She hoped a man was driving the van because she could always get any man to do anything she wanted once he understood how talented she was. Squinting into the sun, she let out a loud sigh of relief when the van pulled to a stop behind her car and she saw the handsome man smiling at her.
Tiffany Tara Tyler straightened up, put on her best come-hither expression, and sashayed over to the van.
Just as she had predicted, her life was about to radically change.
Forever.
Chapter 13
This was about as close as Laurant was ever going to get to a therapy session with a psychiatrist. There weren’t any of those in Holy Oaks. There were, however, several people she knew who could have benefited from a couple of long talks with a "head" doctor. Emma May Brie-as in the cheese-immediately came to mind. She was a perfect candidate for analysis. The sweet, but strange, woman wore a blue shower cap decorated with white daisies as a hat everywhere she went, rain or shine. She took if off for only one hour on Tuesday mornings when she got her hair done at Madge’s Magic, the local beauty shop that guaranteed to give every customer "volume." Emma May wasn’t the exception to their promise. When she stepped outside the shop, her thinning gray hair was indeed twice the size, that is, until she put her daisy cap on and squished it all down.
There were other residents who could also use a good psychiatrist, but the fact was, if the renowned Dr. Morganstern decided to go into private practice and hang his shingle out on Main Street, no one would ever go see him. It just wasn’t done. Problems were never discussed with outsiders, and anyone who was thought to be peculiar was simply given a wide path when he was having one of his "spells." What was taking Pete so long? He’d asked her to wait for him in the dining room, but that had been at least ten minutes ago, and she now so fidgety she couldn’t sit still. Just as she made up her mind to go back downstairs and finish sorting the laundry, the swinging door from the kitchen opened.
"I’m sorry I made you wait," Pete said as he entered, "but Monsignor and I got to talking and I didn’t want to interrupt a story he was telling me about one of his parishioners."
He closed the double doors leading to the hallway to insure privacy.
Although she had requested the meeting, she was suddenly dreading it because she knew what she wanted to ask him, and part of her was worried sick that he would agree.
"There now," he remarked as he sat down.
She couldn’t seem to sit still and was tapping her foot against the hardwood floor so vigorously her knee was making the table wobble. When she realized what a telltale sign that was about her mental state, she forced herself to stop. It was impossible to relax, so she sat ramrod straight, as stiff as a corpse, in the uncomfortable chair that made a squeaky sound of protest every time she moved.
Shards of sunlight filtered into the room through the old-fashioned, Victorian lace curtains, and the air smelled faintly of overly ripe apples. There was a large oriental bowl filled with fruit in the center of the table.
Pete didn’t show any signs of rushing. He opened the conversation by asking her how she was holding up.
"I’m doing all right." Could he tell she was lying?
Silence followed her response. He continued to patiently wait for her to gather her thoughts and tell him what was on her mind. She felt like a fool because she was having so much trouble getting the words out. What had seemed like a perfectly sound plan a half hour ago now seemed deranged.
"Have you ever skied?"
If Pete was surprised by the question, he didn’t let it show. "No, as a matter of fact, I haven’t. I’ve always wanted to try it though. What about you?"
"Yes, I used to ski all the time. The school I attended was surrounded by mountains."
"You attended boarding school in Switzerland, didn’t you?"
"Yes," she answered. "And I’d go up into the mountains every chance I could. I love siding, and I actually got pretty good at it. Since I’ve been in America, I’ve gone to the slopes in Colorado a few times. I’ll always remember how it felt that very first time I took the lift up to the top of a black… they rate the slopes by degree of difficulty you see. Green is for beginners, blue is for the intermediate skier, and the blacks are reserved for the experienced who want more of a challenge. There are other ratings too, like diamonds and double diamonds," she rambled on. "Anyway, the first time I stood on the edge of what appeared to be a sheer drop-off, I took the longest time gathering my courage to push off. I felt like I was standing on the cliffs of Dover. It looked that steep to me. I was terrified… but determined."
"And talking to me is like standing on that precipice again?" Pete asked.
She nodded. "Yes, it is… because I know that, like that mountaintop, once I push off, there’s no going back."
There was an uncomfortable pause before Laurant started again. "I guess I should start by being completely honest, shouldn’t I? I’d be wasting your time otherwise. I told you I was doing all right, but that wasn’t true. I’m a mess inside, and I feel like I’m tied in a thousand knots."
"That’s understandable."
"I suppose so," she agreed. "All I can think about is… him. My concentration’s shot," she added. "When I was doing the laundry for Monsignor, I was thinking about what I wanted to ask you, and I accidentally poured an entire bottle of bleach in with the sheets before I realized what I was doing. A very large bottle of bleach," she emphasized.
Pete smiled. "Think of the positive. They’ll be nice and white."
"They were green and blue stripe when I put them in the washer."
He laughed. "Oh dear."
"I’ll have to buy him a new pair," she said. "But as you can see, I’m having a little trouble…"
"Staying focused?"
"Yes. My mind’s racing, and I feel so… guilty."
Monsignor knocked on the door and poked his head inside.
"Laurant, I’m heading over to the hospital to make my rounds. I shouldn’t be gone long, and Mrs. Krowski will be here soon. Would you mind catching the phone calls until she arrives? Father Tom can handle any emergencies."
"Yes, of course, Monsignor."
Pete stood. "Just a minute, Monsignor."
Excusing himself, he went into the hall and called for Noah. Laurant heard footsteps on the stairs and then Pete spoke again. "Ask Agent Seaton to drive Monsignor and stay with him."
The old priest balked at the idea of having an escort, arguing that he could drive his own car, but Pete gently cut him off and firmly insisted that the agent accompany him. Monsignor realized it was pointless to argue and reluctantly agreed.
Apologizing, Pete returned to Laurant. Nick followed him into the dining room, closed the door behind him, and then leaned against it. Folding his arms across his chest, he winked at her, and his body language told her in no uncertain terms that he wasn’t planning on leaving anytime soon.
"Did you wish to speak to Pete?" she asked.
"Nick asked to join us," Pete said. "I told him it was up to you."
She hesitated a moment. "Okay. But, Nick," she demanded, looking him right in the eye, "I would appreciate it if you didn’t interrupt or argue when you hear what I have to say. Promise me."
"No."
"Excuse me?"
"I said no."
Pete seized control of the conversation then. "You said you were feeling guilty. Why?"
Deciding to ignore Nick, she stared at the delicate rose pattern on the oriental bowl when she answered. "I want to run away and hide until you catch him, and I’m ashamed because I feel that way."
"You have nothing to feel ashamed about, and your desire to run away is quite natural," Pete said. "I’m certain I’d feel the same way."