He kept saying: “I can’t believe it, Violetta. I can’t believe it.”
“Nor I,” I told him.
A wild look came into his eyes. “And, to go that way…” he murmured. “What does it mean?”
I shook my head.
“It’s the same…it’s so strange…How could they both…in the same way?”
“She shouldn’t have gone to bathe.”
“I knew. I didn’t think that could happen. People do bathe in the early morning.” He put his hands over his eyes. “She took to it suddenly. For a week or so before. She used to go down to the beach in the early morning. I was surprised, but she was always surprising me. It was what made her so attractive.”
“Yes, I know. Some idea would come to her and she would be all enthusiasm and then she’d forget all about it.”
He nodded miserably. Poor Dermot. He had really cared deeply for her. I had come to realize that he was rather weak, leaving everything in the hands of Gordon Lewyth, wanting a life devoid of responsibility.
“Dermot,” I said. “There is one thing I want to ask you. It is about Tristan.”
He gazed at me questioningly, with tears in his eyes, and I went on: “Dorabella once spoke to me very seriously. I think she must have had some premonition that she was not going to live. It was just before his birth and I imagined she thought she was not going to survive. She and I were exceptionally close…as twins are sometimes. She asked me if I would look after Tristan if she were not here. We would have taken him back to Caddington with us, but your father does not wish it. But I have given my word to Dorabella and I want to keep it. I must keep it. I want to stay here for a while…to look after Tristan.”
“I am glad,” he said. “I feel that is what she would have wanted.”
“She did want it. She made me swear I would. Dermot, will it be all right for me to stay until I can work something out? At the moment I feel so muddled and uncertain about everything. But if I may just stay…”
“But of course. You will be very welcome.”
“If you would tell Matilda and your father that Dorabella particularly wanted me to be with the boy…”
“I will speak to my father and Matilda.” He looked suddenly resolute. “I know it would be what Dorabella would have wanted. Thank you, Violetta. I am glad you will stay.”
My parents left soon after that. They were reluctant to leave me, but everything was so inconclusive. How long did I intend to stay, my mother was wondering. She said I was putting myself into a backwater. She would be thinking that Richard Dorrington could help me to grow away from this terrible grief. At times like this it was better to look ahead to the future.
The baby was too young to miss his mother, and Nanny Crabtree was remaining. She thought in due course the Tregarlands might realize that Tristan would be better off with his maternal grandparents.
When I had said goodbye to them, I felt very melancholy and went to the nursery to see Tristan.
It brought me comfort to hold him in my arms. Nanny Crabtree stood by watching. We were her children…myself as well as Tristan, and she knew what the loss of Dorabella meant to me.
She said: “He knows you. Look at his little face. You and me, Miss Violetta, we’ll see that he’s all right.”
A few days after my parents returned I received a letter from Richard.
My dearest,
I have been talking to your parents. What a terrible tragedy this is! I have heard that you intend to stay with the child. Your mother has explained to me.
I hope you are thinking about our marriage. It is what I want more than anything on earth. Do write to me. I shall come down to see you there as soon as I can arrange it. Then we can talk of the future.
I am feeling this with you. I have heard from Edward, as well as from your mother, how close you and your sister were, and I know what you must be suffering. I wish I could be with you to show you how deeply I feel for you.
Please write to me. I want to be in constant touch.
All my love to you,
Richard
It was a comforting letter. I was reminded of how kind and understanding he was.
It amazed me that, ever since I had heard that devastating news, I had not given him a thought.
I was surprised when Jowan Jermyn called at the house. One of the maids came to tell me that he was in the hall and had asked to see me. I noticed the look of surprise and excitement on her face.
Surprise, of course, that he had the temerity to call, and excitement at the thought of what a stir this news would create when she released it.
It was true that he had been invited to the house for lunch, but that was some time ago, and since then there would have been plenty of rumors. I had no doubt that Dorabella’s death would be attributed to some uncanny connection with the feud.
I went down to the hall, and there he was, standing with his back to the fireplace, his hands clasped behind him.
He came forward and took my hands, holding them firmly in his.
“I am so sorry,” he said earnestly.
I found it hard to speak and he went on: “I had to call. Perhaps I should not have done so. But there is no other way of getting in touch with you.”
“Thank you for coming,” I said.
“I should so like to talk to you,” he went on. “I heard you were staying here for a while, although your parents have left.”
“That’s so,” I said. “There is the baby…”
“Could you come and have lunch somewhere?”
“Do you mean today?”
“If that is possible. I have a car outside.”
I hesitated. My spirits lightened a little at the prospect. I could leave a message for Matilda that I should not be in to lunch today.
As we drove through the country lanes, he said: “I know a quiet place close to the moor. We can talk in comfort there.”
“I suppose you know everything that has happened,” I said.
“I don’t know about everything, but there is no talk hereabouts of anything but this tragedy.”
“It seems incredible to me still.”
I was staring blankly ahead, seeing her face, laughing at me, scorning me because of some priggish sentiment I had just expressed. I would have given anything to hear her laugh like that again.
He took his hand from the steering wheel and placed it over mine for a moment.
“So,” he said, “you have stayed on though your parents have gone.”
“Yes. I am helping with the baby.”
“Yes, with the nanny whose name is Crabtree.”
“She was nanny to my sister and to me. Mother procured her for Tristan.”
“Her name is often mentioned.”
“You mean by the gossips.”
“Oh, yes, she’s something of a dragon by all accounts. At least she hasn’t much time for the people around here.”
“I think she despises most people who weren’t born within the sound of Bow Bells.”
“Ah, I see.”
We were silent for a moment. I sensed that he wished to talk about the tragedy but was not sure what effect it would have on me.
We were seated opposite each other in the small hotel on the edge of the moor, when he regarded me gravely and said: “Do you mind talking about it?”
“It is uppermost in my mind,” I confessed.
“Do you think it was all a little strange…?”
“Yes, I do,” I replied.
“Do you believe in coincidences?”
“I suppose there are such things.”
“Yes, I suppose so, but…”
“You mean the way she died?”
“Yes. Two in the same way. Doesn’t that sound a little odd to you?”
“Yes.”