapped the glass covering one photo. “You coat the paper with gelatin and let it dry. Then you paint over it with layers of pigment mixed with starch. Remember when you were in kindergarten and you colored a page with a red crayon, and then a blue crayon on top of that, then a yellow one or whatever, then scraped it off with a nail or a chopstick so the colors came through? This is the same principle. Once you’ve covered the paper with pigment, you add a sensitizer then dry it in a closet, someplace dark. It’s a really slow emulsion when it’s finished, and light sensitive. When it’s dry you put your negative on top and set the whole thing outside in the sun for, like, three hours. You need really strong, hot light—I bet she did it on the beach. The sun just boils that emulsion right off. Then you wash it, and…”
I peered at the photo. “Well, it looks like she worked over the finished prints. Touched them up with colored pencils, or maybe pastels. It must’ve taken her forever.” I shot him another look. “Didn’t you ever wonder about that? How she did these?”
“Not really. She never cared what I thought. And, well, she’s my mother. Did you spend a lot of time wondering about what your mother did?”
“No. But I spent the last thirty years wondering how your mother did this.”
“Satisfied?”
I took a step back from the wall. The way the photos were hung made the two windows, with their views of the real islands, look like part of the sequence.
I liked the illusory islands better.
“Yeah,” I said at last. “I guess I am. But…”
I glanced around the room, frowning. “Her other pictures—the ones from the other book. Mors. Where are they?”
“She destroyed them.”
“What?”
“She burned them. Or, I dunno, maybe she tore them up and threw them into the ocean. It was a few years after I was born. I don’t remember it, but I remember hearing about it years later. There was some kind of a big scene, with—”
He stopped. I felt as though I’d been kicked in the stomach. “But—why?”
“I don’t know.” He looked away. “Something bad happened. You know about Oakwind? The commune?”
I nodded, and he made a grim face. “Well, this was after Oakwind split up, but I gather it had something to do with that. There was a lot of bad blood there, between her and—well, her and just about everyone except for Toby. It didn’t start that way, but…”
“But why would she destroy those pictures? They were taken, what? In the 1950s.”
He shook his head. “Cass, I have no clue. I wouldn’t bring it up, though, in the unlikely event she talks to you again. Not unless you still want to drive back to New York tonight. You hungry?”
“Not really.”
“Well, I’m heading down to the Island Store to get a sandwich. Want to come?”
I wanted to stay, but I wasn’t sure he’d leave me alone there. And even if I wasn’t hungry, I needed a drink.
“Yeah, sure,” I said. “One minute.”
He waited as I made a final circuit, looking at each photo. Then we went back down to the mudroom.
“My mother’ll be off for a while with the dogs,” he said and pulled on a heavy coat. “They won’t bother you. Mostly they just sneak around looking for a soft place to sleep. But if you were expecting Aphrodite to make lunch or something—uh, she doesn’t do lunch. She barely does dinner. She does cocktails, after-dinner cocktails, pick-me-ups. A lot of pick-me-ups.”
He opened the outer door, looked doubtfully at my leather jacket. “You going to be warm enough?”
“I’ll be warm when I get back to the city.” I swore as the zipper caught in Toby’s sweater. “Your helpful fucking friend already gave me this—”
I yanked the zipper free then opened my bag, grabbed my camera, and slung it around my neck. “And you know what else?”
We crossed the moss-covered yard, heading back to the harbor. “I could use a pick-me-up too.”
11
Instead of going through the woods, Gryffin cut down toward the water. There was no sign of Aphrodite or her dogs.
“This isn’t the way Toby took,” I said. I had to pick among wet rocks and clumps of seaweed, my boots slipping when I tried to climb over a granite mound.
“I like to see the water,” said Gryffin. He stopped and held out his hand to get me over the boulder. I ignored it, and he shrugged. “That’s the whole point of coming here, right? For the water.”
“You tell me. Did you go to school here?”
“School? No.” He seemed amused. “They only have a one-room schoolhouse here. It goes up to eighth grade. After that, kids used to go live on the mainland and go to school in Machias. I don’t think there’s any kids left here now.”
“Is that what you did?”
“I went to the Putney School. In Vermont.”
Nowadays, tuition at Putney will set you back nearly thirty grand. Even back in the ‘70s, it would have cost a nice bit of change.
“Isn’t that where Dylan’s kid went?” I asked.
“Yeah, I think so. But that was after my time.”
The tide was coming in, covering the gravel beach and lifting black strands of kelp from the rocks. I saw another sea urchin shell, almost as big as my fist. The bottom had cracked open and the shell had filled with sand. I sifted the sand through my fingers then pocketed it.
Gryffin started for where a thin line of birches ran up the hillside. When he reached the first tree he paused to stare out to the islands. His profile was sharp, his dark hair tangled in the collar of his coat. The light showed up more gray than I’d noticed earlier. It wasn’t a conventionally handsome face—nose too big, eyes too small, weakish chin—but it was an intense one, eyes narrowed and mouth set tight, as though it were a constant effort not to lose his temper. Deep furrows in his brow suggested this was a habitual expression.
I wondered what he looked like when he really did lose it. My fingers brushed the spiny little mound in my pocket. I thought of hurling it at him, just to see what would happen, but the shell was so fragile it wouldn’t do much good. Instead I popped the lens cap from my camera and shot a few pictures. Gryffin looked back.
“What are—hey, stop that!”
“What, is there a family ban on photography?”
He didn’t reply, just turned and began walking again. I lowered the camera and followed in silence up the hill, to where the birches joined bigger trees, oaks and maples. Some of the birches must have been really old. They were huge, their trunks charcoal gray. Not much moss here, just drifts of leaves with a film of ice and scattered patches of thin snow. The ground crackled underfoot, like walking on crumpled newspaper.
“So, you come up here a lot?” I asked.
“Not a lot. A couple times a year. Usually in the summer, or earlier in the fall. I had to go to a show in October, otherwise I would’ve been here a few weeks ago.”
He didn’t walk particularly fast, but his legs were so long I had to hurry to keep up. He kept his head down and his glasses jammed close to his face. He looked like an overgrown teenager, gangly and wary. “I mostly came to see a friend of mine. Ray Provenzano, he lives on the far side of the island. He was a friend of my father’s. Another poet. Also a book collector—that’s the delivery I told you about.”