But I’m not telling you of such things, am I?
Once we were too exhausted to continue the more athletic portion of our reunion, we wrapped our tenderized bodies in the red cloak, our limbs entangled as we slipped into a dreamy haze in which time lost all grip upon us. Infidel’s face was pressed up against my chest, listening to my heartbeat. She was so still and quiet I thought she’d gone to sleep, until she whispered, “You smell nice.”
I chuckled. “Innocent didn’t think so.”
“Innocent didn’t know what was good for her. You, Stagger, are good for me. I was so lucky to know you.”
“Why are you speaking in the past tense?” I asked.
“You’re still dead, right? That wasn’t just some bad dream?”
My mouth went dry. “It wasn’t a dream,” I whispered. “I am dead. But I never left you; I’ve been with you every moment, haunting the bone-handled knife. And now we can be together forever.”
“Can we?” she asked, sounding skeptical.
“Can’t we?” I asked. “I guess, honestly, I don’t know. I don’t understand how things work here in the spirit world. Maybe there will never be any ending here.”
“But I don’t belong here,” she said. “I’m still alive. At least, I think I am. There’s this… tug… inside me. I feel like my time here is limited. Eventually, I’ll be drawn back to the real world.”
“I understand,” I said. “I wish I could come with you.”
“I don’t see why you can’t, if I can take the knife back. Haunting the blade that killed you. That’s kind of weird.”
“This coming from a woman with a belly full of dragon’s blood.”
Infidel sat up, frowning as she noticed the tangled green ribbons in her long hair. As she worked to unknot them, she said, “The first time I swallowed Verdant’s blood, it was dried up and concentrated. I could feel the power surging through my body. This time, it turned me back to my correct age, but I don’t feel super-strong.” She ran her fingers along a line of hickeys on her neck. “And I’m definitely not invulnerable.”
“Maybe things work differently here. Hopefully you’ll be back to your arm-ripping self when you get home.”
She looked up the slope toward the caldera. “I wish I knew how to get home. The only path I can think of leads straight through Greatshadow. The dragon must know how to travel between the spirit world and the material world, or Zetetic wouldn’t be worried.”
“We still have the Jagged Heart,” I said. “Even with just normal strength, we can take him.”
She sighed as she pulled the last ribbon free from her hair and tossed it away. “That’s so sad about Aurora,” she said, referring to a conversation we’d had during an earlier pause.
I sat up and rubbed her back. “She was a good friend.”
“She was my only friend,” said Infidel. “Except you.”
“I’ll always be with you,” I said.
She nodded gazing off into the distance. “Especially if the Black Swan is right.”
“About what? The dragon apocalypse?”
Infidel rolled her eyes. “About us having a daughter.”
Somehow, despite everything that we’d done together since our reunion, that possibility hadn’t crossed my mind. Could I really impregnate Infidel? Did this half-alive, materialized phantom body of mine have that power?
“You’re quiet,” she said, as I grew lost in thought. “Don’t you want her to be yours?”
I smiled as I lay back, pulling her down with me. “I want it so much, I think we should take at least one more run at increasing the odds.”
And then there was another hour that I can’t talk about.
“S TAGGER MUST HAVE gotten the job done by now,” said Zetetic. By now it had gotten really dark in the caldera. Outside the small circle of light cast by the Gloryhammer, ghostly flames flickered and danced above cracks in the ground, as gases beneath the earth seeped free and ignited.
“I’m not so certain,” said Relic. “I don’t feel… a release.”
“A release?”
“Like all dragons, I’m attuned to elemental forces. Greatshadow is still present in the flames surrounding us. He simply hasn’t gathered the strength yet to control them.”
“If he died, you could take over the element of flame? Just like that?”
Relic shrugged. “It would require time. How much is difficult to say.”
“How long did it take Greatshadow to master the element?”
“Though I have many of his memories, I can’t judge the time, since time as we know it wasn’t invented when my father was young.”
Zetetic looked perplexed.
“Before Glorious merged his spirit with the sun, the sun’s path was more chaotic. Years and days had no fixed length. Glorious inadvertently gave birth to human civilization when he guided the sun into a fixed path, making seasons predictable, and agriculture possible.”
“Amazing,” said Zetetic.
“Still, to answer your question as best I can, I expect it will take a decade or more to merge my soul with fire.”
“A decade doesn’t seem very long to achieve such power.”
“To you, perhaps. I’ve only been alive a few months. A decade seems unbearably long.”
Zetetic stroked his chin as he contemplated the small dragon. “You’re an interesting infant, Relic.”
“I don’t want to be called Relic any more.”
“Why not?”
“I used that name because I never was given another. But my father finally fulfilled this simple obligation, at least. He called me Brokenwing.”
“So he did. Little Brokenwing.”
“I won’t be using the ‘little,’” said the dragon, somewhat indignant.
“So, if Stagger fails, what are we going to do?” asked Zetetic.
Relic shook his head. “There’s no point in asking. Stagger is our only hope.”
Zetetic looked up into the darkness. “I wonder what’s taking so long to get the job done?”
If I’d been there to answer, I’d have reminded him that at fifty, my body isn’t quite as robust as it once was. It takes a little longer to get the job done.
And even longer to get the job done a third time. This dayless, nightless land provided few clues as to how much time had passed as we rested, utterly exhausted.
Infidel was using my hairy belly as a pillow, looking up at me with a dreamy gaze. Suddenly, her eyes widened.
“It’s so obvious!” she said, jumping to her feet.
“What’s obvious?”
“Dragon’s blood! You come back to life when the knife touches dragon’s blood. And, you came back to life when Nowowon gave you a drink of blood. So, to come back to life permanently, you need to drink dragon’s blood!”
I sat up, scratching my head. “You think it’s that easy?”
“Who’s the brain in this operation?” she said, placing her hands on her hips.
“Um,” I said, deciding to pretend I didn’t understand the question. Anyway, what could it hurt? She scrambled toward the fallen body of her dragon-self.
“Ow, ow, ow!” she said as she crossed over the ground. “Lots of sharp rocks under these leaves. I’m not used to being tender-footed.”
“You want to wear my boots?” I asked, wrestling to put on what remained of my pants.
“I’d slip right out of those things,” she said, scrambling onto the dragon corpse. “I’ll wrap my feet in some cloth from the cape. Right now, you need to suck some dragon-blood.”
She grabbed the bone-handled knife, struggling to free it. She gouged a new hole on the side of the hip. Gore the consistency and color of pea soup oozed out.
My lips were tender from Infidel’s nibbles, but I heroically pressed them to the scaly hide of the corpse and sucked. The blood was sticky, as difficult to swallow as molasses, and the fruity flavor I had tasted on Infidel’s tongue had a sourness when drank directly that grew more unbearable the longer it sat in my mouth. It took a few moments to force down a cup of the stuff.
“Ugg,” I said, wiping my lips. “I’m used to putting bad things in my mouth, but this is fairly rotten.”