“But your Worship-”
“One more word and I will compel you to silence for a year.” The finger pointing at my ear tag was thin and knotted like an oak twig.
I dipped my knee and covered my face with my hands, so she couldn’t see my relief… and satisfaction.
Glowering and mumbling, I made three or four trips a day-hot, dusty journeys, carrying heavy loads, subject to the abusive whims of Zhid warriors and administrators. On the fourth day I was sent to the kitchens of the Gray House.
I dropped my scratchy load of storage bags in the wooden bin where the kitchen Drudge directed me. After rolling each bag individually and stacking them as I was told, I wandered across the hot kitchen. The Drudge woman was stirring a kettle of thin, yellowish soup that smelled of cabbage, while another woman was tossing chunks of onion into it.
I sniffed at their kettle. “Are you making this for the young Lord?” I asked. “I never thought one so high-placed would eat the same as us.”
The toothless woman stirring the pot glanced at me as if I had asked if she lived on the moon. “The young Lord gets only what is fit for Worships, not Drudge’s food. And he ben’t here to eat nothing.”
“I heard he come back here two days ago,” I said. No one was ever amazed at ignorance.
“Someone told you wrong, girl. He’s gone off with the Worships long ago.” The second woman blotted her oily face with her apron and began to knead a pile of sticky, gray dough.
I picked up a scrap of onion from the floor and nibbled at it. “Where do they go? When folks left my work camp, none of ‘em ever came back. Nobody ever told me where folks go when they disappear.”
“Are you an idiot, child? Have you not heard of the war camps in the desert? All Worships go there, and so this young Lord has done. Drudges go wherever they’re sent as what our masters think best. No use to task your thick head on it.”
“I am so ignorant. I never thought a Lord, one so favored and so young, would go to the desert camps. I thought that was for the lesser of the Worships. But I guess the young one was not so favored if he had to leave this fine house and go there. Did he do something to offend the mighty Lords?”
“Such is Lords’ business, not servants. Why ever would you care?”
“I’m just new here, and… I shouldn’t say it”-I dropped my voice low-“I am so afraid of the Lords and those who wear their mark. We heard such fearful tales in my work camp. I thought that if the young Lord who wore their jewels was not to be here ever again, then I wouldn’t be so afraid to come to the Gray House when I was told.”
“It’s proper to be afraid of those higher,” said the woman stirring the pot. “I don’t know if the young Lord will come back from the camps, but he may. No one can predict the ways of the Worships.”
A Zhid supervisor entered and shooed me back to the sewing rooms.
To discover a way to follow Gerick to the desert camps was a daunting prospect. I had heard mention of at least twenty different headquarters-which might be only a small part of the truth or much more than the truth-and I had no idea to which one he’d gone. The only source of information that came to mind was the slave Sefaro, the chamberlain of the Gray House.
Unfortunately, trips to the Gray House were a rarity. Most of my errands were to the guard barracks, delivering tunics and leggings and other apparel for the common Zhid warriors who lived in the fortress. Other ventures took me to the tanners and leatherworkers, to the spinners to get thread, or to the weavers for heavy rolls of cloth. On rare occasion Kargetha would send bundles of rags or gray tunics to the grim and wretched slave pens beyond the barracks and the forge. A few times I was sent into the Lords’ house. No matter how bright the sun blazed, within those dark walls the light was always like the hour before dawn, when only the barest hint of color had begun to emerge from black and gray. The air felt too thick to breathe.
After weeks of frustration, I was at last sent to the Gray House with instructions to seek out Sefaro. I found him alone in his storeroom, sitting at the plain wooden table and working at his ledger. He seemed preoccupied, giving me only a cursory nod, rather than his usual smile. “Her Worship Kargetha understands there be needs in the Gray House.” I gave him Kargetha’s token that permitted him to speak.
Sefaro sighed and fingered the small wooden disk. “The banners. We need the banners to be made.”
“The young Lord’s banners?” A flush of waking life rippled across my skin.
“He returns in a sevenday, and we’re to have the new banners hung for his arrival. I’ll show you the device which must be placed on them.” The chamberlain’s hand trembled as he pulled out paper and pen and began to sketch.
“Are you not well, Sefaro?” I said, my soaring spirits restrained only by concern for the kind slave.
He shook his head and continued his drawing, gripping his pen as if it were a dagger.
I had come prepared to scatter my questions like seeds in a garden, carefully harvesting the things I needed to know. But Sefaro’s disturbance hinted that this was not a day for subtleties. So, I took a step of faith. “Of all those I’ve observed in this place, Sefaro, you’re the only one who’s seemed immune to its terrors. What’s changed?”
His hand slowed, and, after a moment, he looked up from his drawing. “Who are you, Eda?” His voice was very quiet. “Each time I’ve met you, I’ve wondered at it, only to call myself a fool in the next breath. What Drudge would ever think to tell me of an injured child? And now…”
I sat down in the wooden chair opposite him, and spoke in a whisper. “Who I am is no matter. But I know of the Way, and I grieve to see those who so embrace life held captive in this fortress of death.”
His crinkled eyes grew wide. “Heaven’s fire… what Drudge knows of the Way?”
“Just say I have more curiosity than is usual in Ce Uroth. Is there something about the young Lord’s return that troubles you? Does he use you cruelly?”
“He is not cruel. At least, before this sojourn in the desert, he was not. Thoughtless, sometimes. He is very young, though he tries to be otherwise. But three of his teachers-all high-ranking Zhid-have been slain this day. And I’ve been told to complete my inventory and my accounts before he returns. It’s unsettling. Most likely nothing.” His gray complexion told his belief more truly.
“Do you think they plan to kill you, too?”
“Death has no fear for me. If you know so much of Dar’Nethi, then you know that L’Tiere holds no fear for those of us forced to live without the Way. No, it is for my people I fear. For Avonar. For the Bridge and the worlds.”
“Why?”
“Because of this.” He turned his sketch where I could see it. Two rampant lions supporting an arch, a device very like the shield of D’Arnath. But the arch was missing its center span, and in the gap was a four-headed beast engulfed in flame. In one clawed hand the beast held a sword, and in the other it crushed the two stars that had once been suspended over D’Arnath’s Bridge.
“This is a fearsome device.”