“Let me go,” he said hoarsely. He was exhausted. Reflected light glittered on his copper-brushed hair, pale gold skin, bright-penny eyes. “Please, let me go to her. You don’t know what you’re doing.”
No sense of arrival, but suddenly Jonathan was sitting in the far corner. He was still dressed in casual human-normal clothes, but there was nothing normal or human about the power behind his eyes, or the cell-deep weariness. He looked infinitely worse than last I’d seen him.
David climbed back to his feet and turned to face him. “I have to go, Jonathan, now.”
“You’re not going anywhere,” Jonathan said. His voice was thin, tired, and hoarse. “This is the only safe place right now. Going out there is useless. And you know I’m right, so don’t give me that look.”
David’s eyebrows knitted together in an angry line. “What look?”
“That look. The you-don’t-understand look. Hell, I understand, I’ve been in love, too. But the survival of the Free Djinn comes first, it has to. We’re talking about losing everything. You want to end up dead, or worse?”
“Of course not.”
“Then quit fucking around and try to understand that everything doesn’t revolve around your heartaches.”
David took a step forward, fists clenched and face tense. “Oh, I understand, believe me. I’ve played chess with you too many times not to. But I’m not going to let you use her as a sacrifice pawn, Jonathan. Something’s happened to her. She’s been taken.”
“I know.” Jonathan propped his head against the glass wall with no evidence of comfort. “Patrick arranged it. Look, I know you don’t approve, but she needed to learn the ropes. It was the best thing.”
“Fuck!” David kicked the wall hard enough to draw a humming sound out of the hard surface. “You incredible bastard. You arrogant son of a—”
“—bitch,” Jonathan supplied, and closed his eyes. “You’ve called me that before, you know. And trust me, in this particular case, flattery will notget you a free pass out of here. She needs this if you want her to survive. Don’t be stupid. She’s perfectly safe with Lewis… magically speaking, anyway.”
“Stupid?” David repeated, and turned slowly to face him. Oh God. The look on his face… He lunged across the space, braced himself on stiff arms, face-to-face with Jonathan. “You think it’s Lewisthat has her?”
Jonathan’s eyes flashed open. Just a second of doubt in those old, tired, very powerful eyes. He didn’t answer.
“It’s Yvette,” David whispered. “Don’t you understand? I don’t know how, but she’s got Joanne. You know what she’ll do.”
Jonathan might have flinched—barely—but whatever impulse he had toward concern shut down fast. “Better her than you.”
David pulled back a fist, cocked it, looked ready to slam it straight into Jonathan’s face.
He still didn’t flinch. Didn’t blink. David backed away, sank down in a crouch against the wall a few feet away, and buried his face in both hands for a few seconds.
“Does it ever occur to you that maybe she might be as important as I am? As you are?” he asked.
Jonathan cocked both eyebrows toward sarcasm. “Frankly? No. Never occurred to me. And wait… no, not occurring to me now.”
“Let me go. Yvette wants me,” David said. “Don’t pretend you don’t know that. She always has. She tried to talk Bad Bob into it half a dozen times. Give her an opening, she’ll jump at the chance. I know how to manipulate her. I can be free in a matter of hours and bring Joanne with me.”
Jonathan puffed his breath out impatiently. “And your point is…?”
“I can do this. Joanne has no idea what she’s up against. I do.”
A half-second of hesitation, which was probably more than the idea deserved, and then Jonathan said, quietly, “No. You’re staying here. Believe me, you’ll thank me later.”
“Will I?” David was doing something odd. He stood up, shrugged out of his olive drab coat and let it slide to the floor, then unbuttoned his white-and-blue shirt with jerky, nervous motions. He added it to the pile. Stripped off the soft gray T-shirt next, revealing gold-burnished skin. While I enjoyed the view, I wondered what the hell he was doing. “You’ve never been claimed, Jonathan. Never, in your entire history. You have no idea what it’s like.”
“I know what it’s like,” Jonathan said, in a tone that meant it was an old, boring argument. He was watching David with a frown that was getting deeper by the minute. “And what the hell are you doing?”
“It’s rape,” David continued. He unbuttoned his blue jeans, unzipped, slipped them down. “Having your will taken away from you, forced to do whatever they want you to do. Not even owning yourself. No matter how pure the intentions, how kind the master, how much good comes out of it, it’s still rape. Don’t you get that? You gave her to Patrick. Patrick gave her to Lewis, and maybe she submitted to that, but this…no. You have no idea. And I’m not leaving her in Yvette’s hands, not alone.”
No answer this time. Jonathan continued to stare up, no change in his expression. He might have been thinking about the merits of Guinness over Sam Adams, for all I knew. Or the secrets of the universe.
David stripped off underwear, dropped them on the pile, and turned back to the glass. Spread his arms wide. Naked, he gave off a halo like polished gold. I felt him drawing in energy, felt the gigantic swirl of power on the aetheric level. He extended his hand out to the glass on the window and touched it, pressed his palm flat against it.
“Are you going to let me go?” he asked.
“No, because you have no plan beyond throwing yourself blindly on the grenade and hoping somebody will mop up the mess.” Jonathan didn’t sound in the least worried. “Put something on before you catch a cold.”
David went very still, and I felt the lancing burn of power flash out of him. Straight into the glass, fine as a laser. It slammed into the barrier, bowed it outward, turned it opaque as milk, kept pushing.
“Never gonna happen, Davy,” Jonathan said. “Trust me. You’re bleeding off so much power to keep that girl alive that you couldn’t shatter a soap bubble right now. And hey, you want my opinion, I think the girl’s pretty tough. Maybe she’ll surprise you. Maybe the last thing she needs is for you to come galloping to the rescue, that ever occur to you?”
I felt David pulling hard on the umbilical that still bound us together, trying to access whatever power I had stored, but it was like a trickling stream trying to fill up a huge dry riverbed. God, was he really thatdrained? Thatweak?
Jonathan continued to stare, lips pressed tight, eyes dark with knowledge. “You’re going to kill yourself. Stop it.”
“No.” David was weak, draining fast, but he was still pouring everything he had into the effort to break the prison. “ Youstop holding me here.”
“Put your goddamn clothes back on, David. What kind of a point are you trying to make? That you’re leaving all of this behind for her? Being reborn? I got it, already! Symbolism ‘R’ Us!”
No answer. David was fiercely focused now, hands trembling. I could feel the intensity of his commitment. He wasn’t going to stop.
Jonathan must have known it too. It was in his raw plea. “ David!”
The clothes lying on the ground ignited into white-hot flame. David was glowing like a gas flame, using himself ruthlessly. Destroying himself.
“Let… me… GO!” It was a deep-in-the-throat growl, furious and enraged. The glass was bubbling with the force of the attack.
Jonathan had gone sallow-pale under his tan. I could sense how deep this went between them, how much trust was being ripped apart in this moment.
How much love was being destroyed.
“Fine,” he finally whispered. “Go. Kill yourself, dammit.”