Brian nodded.
See what I was thinking. . Gordon stopped and shook his head.
Brian nodded again.
Naw, it’s just. . Gordon frowned then smiled, tapped himself on the chest. The boy here — you know what like it is Brian, I can hardly get walking. Sometimes I’ve just got to fucking step out the door and the busies are there waiting; wanting to know where I’m going what I’m doing. Murder man I’m no fucking kidding ye. Anything up and round they come at all hours, chapping the door and waking the weans — mental so it is, the wife goes off her head about it. And no wonder, I mean. . Naw Brian I’m no kidding ye, the way they carry on, it’s just no fucking real.
Aye.
A lot of difficulties as well man because of it, you with me?
Brian nodded.
Naw, said Gordon. He sniffed and frowned a moment, dragged on the cigarette; screwing his face up before blowing out the smoke. Take the other night, just as a for instance; we got a wee turn, a wee turn. Trouble is it should’ve been a fucking lot better than that. Gordon sat back on the chair. He sat forwards again and leaned closer to the other: I mean somebody like yourself Brian, you could’ve done a nice bit of business, a nice bit of business. And no sweat. None. I’m no kidding ye.
Brian nodded.
Gordon sniffed and continued: See what it was man we’ve got a load — okay? And we’ve got to get fucking shot of the stuff at the double, at the double Brian, no fucking hanging about — you with me? So what happens? Hh! Cut-price fucking discount store — What Every Woman Wants man I’m no kidding ye, mental. Whereas, whereas, if we’ve got time. If we’ve got time Brian, I mean, if we’ve got time to fucking hang about then Christ, Christ sake. I mean a couple of days — that’s all! A couple of fucking days!
Gordon snorted and shook his head.
Brian nodded. And if we could’ve done that we were laughing.
Aye.
See Brian somebody like you, somebody like yourself. Correct me if I’m wrong, but somebody like yourself man I mean! Gordon shook his head, he smiled.
If I was hiding a load or something?
Exactly. Exactly. And fuck sake it’s no even a matter of hiding cause it’s no as if any cunt’s going to come round chapping your door. Know what I mean Brian I mean you could dump the gear on the kitchen fucking table and nobody’d be any the fucking wiser!
Brian grinned.
Gordon was chuckling, swirling the remaining drop of whisky round in the tumbler.
After a few moments silence Brian lifted his glass of lager and stared at what was left.
Then Gordon said, A dozen cardboard boxes Brian. You could’ve papped them straight into the wardrobe and shut the door. A couple of days later and that’d be that, you’re past the post; sitting there with the feet up, a nice few quid in the tail.
Brian nodded, he smiled briefly.
I’m serious.
Aye.
Gordon was looking at him. I’m no kidding ye, he said.
Aw I know I know, I’m no eh. . Brian sniffed. He upturned his whisky glass above the lager glass, watching the drop roll down into it. He puffed on his cigarette, looked across to the gantry clock. Then Gordon moved; he rose from the chair and reached for the empties: Just time for another yin eh!
O naw, Christ. .
Och!
Naw. Naw Gordon honest! Brian was shaking his head and holding his hands aloft. I wish I could, he said.
Ah come on! Gordon grinned.
Naw, honest.
A slight pause, and Gordon said, You sure?
Wish I could.
Mm. Gordon nodded. He sat back down, then yawned and stretched his arms, flexing his shoulder blades. He looked at Brian. Brian shrugged and made as though to say something but Gordon leaned closer and said: I’m no being cheeky Brian but I think you’re fucking daft, no to consider it I mean. That’s what I mean, Christ, you dont look as if you’re going to even consider it.
Brian glanced at the ashtray a moment, then his gaze returned to Gordon who said: Are you?
What. .
Are you? Consider it — are you going to consider it?
Course.
Gordon continued to look at him.
Course I’m going to consider it.
Gordon nodded.
Brian swallowed the last drops from the lager glass. He paused, before saying: I’ll need to be hitting the road, the wean and that. . Heh Gordon, thanks for the drink and that I mean, Christ. .
No trouble.
Brian sniffed. He stood to his feet: Course I’m going to consider it I mean, obviously. .
Gordon shrugged. No fucking problem Brian dont worry about it.
Brian nodded. Well, see ye eh?
Right.
Seconds later and Brian was pushing his way through the exit. On the pavement outside he hesitated, then set off, walking quickly.
Even in communal pitches
I had arrived at the following conclusion: even in communal pitches people will claim their portions of space; he who sits in the left-hand corner of one room will expect to obtain the equivalent corner in every room. This is something I cannot go but I felt obliged to conform to standard practice. It was a kind of community I was living in. A veryrichman owned the property. He allowed folk to live in it at minimal rents; the reason was to do with Y being equal to C plus S or I. It was quite noisy but no worse for that, for somebody like myself, just in from country travels. A party had been in progress for the two days I was here; it seemed to move from room to room; those desirous of sleep but without permanent quarters were having to grab a spot here and there, preferably keeping a room ahead all the time. In its own way that was fine and a nice camaraderie always seemed about to exist, although for some reason people only spoke to me in reply to questions about tea and coffee and where was the bathroom etc. It didnt annoy me, I could just lie on the floor and listen to their conversations. Next to me a guy kept going on about medieval conventicles on the southern tip of England; he was with another guy who was having to conceal yawns. Then I noticed they were irritated by my presence. What’s up? I said. But they ignored the question. At this stage I would definitely have been entitled to get annoyed, but I didnt, I was too tired, far too tired; all I wanted to do was sleep. But could I get a sleep! Could I fuck. Then this woman; up she comes: Are you John Myatt?
Who’s that? I says.
Never mind, came the reply, and she moved off on her stocking soles.
That was the kind of place it was. There was this other woman who was friendly, but I made a blunder by introducing the business of that conclusion I had arrived at. And she looked right through me. I was beginning to think: When did you last change your socks?
Gradually it dawned on me they were waiting for something; it was a bloke, he turned out to be a kind of Master of Ceremonies. A get-together had been organized in a semiofficial way so that for this night at least, the party would be taking on a structured form. You were expected to do a turn. Somebody shoved a bunnet under my nose, he was looking for a donation, presumably for a carry-out. I was skint unfortunately but when I explained he got all fucking annoyed and went off in a huff. Eventually I saw he was sitting not far from me, about six or seven spaces away, and he was pointing me out to his neighbours in a really underhand manner. Who cares.
The entertainment began with a series of monologues, one of which was delivered by the guy who knew about medieval conventicles. It was so totally boring you werent sure if you had missed the overall irony, but when you looked about you could see no-one at all was grinning, it was meant by him as dead serious. Other speakers were concerned with recent events in the world of politics. A woman with a big hat got up and sang a song and this was the best so far. But then another woman got up and she recited poetry. Well, it has to be said that she was not brilliant although I dont know but something in the way she did it plus the good hand she got at the end made me think it was all her own stuff she was reading.