“Total folie.” Thassa’s eyes could not stop moving. She glided around the office in her white muslin dress, inspecting the bookshelves, the Hopper print, and the photographs, as if this were the first she’d seen them. She settled into the leather chair, home at last.
Candace sat in the adjacent armchair, trying to place what was different about Thassa. Her aura had changed. She wasn’t nervous: just the reverse. She radiated some intense urge toward stillness. Every conversational starter Candace could think of felt foolish.
“A colleague of mine showed me the People magazine piece.”
Thassa shook her head to an inner rhythm and closed her eyes. “I can’t even think of it, Candace. C’est fou. C’est absolument fou.”
“Are you Is it wearing you down?”
The Kabyle looked off into a year’s distance, at the distinct possibility that this might be the case. “These days have been so strange. A kind of funny hell. I never realized this before. I can make total strangers miserable, just by being well. I never thought this could happen, and I don’t know what I am supposed to do with this.”
“Is that what you came to talk about?”
Thassa’s head jerked back, slapped. Candace heard the stupidity of her words. The two women blinked at each other for a raw instant. Thassa rallied first, covering for them both.
“Of course not! Do you think I would be that tedious, Candace? I made an appointment because you are too busy to see me anymore!”
They stumbled into a laugh. Then a little vanilla gossip. There was no other word for it, and although it felt mildly criminal to indulge, especially in her office, Candace proceeded to give the only other woman who would care a brief account of just what it felt like to be with Mr. Russell Stone.
The session timer chimed softly, much sooner than it should have. Thassa rose to go, Miss Generosity again, a perfect clone of the young woman whom Stone had introduced to Weld, as recently as last fall. The small damage from Weld’s stupidity had healed. Candace would call her next week. They would do something together. Maybe a gallery opening. Maybe theater.
“By the way,” the Kabyle said, her accent thickening, “I need to tell you. I’m going on The Oona Show.”
Candace froze halfway to the door. Her face did a time-lapse Lon Chaney before settling on professional curiosity.
Thassa dropped her eyes and toyed with the inlaid Japanese pencil box on Candace’s desk. “I know. You must think I’ve lost my mind. I was going to ask your opinion.”
Seven years of psychological training, and Candace Weld had no reply. “Do you know that show?”
“My God, Candace. What do you think? South Sea island people have Oona fan clubs.”
“Have you thought about this? Do you really think ”
The younger woman reached out and touched two fingers to Candace’s wrist, helping the patient through denial. “This is the right thing. The fastest way to make everything end. I made them ask Thomas Kurton, too. This way, I talk to that man face-to-face, in front of everyone. I only want my life back, Candace. This can clear up everything, once and forever.”
Thassa left, but not before embracing Candace with such resigned encouragement that it scared the counselor. Thassa on the most-watched television show in history: Weld felt as if a Greek chorus had predicted that development all the way back at the start of Act 1.
A knock came five minutes too early to be the next student client. Before Weld could collect herself to answer, Christa Kreuz poked her head through the door. Her colleague’s eyebrows struggled with the empirical evidence. “Excuse me. Was that who I think it was?”
Complimentary tickets admit Stone and Weld to the most coveted studio-audience seats in the country. The gift is wasted on them-like a 1993 Petrus Bordeaux at a frat party. They aren’t aware of the four-year waiting period. They know nothing about that famous pancreatic-cancer support group who banded together to request emergency tickets-the one thing the group all wanted to do while still together. They’ve never heard about the episode where Oona gave every person in the audience a fifty-inch television. They’re just here to watch Thassa prove she’s not a freak.
Russell is a mess. He’s wrapped around Candace’s upper arm like a blood-pressure cuff. He’s way out behind hostile lines, in the core of an empire that would turn on him in an eyeblink if it knew his insurgent heart. He’s clammy and numb, as if Colonel Mathieu has captured him in The Battle of Algiers and is about to hook him up to wet electrodes.
“She’ll be fine,” Candace says, peeling his claw off of her arm and taking it in her hand.
Of course, she will. He’s never doubted that Thassa would be anything less.
The soundstage is a low-ceilinged box packed with raked theater seats. It’s filled with dolly-mounted cameras, floodlights, boom mics, flat-screen monitors, and skeins of cabling as thick as anacondas. In a glass-encased mezzanine, Stone can see banks of mixing boards-a private space program or an underground command bunker. The whole show is operated by tattooed, headset-wearing kids who look like his former students. They probably are Mesquakie students, from a few years ago at most.
The audience sits in a dark oubliette. In the center of the LED-speckled blackness, bathed in grow lights so bright it hurts Stone’s eyes to look, sits a cozy living room ripped out of someone’s mission-style home: a flower show in the middle of an airplane hangar.
Five camera crews dolly around like crack artillery emplacements. One of the squads is smaller, their gear more mobile. Russell knows the woman standing next to the cameraman before he recognizes her. He looks away, somehow guilty.
Candace notices. “Is that who I think it is?”
“Who?” he says. But she’s impossible to mistake: Thomas Kurton’s television interviewer. Popular science’s most striking public face. The woman who presided over their first moments of sexual exploration.
“What are they doing here?” Candace asks. “Didn’t they film their show already?”
Her question is lost in an audience swell. Someone walks out onstage, but it’s not Oona. It turns out to be the audience’s personal trainer. He starts with a few jokes that soon have the audience in the aisles. Stone gets only half of them. He turns to Candace for explanation. She’s pinching the bridge of her nose and smiling stoically. At what, Stone can’t say.
The trainer talks the audience through the next forty minutes. He explains how important it is that everyone be themselves and respond honestly to any meltdowns that Oona and her guests get into. Monitors spread throughout the room will give simple cues to help indicate where laughter or surprise might be appropriate. “So let’s try out a couple of responses, all right? I said, ‘All right?’ I can’t hear you ”
The audience eats it up. Stone shoots a dazed look at the woman on his right. She’s a kindly forty-year-old pukka elf who reminds him exactly of his sister, if he had a sister. She sneaks him a grin while shaking her head and applauding along with everyone. Stone starts to clap, too. He keeps his eyes on the trainer, afraid even to glance at Candace.
The personal trainer takes them through a gamut of responses. They get quite good at shared dismay, shock, and pleasure. When the audience is one finely tuned globe of communal good feeling, the trainer tells two more jokes and leaves to an ovation. Music starts up, brassy and buoyant. A voice comes out of nowhere and the audience starts pumping, even before Stone can check the monitors for a cue.
Oona skips into the glowing living room, warm and confident and a little abashed by the affection flowing from her hundreds of studio friends. Exhilaration courses over the rows of seats. When she steps to the front of the stage and smiles, Stone feels he’s known this woman forever. She’s someone he’d like to have as a friend-girl in an adjoining cubicle at Becoming You. She’s the person his mother was, when his mother was young and still went out in public. He wants to reassure Oona, to thank her for her wry normality. She scares the hell out of him, and she hasn’t even started talking.