J.T. swore under his breath and shoved his fingers through his hair in a frustrated gesture. "If you'll excuse me, I'm going up to bed."
Caitlan watched him start for the door, wishing for the easy truce they'd shared before this startling awareness had intruded. In an effort to make amends she quickly asked, "Would you happen to have a pencil and pad of paper I could borrow?"
Turning, he frowned at her request. "Somewhere in one of those drawers I do." He made his way back to the side of the desk. "Mind me asking what you need it for?"
Noticing that the harsh lines between his brows were no longer present, she smiled. "I'm not really tired and I like to sketch. It helps me to relax."
"Sketch?" He lifted a brow. "That's right. You're an illustrator." Opening a drawer, he rummaged through the contents and withdrew a pad of unlined paper. He began setting supplies on the desk. "Here you go. Paper, a pencil… and a sharpener." He placed the red heart-shaped sharpener on the blotter, then glanced at Caitlan, a boyish smile curving his lips. "A Valentine's Day gift from Laura," he explained.
"I'll be sure to return it." She picked up the novelty item, relieved that he wouldn't be going to bed angry at her. No sense complicating her job any more than necessary. She headed for the door and turned just before leaving. "Well, good night, J.T. I'll see you in the morning."
"No, you won't." He rubbed his forehead and winced, then opened another drawer and pulled out a bottle of aspirin. "I'll be out of the house before you get up."
She watched him toss back two aspirins and swallow them dry. He closed his eyes, his face pale. Faint lines of pain bracketed the corners of his eyes. He wasn't in any shape to work tomorrow, but she knew her suggestion to stay indoors would only anger him.
Drawing a deep breath, he opened his eyes, grimacing at being caught in a moment of weakness. "Good night, Caitlan," he said, an obvious dismissal.
"Good night." Hugging the pad of paper to her chest, she slipped from the room.
The old grandfather clock in the living room chimed one o'clock, intruding on the quiet stillness of the house. Everyone had retired hours before. Unable to sleep, Caitlan sat on the padded cushion in the window seat next to the couch, sketching by the light of the full moon streaming through the curtainless window. She didn't need the light; the force of the visions she saw in her mind were so powerful and overwhelming, she could have reproduced them blindfolded.
Legs drawn up and the extra-large University of Idaho jersey she'd borrowed from Laura to sleep in covering her knees, she rested her pad against her thighs and let the strong images guide the strokes of her pencil across the paper.
The scratch of lead against paper soothed Caitlan in a way nothing else could.
The face of a young boy haunted her, and she duplicated every feature with precision, right down to the stubborn tilt to his chin and the rebel stance. A thick, untamable crop of hair rumpled around his head, a swath falling over his high forehead. His mouth, even in youth, was cut sensually, with the firm upper lip and the bottom full and lush.
She'd always had a natural talent for drawing and enjoyed using the skill while on a mission to pass idle time. Tonight, however, she was compelled to draw, and the pictures she created confused her. The boy she'd drawn was familiar to her, but where and how did she know him? Had she been his guardian angel at one time? And why, when she closed her eyes, did she see flashes of him and a blond-haired girl running across a pasture together, laughing and smiling at one another? The two were in love, she realized. Even at their young age the emotion shone in their gaze.
Caitlan blinked her eyes open, erasing the images. A pang of longing swept through her, a wave so strong it left her breathless. Staring at the sketch of the boy, she concentrated, digging deep into her mind for the mysterious connection tugging at her. A man's features materialized, but before she could bring them into sharper focus, a pain seized her temples. Gasping at the assault, she mentally recoiled, abandoning the thin, wispy vision. Beneath her jersey the medallion heated, tingling like fire upon her flesh. Grabbing the pendant in her shirt, she waited until the gold cooled before letting it rest against her skin again. For a reason she didn't understand her subconscious wasn't allowing her to trespass into certain regions of her memory.
Drawing in a slow, steadying breath, Caitlan willed herself to relax. Glancing out the window to the shadowed darkness beyond, she thought about her mission. She was glad J.T. had confided in her earlier about Randal. Now she understood Randal's motivation for trying to harm J.T.: greed and resentment. This wouldn't be the first time she'd played guardian to those evil elements.
However, her response to J.T. was another matter altogether. This was the first time she'd ever felt desire for a mortal as a guardian. A shameless wanting that whispered provocatively to her senses. What would it be like to kiss him again, this time without him thinking her another woman? Realizing how selfish her thoughts were, she silently chastised herself. Nothing could come of them being together. Soon she would be gone, and she'd be nothing more than a faded memory to J.T. She didn't need the added complication of their attraction while she protected him.
The old ranch house creaked and settled and Caitlan glanced toward the staircase leading to the second floor. She wondered if J.T. slept well, or if his head was still giving him problems. She'd healed the worst of the wound, but a tortuous headache wouldn't be uncommon as a repercussion to the deep gash he'd actually suffered.
Before she could analyze her true intent, she stood and padded across the floor and up the stairs, telling herself the whole way that the urge to check on J.T. was purely maternal. Turning the knob, she slowly opened his door, grimacing when the hinges gave a small squeak of protest. She waited and watched the form on the bed, illuminated by the beam of moonlight filtering through the window. No movement. Soundlessly, she crossed to the bed, careful not to trip over the jeans and briefs heaped on the floor.
J.T. lay on his back, gloriously naked, limbs sprawled, the blanket tangled at the foot of the bed. The only thing affording him a measure of modesty was the thin cotton sheet draped over one leg and the juncture of his thighs. Searching his face, she found his features relaxed and softened by slumber. He looked peaceful. His breathing was steady and deep. Even after she reassured herself he was fine, she didn't leave.
The muscular contours of his body fascinated her even though she'd seen him naked before. She followed the light sprinkling of hair covering his wide chest down to a stomach washboard lean. She wanted to touch him there, feel the strength of work-toughened muscles flex beneath her fingertips. His hip was bare, tapering to a hard, muscular thigh. Even his calf was defined and lean.
A slow heat flowed through Caitlan, that curious desire coiling like a tight spring inside her. Leisurely, she journeyed back up the length of his body-until her gaze collided with his wide-eyed stare. She froze, her heart slamming against her ribs. She made a move to turn, but he was faster. Lunging at her, his hand manacled her wrist and jerked her toward the bed. With a soft gasp of surprise, she stumbled and fell on him. Still holding her wrist, he rolled, pinning her beneath the heavy weight of his body. It all happened so fast, Caitlan's head spun.
The unexpected attack was like the one in the line shack while he'd been delirious, but this time he wasn't sleeping or dreaming. His eyes were wide open, hot and fierce-predatory and a little savage, like a hunter gone too long without capturing his prey.