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Henrietta allowed herself to be enveloped and she kissed her mother’s dry cheek. She saw in the first glance that although her mother had aged or weathered into a dry ruddiness in the years since they had last met, she was not changed. Neither life nor death could change her. There was nothing new here. Her mother planned what to do, how to behave, what to say. Henrietta withdrew herself and sat down and took off her hat and coat.

“Mother, it was so strange to find you and Father gone away when we got to Peking.”

“You should have told us you were coming,” Mrs. Lane said, “then you needn’t have come all that way.”

Henrietta refrained from mentioning Clem, his reasons for wanting to go to China, the suddenness of their departure.

“Please, Mother, tell me everything.”

Her mother could tell only so much as she could comprehend of what had gone on.

“Everything got harder in Peking,” her mother began. “It wasn’t in the least as it had been in the dear old days. You remember, Henrietta, how easy everything used to be? When you were a child, I was received most courteously wherever I went, merely because I was a foreigner. That was after the Boxer Rebellion, of course. Peking was heavenly then. I got to be fond of the Old Empress, really fond! I went with Mrs. Conger sometimes to call and Her Majesty used to have one of her ladies explain to me, so that I could tell Mrs. Conger who spoke no Chinese at all, how sorry she was for all that had happened, and how she understood that we were all there for the good of China. Then she would reach out her hand and stroke mine. She had the most beautiful old hand — so delicate, covered with rings, and then the long enameled nail protectors. It was really wonderful to see her. I don’t think most people understood her. I used to tell your father so, but he would never trust her, no matter what I said.”

“When did Father fall ill?” Henrietta asked.

“It began soon after that upstart Sun Yatsen stirred up the people. Your father was so worried. I told him that nothing would be made better by his worrying, but you know he never listened to me. In his way he was frightfully stubborn. And things began to get so hard. After the Empress died the wonderful courtesy just ended — like that! Even the people on the streets began to be rough to us. They didn’t seem to want us in Peking. Your father was stoned one Sunday night on his way to chapel.”

“Stoned — for what?” Henrietta asked.

“For nothing — just because he was a foreigner. Then it got better again. Oh dear, you’ve been away so long! It’s difficult to explain. But it has been one thing after another, a revolution about something all the time, and when I told your father he was looking thin he always said he couldn’t leave.”

“And when he did leave he wanted to go to William.”

“He got the idea suddenly that William needed him. I remember he said a queer thing when we were standing on the deck as the steamer pulled away from Shanghai. He was staring at the shore and then he said, ‘But what shall it profit a man if he gain the whole world and lose his own son?’ ”

Henrietta did not answer. She did not listen any more to her mother’s prattling voice. A strange thing for her father to say, and what did it mean?

Henrietta went herself to the station to meet Clem. With his usual skill, perfected by constant travel, he managed to catch a train at the last moment possible in time to get to the funeral. Had there been half an hour’s delay it would have been too late. But Henrietta had now come to believe that there would never be such delay upon any train which Clem chose to take. Luck was the aura in which he lived.

Thus she stood waiting on the platform while the train drew in, accurate to the second. Clem was always the first passenger to get out. She saw him swing himself down, shake his head at a porter and come hurrying toward her, carrying his small bag. William’s chauffeur stepped forward to take it but Clem resisted.

“I’m used to carrying my own suitcase, thanks.”

He threw the man a brief bright abstract smile, then forgot him. “Henrietta, gosh — it’s good to see you! How are you, hon?”

“Come on, Clem. We haven’t a moment.”

“Funeral isn’t till four, is it? Lots of time.”

This Henrietta would not allow. “Come on, do. Everybody’s waiting.”

“Everybody’s early then.” But he humored her, seeing that her eyes were washed with weeping.

They got into the big heavy car which William had imported from England. Clem lifted his sandy eyebrows and said nothing, but Henrietta understood his reproach.

“Never mind, he always hates England and yet he worships everything English.”

“I don’t mind. Anything to tell me, hon?”

“Not now, Clem. Afterward.”

They drove in silence through the bright New York streets. He saw her dressed for the first time in black. She looked handsome but he had better sense than to tell her so now. He wanted to share her sorrow but he could not. When he thought of Dr. Lane’s death he saw with dreadful renewal the sight of his own father lying with his head half severed from his neck, in the midst of the other dead. He wanted to talk quickly about something else, tell her how triumphant the market opening in Dayton had really been, and yet he knew that he should not speak of that, either, here or now. To escape the inescapable memory he stared out into the streets, trying to catch from the passing windows ideas for advertising, for displays, for announcements, and while he did so he felt guilty because he dared not think of Henrietta’s grief. She could not comprehend, perhaps, though he had told her everything, how memory could pervade his whole life if he gave it the least chance at him. He crowded it out by his constant activity, by his incessant planning and incredible accomplishment.

“You are never still,” she said with sudden and extraordinary impatience.

He looked at her, astonished.

“Oh, Clem!” She seized his hand in both of hers.

He saw tears brimming again into her eyes. “I know, Henrietta. I don’t know why I can’t sit still.”

She was broken by his humility. “Don’t mind me. I can’t tell you why I feel so mixed up.”

“That’s all right.”

He made a superhuman effort then and did sit still, forcing his hand that held hers to be still, keeping his feet from twitching or shuffling, refusing to recognize the itch of his nose, his cheek, the nervous ache of arm or leg, the innumerable minute demands of his tense frame.

She was grateful and in silence they sat while the car swept them up to the huge church on Fifth Avenue where William had commanded that his father’s body be laid. Here she and Clem got out and mounted the marble steps. In the lobby they were met by an attendant of some sort, who guided them in silence to an area of pews tied in with black ribbon, where the family was assembled. To her surprise she saw even Roger Cameron and his wife, Roger lean and aged and looking as permanent as a mummy. Her seat and Clem’s had been kept beside William. She sat down.

Clem looked across Henrietta into William’s eyes, gray under the heavy brows. He felt a shock in his breast. The tall grim boy he had seen on the Peking street had grown into a tall grim man. In the one glance and the brief nod Clem saw the long square face, the pallid skin, the deep-set eyes and black brows, and the strained handsome mouth. Then he sat down, forgetting the dead. William was unhappy! The sorrow of the last few weeks could not have worked quickly enough to carve his face into such lines. But why should William be unhappy as well as sorrowful? Unhappiness was something deep, permeating to the very sinews of a man’s soul.

“The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.” The rich and polished voice of the robed minister rolled from the chancel. Clem breathed hard and tried not to shift his feet. The flowers were too fragrant, the church too warm. Upon the bier he saw a white-faced statue, handsomely clothed and surrounded with flowers so skillfully that they made a background for him. This statue did not look in the least like Dr. Lane, whom he remembered as a quiet melancholy saint, always withdrawn though kind. This dead man looked proud and even haughty. His features were too clear, the eyebrows touched with black, the lips with a pale red, the nose perfected, the sleeping eyelids outlined. The head had immense and marble dignity. As he remembered, Dr. Lane had walked with a slight stoop, a humble pose of the head, and his features though good were blurred with the thoughtful doubt of a man who always saw the other side of everything.