“You have told me more than once that I have denied my Lord,” William now said with some impatience. “I am not aware that I have done so.”
Father Malone was alarmed at the fierceness of William’s eyes, at the vehemence in his voice. He had lived long among a gentle people and he missed them. His soul loathed the fleshpots among which he sojourned. At Monsignor’s command he had continued to accept William’s hospitality and he had a room and a bath here in this velvet-lined house. The bed was soft and he could not sleep upon it, and at night he had at first laid himself upon the floor and even the floor was too soft with carpet and undercarpet. Then he found that the bathroom floor was of marble and upon that surface he laid himself and found it warmed with inner pipes. He longed for his earthen-floored cell and for the icy mornings of a northern Chinese winter and a bowl of millet gruel. The flash of silver and the smoke of hot meats upon the lace-covered table in this house filled him with a sense of sin. How could he speak of God here? And the woman, telling him again and again how much he did for her husband and all the time she herself took not one word of what he said to herself!
He went increasingly often to Monsignor for counsel and he had said on his last visit, only two days ago, “Would it not be well to separate the man from the luxury which surrounds him? How can we find his soul when it is sunk in the fleshpots?”
Monsignor had looked at him out of deep, shrewd eyes. “In what sense separate?” he inquired.
“William Lane is at heart an ascetic,” Father Malone replied. “He possesses much, but he eats little and his ways are frugal. He does not drink much wine, he does not often smoke tobacco. We could make a priest out of him could we get him alone into the wilderness. If I took him back to my village, I could even entice him to love the people, which is the beginning of righteousness.”
“To what end?” his superior inquired.
Father Malone was astonished. “To the end that his soul may be saved!”
Monsignor got up and walked about his library. It was a noble room, and the mahogany book shelves reached from floor to ceiling. He had the finest religious library in America and was among its most learned prelates, in spite of his lack of religious ambitions.
“You go beyond your duty,” he said sharply. “I have told you only to awaken his soul.”
“I have done so,” Father Malone replied. He was almost as uneasy here as he was in William’s house. It was not for him to question the ways of his superiors. The Holy Father himself lived in a great palace which was one of the wonders of the world. God used riches as well as poverty for His own glory, he reminded himself.
“Continue then until you receive my next instruction,” Monsignor said.
So Father Malone had gone back to the rich house again. At this moment, however, when he sat alone with William in the silent opulent room, remote from any life he knew, he felt that the end of his work had surely come and that he must beg his superior to release him. He knew that William did deny his Lord, for he felt denial everywhere in this house, in William and in his wife and in the very existence of this place and in all it contained. But he could not explain how he felt this or why. Monsignor had not approved his speaking of poverty. Had he not received this disapproval he would have said earnestly to William, “You must give up all this and follow Christ.” But he did not dare to say this. He felt puzzled and tired and in spite of constant refusal he knew that he had eaten too much and too richly. Sitting in a highback Jacobean chair which he chose because it alone had a hard wooden seat, he twisted his workworn hands.
“It is time for me to leave you,” he said to William. “I have been detained by God to remind you of your father and of the land where you were born and to guide you to think of these things. Beyond that I am not able to go. I must commend you to Monsignor Lockhart, who is a wiser man in the Church than I am. I have no great learning. My books are fewer than a hundred. He has thousands of books upon his shelves and in many languages. He is continually in communication with those who know the Holy Father, whose face I shall never see.”
William did not deny this. He had indeed been stirred to the bottom of his soul by Malone. He envied the priest his unmoving faith, his confidence in prayer, his conviction of duty, the same faith, confidence, and conviction which his own father had possessed. But William was not able to proceed beyond the impulse of envy and of longing. His spiritual hunger had been increased and not satisfied. His loneliness was more and not less.
“Perhaps you are right,” he said. “Yet I am very grateful for what you have done.”
“It is not I but God working through me.”
“Then I thank God. Perhaps, in spite of not seeing it yet, my feet have, nevertheless, been set upon a path.”
“Monsignor Lockhart will lead you the rest of the way,” Father Malone replied.
Upon this they parted. In a short time Father Malone had packed his Chinese bag of split and woven rattan, and he refused the offer of William’s car. “I must report to my superior,” he said, “and it is only a short distance upon this same avenue. Let me walk. It will make me feel I am on my way home.”
William was perceptive enough to know what he meant and he let him go.
When Emory came home in the late afternoon she missed at once the third presence in the house. She had been on an ordinary errand to have her hair dressed, and when Henry opened the door to her he told her that the master had not returned to his office. She found William in the rather small room which they used as a sitting room when they were alone. He was stretched upon a reclining chair, gazing into the coals of a dying fire. He had not put on the lights, and there was a strange atmosphere of life and death in the room. She touched the switch by the door and the wall lights flamed.
“William, are you ill?” she exclaimed.
“No,” he replied. “I have been thinking all afternoon. Father Malone has gone.”
“Gone?”
“He says he wants me to go directly now to Monsignor Lockhart. He thinks it is time.”
She came to him and knelt at his side and put her hand on his that were folded across his body. “William, please do only what you wish!” she now said.
He moved his hands from under hers rather sharply. “No one can make me do otherwise!”
“But be sure that you know if they try.”
“You don’t flatter me, Emory. I am usually considered astute enough.”
He was determined to be hurt and she refused to hurt him. “I’m being stupid.” She got up and then sat down in a chair opposite him. “It’s hot in here. Shan’t I open the window?” The house with its central heating was always too hot for her English blood.
“I am not hot.”
“I suppose it’s because I have just come in from outside.”
She sat still for a few minutes, and then stealing a look at William she grew alarmed at the whiteness of his face. She got up again and went to him and curled on the floor beside him. She took his hand and leaned her cheek against it and made to him a complaint she had never made before.
“You haven’t loved me all the time Father Malone’s been here.” She put the palm of his hand against her soft red mouth.
Among the American women she was learning to know, there was shrewd interchange at once cynical and enjoyed by them. “You don’t know your man until you’ve slept with him,” was the common creed. They were all healthy handsome women, to whom chastity was not a jewel without price. Yet not one of them would have entertained the possibility of a lover, for their husbands were richer than potential lovers and men of position which they did not care to threaten. The difference between men, they frankly acknowledged, lay in their bank accounts rather than in their persons. They considered themselves exceedingly fortunate women and so they intended to live virtuously. But Emory was virtuous by nature.