“He does.”
“But you don’t?”
He smiled, and said, “Don’t I?”
“Hardly,” she said.
“Maybe there is little to speak of.”
“Are you hunting for praise-songs like the ones your mother used to improvise as lullabies when you wouldn’t sleep?”
It struck her how tense they both were, and how aggressive she was being. The need for self-restraint was becoming too much to bean It was easier to discuss Dr Mire than their own feelings for each other. Neither had spoken a single loving word aside from the one occasion when Bosaaso had said that he had been drawn to her. It wasn’t that there was little closeness between them. On the contrary, there was a great deal of physical attraction. But both were cautious, perhaps feeling they couldn’t afford to fail each other in their expectations.
“You’ve never been to Mire’s place, have you?” he asked.
“No.”
Silence. The headlights parted the darkness of the night as a comb does the hair of a bushy head.
“But you get along fine, the two of you?” he asked.
“I’ve never been in touch with him socially, so I don’t really know the man. As a matter of fact, this is the first time he and I are meeting outside the hospital grounds. He often reminds me that he’s a friend of Abshir, but then so are you.”
Bosaaso didn’t know what to make of the throw-away last phrase. Tension welled up inside him, his lungs billowing in action. The words surged out of his mouth, “What do people say about Mire?”
“They speak of his reserve, his reticence, and the nurses can’t help comparing him to the other foreign doctors who work with us at the hospital. Personally I have no difficulty imagining what he’s like deep inside, but I draw a blank when I try to think of him not working. My elder brother once described him in a letter to me as ‘the Prussian’ — in a positive sense, mind you.”
“It is interesting how the nurses perceive him,” commented Bosaaso.
“If they’re holding a loud conversation in the hospital corridor they hush on seeing Mire approach,” Duniya said. “He himself has told me that his nephews and nieces, playing noisily in their parents’ compound, fall quiet the instant they spot him.”
“So the nurses say unkind things about him?”
“Not terrible things, no.”
Bosaaso remembered how much his late wife’s mother had hated Mire. Yet Mire behaved as though none of this touched him. He was obviously at peace with himself and nothing else mattered.
Duniya volunteered, “People here are informal, no wonder he strikes some who come into contact with him as anti-social. Strange, but that isn’t how I perceive him.”
“No?”
Duniya looked at her unsteady hand which had knocked things over the very morning Bosaaso had come into her life disguised as a butterfly in a dream. She remembered how kind he had been, how touched she was by what he said. She couldn’t recall his precise words, only his kind gesture, a trace of his fondness for her.
“I perceive him as a timid man, shy like a child among adults he doesn’t know how to deal with. I’ve watched him in situations where he’s withdrawn into himself, showing nothing but his exterior self, like a turtle under attack.”
“That’s nice,” said Bosaaso, smiling and thinking aloud. “A moving description, very poetic.”
“In a letter, my brother Abshir reported to me how Mire himself had described his reticences being as prominent as the dimpled deformity of a mirror.” Why did Abshir’s name keep coming to her? Was it because of the ugly fight with her half-brother Shiriye?
Bosaaso was now slowing down. Had they already arrived? Duniya thought how much she would have loved the two of them to talk about personal matters that were of great concern to them. For instance, what about the baby? The subject of the foundling was bound to come up with Mire over dinner. She wished she had asked Bosaaso what his views were; wished she had told him hers. But he was already parked in a plot of undeveloped land alongside other vehicles, among them Mire’s Mini, which squatted midget-like next to the bigger cars.
Mire’s smile as he greeted them, Duniya thought, was the gesture of a man whom you happen to encounter at the very instant he has transferred a valuable treasure from one hiding place to another: secretive. The smile lingered, finally thinning to the size of Mire’s evenly trimmed toothbrush moustache. He stood a couple of inches shorter than Bosaaso, with a heftier physique than his childhood chum and a sonorous voice that was a delight to listen to. He now stepped aside, his posture erect, head showily bowed, his hand motioning them in saying, “Welcome.”
Entering, she thought she saw an inelegant expression on Mire’s face, of slight hesitation, of a man vacillating between two extreme moods, one formal, the other less rigid. Duniya grinned inwardly remembering another occasion when she had noticed such a sudden change of mood in him: the morning her hand ran amok, knocking over his pens, thermometers and pencils.
Bosaaso led them into the spacious living-room, which Duniya was delighted to note wasn’t extravagant. It was sparingly furnished, the decor simple, every item locally made. No loud colours, nothing the nouveaux riches associate with being chic, modern; no TV, no video machine, none of the sophisticated gadgets in which the computer age abounds, save a cassette-deck and a short-wave radio, the latter with its antenna up. Wallpaper and curtains matched harmoniously Was Bosaaso’s living-room in his two-storey palace as plain as this? Or was it distastefully exhibitionist? Duniya was delighted she had come to Dr Mire’s first.
The two friends stayed half a pace behind her, like professional waiters seating a VIP client. Reaching the sitting section of the room, Dr Mire encouraged Duniya to take the larger chair.
“Please,” he urged, guiding her gently towards the prominent armchair upholstered in green.
As yet neither of the men sat down. “To start with, what will you have, Duniya?” Mire was asking.
“Something non-alcoholic, if I may,” she replied.
Bosaaso meanwhile kept the civil distance of a head waiter, standing with hands behind his back, his whole body at the ready to be of help.
In response to their host’s list of what he could offer, Duniya said, “Orange pressé, please.”
“Certainly,” said Mire.
Suddenly there was too much movement. Mire left, walking backwards half the way, deferential. Bosaaso went to sit in the small armchair nearer Duniya. Mire halted just before entering the kitchen, did an about-turn and asked, “What will you have, Bosaaso?”
“The same as Duniya, please.”
“Keep it simple, keep it natural?” teased Mire.
Bosaaso nodded. But why wasn’t Mire leaving? Anxious, Duniya crossed, recrossed and uncrossed her legs, conscious of the eyes that were not focused on her. She was uncomfortably aware of the moisture of her armpits and the tightness of the dress at the waist. And Mire was walking away, promising to return shortly.
Alone, Bosaaso shifted closer to say, “Are you all right?”
She didn’t want to think of the immediate cause of the distress: her dress. “I’m fine, thank you,” she replied.
“Has either of us said something to upset you, Duniya?”
She wrenched her thoughts away from what had been distressing her. She said, “What have you told him about us?”
“Nothing.”
“I don’t believe you.”
“Not much really.”
“That’s not telling me a lot,” she said, keeping her voice low.
“I haven’t said much to him; only generalities.”
“What about the foundling?”
“I gave him the facts as I know them,” he responded.