im not the person to speak to for that techak very polite voice
who is
im not the person to speak to for that she took out few pieces of paper put them in front of me said could you please answer these questions
i dont understand am i under arrest
this is a treatment center michael
didnt check myself into a treatment center this doesn’t look like a treatment center
why are you being nasty we are trying to help you said techak
looks like i am under arrest and detained
could you please fill out the papers
she left the room
looked at paper
it was a questionnaire
questions were stupid
they asked me
are you being treated well at the camp
was my plane ride comfortable
were the soldiers nice to me
did the sleeping agent they gave me work properly
were there any side effects such as diarrhea incontinence impotence
was the plastic chair i was sitting on comfortable
had to answer from 1 to 5 strongly disagree to strongly agree
it was insane
answered questions out of boredom
least i could read something
sat there for 3 more hours
no sound in the room except a heater that would pump in dry stale air
no music
no sounds of outside world
nothing
couldnt even hear people walking in hall
dismal
could feel my mind lose itself from lack of sleep
and lack of sound
techak came back
she sat down
picked up questionnaire
put it in her bag
said are you going to tell me why ive been arrested now
she stared at me said first off welcome to lupejanko treatment center
pronounced lupejanko with spanish accent loo pay yanko
please just tell me why ive been arrested
you haven’t been arrested you have been scheduled to enter this treatment center because of your behavior
what am i guilty of
what do you think you are guilty of
dont think im guilty of anything ive always considered myself boring
she looked at me said that is what they all say everyone says they are innocent therefore if everyone says they are innocent everyone must be guilty
that doesnt make any sense
we have your behaviors here we know your behaviors
are you an interrogator you look like an interrogator
im a case manager not an interrogator
am i guilty of being a witch
she gave me a look of disapproval
okay you got me im a witch i practice black magic
shut up
okay
you need to take this serious
sat there feeling shitty
there didn’t seem any hope that anything i said mattered
terrible feeling of oppression struck me
started to hyperventilate but sucked it back
i was going to vomit
realized that i was not the kind of person that could perform well during interrogation
just didn’t know what to do
had no experience in the art of being interrogated
there was no hope
was trapped
like the residents of NEOTAP
techak said in a tone that was like an iron heel grinding my skull deep into the dirt of the earth you have done several things that are not responsible we have a list here first thing you did was not perform your job at NEOTAP with success you always told the residents why you were doing things you were told never to give the residents of NEOTAP reasons for your behavior or for the rules of NEOTAP but you did anyway you often let people get away with things because you viewed some of the rules as stupid in our opinion were not stupid
you are saying that i was too nice i allowed the residents to have their humanity
she said i do not approve of that reply
okay what else did i do
you subverted capitalism this year 3 times first you raked the leaves of a neighbors yard for free this neighbor was named mr brown then you shoveled the snow off mrs mays driveway twice for free even though she offered you money
mrs mays husband is a truck driver he wasnt going to be home til late at night she needed to get somewhere i shoveled her driveway i raked those leaves to take the leaves and use them as compost for my garden
yes we know you have a garden and the garden is organic
so
what is wrong with tomatoes and peppers from the grocery store said techak.
they are full of fertilizers food at grocery stores is half natural gas they arent even food
why didnt you take money for shoveling that snow mr scipio
it seemed like the right thing to do
she looked with anger said what if everyone in our culture started doing the right thing
i don’t know
our culture is based off self interest not self sacrifice the capitalist system requires self interested people to do things for money if everyone went around doing things for free the whole system would fall apart are you trying to destroy the economic system of america
dont think so
she said your crime is more heinous than stealing from a store or even selling drugs because if you steal from a store then you are still stating that you believe in capitalism you just cant afford to buy certain products if you sell drugs you are still selling them for money which is capitalism but your behavior doing things for free growing your own food these are terrible behaviors that subvert and slowly destroy the very foundation of our culture and country
i need a lawyer i need my rights to be protected
you arent under arrest mr scipio this is a treatment center
but you are detaining me there are people with machine guns here guarding me
you are in a treatment center you are being helped we will help you
you cant do this
i personally dont know what you are talking about
who can i talk to there must be somebody here that isnt insane this seems like a mistake how can someone be detained for shoveling somebodys driveway for free
she stood up left
sat in plastic chair for more hours
tired
feeling terrible
2 soldiers i never met before came in room
walked me to the open area where the prisoners were kept
they led me to a bed
threw down toothpaste toothbrush walked away
sat there on bed dejected
burke sat next to me
looked at him said are you mad at me about the piss test
he smiled said no
asked him who was in charge of the camp
he told me that no one was
everyone at the camp was just a person taking orders
he told me to go to sleep in the morning they were going to wake us all up to eat
then to go to class
they want to reform us because we are dangerous
didnt understand anything
lay down on the bed
passed out
woke up the next day to loud sirens
every morning we wake up to loud sirens
devastating
need to get out of here
dont know why im here
im not ready for the concentration camp lifestyle
dont know what is happening
burke says he has a plan
says youre coming that he has agents collecting intel
dont know what he is talking about
dont know what is going on
miss you
miss your body next to mine
miss you the funny things you say
miss your arms legs vagina
wish i would have never gotten that job at NEOTAP
wish everything was different
doesnt matter what i wish
this is the truth of the situation
i am in a prison that calls itself a treatment center