"I don't care."
"If you grant me permission, I'll probably do it, Po. I'll probably – "
He held up his hand. "It's an equalizer. When we fight, you hold your Grace back. I can't hold my Grace back. So you must have the right to defend yourself."
She didn't like it. But she could not miss his point. And she could not miss his willingness, his dear willingness, to give over his Grace for her. "You will always have a headache," she warned.
"Perhaps Raffin included his salve for headaches among the medicines. I should like to change my hair, now that you've changed yours. Blue would suit me, don't you think?"
She was laughing again, and she swore to herself that she wouldn't hit him; she wouldn't, unless she were entirely desperate. And then the candle on the floor beside them dimmed and died. Their conversation had gotten entirely off track. They were leaving for Monsea early in the morning, most likely, and it was the middle of the night and everyone in the inn and the town slept. Yet here they were, sitting on the floor, laughing in the dark.
"We leave for Monsea tomorrow, then?" she said. "We'll fall asleep on our horses."
"I'll fall asleep on my horse. You'll ride as if you've slept for days – as if it's a race between us to see who reaches Monsea first."
"And what will we find when we get there? A king who's innocent of the things of which he's guilty?"
He rubbed his head. "I've always thought it strange that my mother and father have no suspicions about Leck, even knowing his story. And now these men seem to think him blameless in the kidnapping, even knowing he's not."
"Can he be so kind in the rest of his life that everyone forgives his crimes, or fails to see them?"
He sat for a moment, quietly. "I've wondered... it occurs to me recently... that he could be Graced. That he could have a Grace that changes the way people think of him. Are there such Graces? I don't even know."
It had never occurred to her. But he could be Graced. With one eye missing, he could be Graced and no one would ever know. No one would even suspect, for who could suspect a Grace that controlled suspicions?
"He could have the Grace of fooling people," Po said. "The Grace of confusing people with lies, lies that spread from kingdom to kingdom. Imagine it, Katsa – people carrying his lies in their own mouths, and spreading them to believing ears; absurd lies, erasing logic and truth, all the way to Lienid. Can you imagine the power of a person who had such a Grace? He could create whatever reputation for himself he wished. He could take whatever he wanted and no one would ever hold him responsible."
Katsa thought of the boy who was named heir, and the king and queen who died shortly thereafter. The advisers who supposedly jumped into the river together. And a whole kingdom of mourners who never thought to question the boy who had no family, no past, no Monsean blood flowing through his veins – but who had become king. "But his kindness," Katsa said urgently. "The animals. That man spoke of the animals he restores to health."
"And that's the other thing," Po said. "That man truly believed in Leck's philanthropy. But am I the only person who finds it a bit odd that there should be so many slashed-up dogs and squirrels in Monsea that need rescuing? Are the trees and the rocks made of broken glass?"
"But he's a kind man if he cares for them."
Po peered at Katsa strangely. "You're defending him, too, in the face of logic that tells you not to, just like my parents and just like those merchants. He's got hundreds of animals with bizarre cuts that don't heal, Katsa, and children in his employ dying of mysterious illnesses, and you're not the slightest bit suspicious."
He was right. Katsa saw it; and the truth in all its gruesomeness trickled into her mind. She began to have a conception of a power that spread like a bad feeling, like a sickness itself, seizing all minds that it touched.
Could there be a Grace more dangerous than one that replaced sight with a fog of falseness?
Katsa shuddered. For she would be in the presence of this king soon enough. She wasn't certain what defense even she could raise against a man who could fool her into believing his innocent reputation.
Her eyes traced Po's silhouette, dark against the black door. His white shirt was the only part of him truly visible, a luminous gray in the darkness. She wished, suddenly, that she could see him better. He stood and pulled her to her feet. He pulled her to the window and looked down into her face. The moonlight caught a glimmer in his silver eye, and a gleam in the gold of his ear. She didn't know why she had felt so anxious or why the lines of his nose and his mouth, or the concern in his eyes, should comfort her.
"What is it?" he asked. "What's bothering you?"
"If Leck has this Grace, as you suspect..." she began. "Yes?"
"... how will I protect myself from him?"
He considered her seriously. "Well. And that's easy," he said. "My Grace will protect me from him. And I'll protect you. You'll be safe with me, Katsa."
In her bed, thoughts swirled like a windstorm in her mind; but she ordered herself to sleep. In an instant, the storm quieted. She slept under a blanket of calm.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
There were two ways to get to Leck City from the inn or from any point in Sunder. One was to travel south to one of the Sunderan ports and sail southeast to Monport, the westernmost port city of the Monsean peninsula, where a road led north to Leck City, across flat land just east of Monsea's highest peaks. This route was traveled by merchants who carried goods, and most parties containing women, children, or the elderly.
The other way was shorter but more difficult. It led southeast through a Sunderan forest that grew thicker and wilder and rose to meet the mountains that formed Monsea's border with Sunder and Estill. The path became too rocky and uneven for horses. Those who crossed the mountain pass did so on foot. An inn on either side of the pass bought or kept the horses of those who approached the mountains and sold or returned them to those who came from the mountains. This was the route Katsa and Po would take.
Leck City was the walk of a day or so beyond the mountain pass, less if they purchased new horses. The walk to the city wound through valleys grown lush with the water that flowed down from the mountaintops. It was a landscape of rivers and streams, similar to that of inland Lienid, Po told Katsa – or so the Monsean queen had written – which made it a landscape unlike anything Katsa had ever seen.
As they rode, Katsa couldn't content herself with imagining the strange landscapes ahead. For when she'd awakened to morning in the Sunderan inn, the windstorm of the night before had returned to her mind.
Po's Grace would protect Po from Leck. And Po would protect her.
With Po, Katsa would be safe.
He'd said it simply, as if it were nothing. But it wasn't nothing for Katsa to rely on someone else's protection. She'd never done such a thing in her life.
And besides, wouldn't it be easier for her to kill Leck immediately, before he said a word or raised a finger? Or gag him, immobilize him, find some way to disempower him completely? Maintain control and ensure her own defense? Katsa didn't need protection. There would be a solution; there would be a way for her to protect herself from Leck, if indeed he had the power they suspected. She only needed to think of it.
Late in the morning the skies began to drip. By afternoon the drizzle had turned to rain, a cold, relentless rain that beat down and hid the forest road from their sight. Finally they stopped, soaked to the skin, to see what they could do about shelter before night fell. The tangle of trees on either side of the road provided some cover. They tethered the horses under an enormous pine that smelled of the sap dripping from its branches with the rainwater. "It's as dry a place as we're likely to find," Po said. "A fire will be impossible, but at least we won't sleep in the rain."