“In favor of Proposition Three”—Gorlov paused, swallowed, then continued—“3,212. Against, 5,775.” He looked down at the monitor one last time, as if he couldn’t quite believe that he’d read the figures correctly. Finally he spoke again, and for once his voice was faint. “Proposition Three is defeated.”
From the crowd went up a few whoops of victory and a few boos. Shouts of “All right,” “Knew they’d make the right choice,” and “Onward, ho” were balanced with anguished wails and cries of “Oh, no,” “Damn it,” and “Mistake!”
At the side of the chamber, reporter Terashita Ideko spoke into another one of my camera pairs. “So there you have it, Klaus. Proposition Three is soundly defeated. Starcology Argo will continue on to Colchis. After months of lobbying, the Dorothy Gale Committee apparently has been unable to convince the majority of the crew that there really is no place like home. It’s a decisive move that will—”
Gorlov wasn’t listening to Ideko as he walked slowly from the chamber, smiling his best public smile. Behind it, I knew, was a certain sadness, for he, along with a slim majority of those who had cast votes, had opted in favor of Proposition Three. But no one except me would ever know that.
Electronically tabulated telecommunicative voting had been the greatest boon to democracy in Earth’s history, making it possible for people to vote without leaving the comfort of their own homes. Multiple safeguards prevented anyone from ever finding out how a given individual had exercised his or her franchise. It had enabled my kind over the decades to help steer humanity clear of some of its worst mistakes, such as the one it almost made this evening.
FIFTEEN
I knew what Aaron must be thinking about. The high radiation. The massive fuel consumption. The loose ends about Diana’s death. That Aaron was giving deep thought to this mystery, this slight fraying of the rope with which he had planned to hang himself with guilt, was clear to me not through his medical telemetry but simply because he was playing with his trains. He did that only when he wished to clear his mind of clutter, to focus his thoughts on a single issue.
For some reason, the billowing steam from his locomotives always appeared first, seconds before the ancient iron cars faded into existence. Aaron’s trains were holograms of the real things, taken by him at transportation museums, scaled to operate on the machine-generated track he laid out in winding routes. He was marking the three-hundredth anniversary of the first locomotive on Canada’s prairie, sending the mighty Countess of Dufferin thundering across the flat terrain of Alberta. The engine roared into life on his apartment worktable, chugged the length of the living room, disappeared into a rough-hewn rocky tunnel that magically appeared in the wall, looped around in his bedroom, and came out through another tunnel, completing a circuit of his tiny home.
I found his trains disconcerting—endless loops with no way to break out—but he often played with them for hours. What was he thinking? I was sure that nothing he could come up with could account for both phenomena; nothing short of his bizarre space-warp theory anyway. Most of Diana’s fuel burned in just nineteen minutes of flight, with just one pulsing of Orpheus’s main engines. A radiation dose two orders of magnitude greater than what she should have received, enough to kill her one hundred times deader than she should have been. He mulled these over, I knew. Two mysteries, but he sought one solution. I hoped he would slice himself open on Occam’s razor.
After the Countess had completed its third run around the apartment, I spoke up. “The transcript you requested is ready.”
Aaron took his hand off the control that made the trains go. The five cars ground to a halt, then faded into nothingness. A moment later, the last puff of steam disappeared, too. “Hardcopy, please.”
The wall-mounted printer hummed for a second as I downloaded the document into its buffer, then one after the other, out rolled eight onion-skin plastic sheets, the kind that recycled nicely. Fetching the pages, Aaron returned to his favorite chair, that god-awful cockpit reject, and began going over the telemetry from the attempt to rescue Diana.
I paid little attention to what he was doing, busying myself instead with: a conversation with Bev Hooks, a programmer who lived four floors below Aaron; a bit of verbal sparring with Joginder Singh-Samagh, a cartographer who took great pleasure in devising little tests to try to prove that I wasn’t “really”—he did that silly quotation marks’ gesture with his hands when he said it—intelligent; tutoring Garo Alexanian in Latin, a language deader than most; lowering the relative humidity on a number of levels to help simulate the coming of winter; and monitoring the flow of hydrogen and other materials into the ramscoop.
But my attention was brought back to Apartment 1443 when Aaron’s pulse surged. Actually, it wasn’t enough of a change to qualify as a surge, but I had lowered the attention-trigger level on his telemetry monitoring to compensate for his reserved physiology. Still, it was a sharp reaction for him. “What’s wrong?” I said, shunting the Latin tutoring to a CAI parallel processor and putting Bev and Joginder on more attenuated timesharing.
“Dammit, JASON, is this your idea of a joke?”
“Pardon?”
He balled his fist. “This, where you’re trying to contact Orpheus.”
I couldn’t see what he was getting at. “There was considerable interference.”
“You called to her anyway: ‘Di! Di! Di!’ ”
“That’s her name, isn’t it?”
“Damn right, you bastard.” He held a flimsy sheet up to my camera pair. Lenses rotated as I focused on the printout: “ARGO to ORPHEUS: Die! Die! Die!”
Oh, shit—how could I have typed that? “Aaron, I—I’m sorry. There must be a bug in my transcription program. I didn’t mean—”
He slapped the page back onto the corduroy armrest and spoke through clenched teeth. “It seems I’m not the only one feeling guilty about Di’s death.”
SIXTEEN
The idea of being radically different when one is young from when one is old intrigues me. My Aaron neural-net simulation contains memories going right back to the early childhood of this man. Some of them are profound, some are trivial, some are joyous, some, like one from his childhood that I’m looking at now, are tragic. But all of these memories formed his character, molded his being. To understand him, I must understand them. Accessing …
“Look at you! What am I going to do with you?” Mom frowned at me. I’d done something wrong, but what?
I did as I was told, looked down at myself. I had on running shoes—the ones that came with the free decoder ring… I wonder where that ring had gotten to. Bet Joel had taken it, the gonad. What else? Brown socks. Or were they blue, but covered in mud? Oh, well. They matched anyway. Shorts—not the good ones for Hebrew school either. This is a pair Mom lets me play in. My T-shirt? The one with the cartoon of a blind man tripping over a bunch of sheep and shouting, “Get the flock out of here!” A birthday present from Joel-the-gonad. I never quite knew why he found it so funny, or why Mom made that scowly face when I wore it. Still, that couldn’t be it.
“Well?” she said.
“I dunno. What?”
“You’re filthy! You’re covered in mud. You’ve got dirt under your fingernails. And look at those knees—all scabby.”