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The church loomed in front of where we stood drinking and smoking, guarded by the high iron gate, like a castle under siege. We were a barbarian army. A phrase came into my head from the news: the Clash of Civilizations. By now, carfuls of family were rolling in, all dressed in their finery. We howled and jeered at them from a distance, sequestered — we were undesirables, the rogue element.

Then everyone was inside, the ceremony getting underway without us. We threw shapes and sneered and drank our filthy vodka. We had no plan of action, but inspiration would surely flare up before long.

‘Lads, do yis reckon Miss Nolan is in there?’ said Kearney.

‘I’d say so, yeah,’ I said. ‘I wonder if she’s wearin those boots.’

‘Primed for the fist,’ said Kearney. ‘Simply ready for the ride.’

Rubbing his hands together, Cocker said, ‘Lads, listen to me now. I would really enjoy havin sexual intercourse with her. Will I tell yis what I’d do? First I’d stimulate the vaginal region. I’d manipulate the nipples and breasts with me mouth and me hands so as to get Nolan primed for the sex act. By this stage it’s fair to say me own sex organ would be more or less engorged. But I’d keep stimulatin the nipples and the clitoris and the other erogenous zones until her vaginal passage was well and truly lubricated. I mean glistenin. Then I’d insert me erect member in there —’

‘You’d blow yer load!’ shouted Kearney.

‘I’d lash it in and out in a repetitive fashion until there was enough friction to trigger an orgasm. I’m talkin about me own orgasm, but it’s possible that she’d be stimulated enough by this point to have an orgasm as well. Who knows. But I wouldn’t be doin any of this for the purposes of procreation, now. No way, lads. I’d be doin it purely for the pleasure of it. Too fuckin right I would.’

After a few minutes the bottle was two-thirds gone. Cocker, lightweight as ever, was already wobbling. Cackling, he shuffled over to the gate, pulled down his zip and started pissing through the bars. ‘There yis go,’ he shouted. ‘Christian Brother paedo brigade. That’s what I think of all yer mercy and all yer bleedin …’ His voice trailed off in boozy mutterings, his head slumping against the bars. ‘Loada me hole,’ he added.

‘Put that thing away, Cocker, you’re killin the planet,’ called Rez.

‘Yeah well, I have to kill it before it kills me,’ Cocker slurred back, trying to spit and dribbling it across his chin.

‘That’s true. I’ll give ye that.’

Kearney pointed through the bars of the gate at the chapel.

‘God is in his church!’ he declared.

We looked at him.

‘God is in his church!’ he repeated, giggling like a perv.

Rez swilled on the vodka, gasped at the harsh taste, and passed it my way. I drank and then looked through the gates at the chapel.

‘Do you believe in God, Rez?’ I asked, for no real reason.

He grinned, looking at the church and then back at me. ‘Are ye serious?’

I thought about this. ‘No,’ I said. ‘I don’t think I am.’ For some reason this seemed hilarious and we both cracked up.

When the giggles had subsided Rez said, ‘Nobody believes in God any more. Everyone knows it’s bollocks. These kiddie-fiddlers in their black fuckin gowns are the only ones who don’t realize it.’

‘That’s why we drink so much, because we don’t believe in God,’ I said. The thought had only occurred to me as I was saying it. It struck me that my most penetrating insights happened when I was off my face.

‘Do ye reckon?’ said Rez, considering this, smiling faintly at Cocker who had turned and was wagging a finger at us, eyes half shut and face puffy red. ‘Yeah, actually I reckon you’re right. It’s like, if ye believe in God and that yer goin to go to heaven and all that, ye don’t really need to have a mad one down here on earth. But if ye know that it’s all just dreams and that we’re just down here on our own and there’s nothing better goin to come of it, then ye may as well take a load of pills and get fucked all the time and try to have a bit of fun.’

‘It’s kind of sad,’ I said unsurely.

‘No it’s not. Why? Past people used God stories to get them through life and make it all seem okay, and we use other things. Why shouldn’t we? There’s nothing sad about it.’

‘Yeah, I suppose so,’ I said. I was warily watching Kearney who had circled back towards us, still grinning at fuck knew what. He seemed different to me now, after I’d seen him loafing the junkie.

Kearney held his two fists up, wrists facing me, doing a weird little dance. Again he said, ‘God is in his church!’ This triggered a laughing fit so severe he had to bend over until it passed.

‘“If God does not exist, then I am God.” Do you know who said that?’ asked Rez.

‘Robbie Keane,’ said Cocker.

‘Pat Kenny,’ I said.

‘Bertie fuckin Ahern!’ roared Kearney.

Cocker gulped on the vodka. ‘Do yis wanna hear a joke, lads?’ he said.

We nodded eagerly.

‘Why do women fake orgasms?’

We didn’t know.

Cocker shrugged. ‘Who cares?’

A moment later he held up the vodka and said, ‘Here lads, the bottle’s just about empty. I dare someone to fuck it at the school.’

No sooner had he said it than Rez stepped forward and grabbed the bottle from Cocker’s hand. He drained the vodka, reached back and then hurled the bottle over the gate. We watched it lope through the air and explode against the red-brick wall of the school, narrowly missing a classroom window. We cheered, excited by the eruption of violence, of destruction for its own sake.

A moment later Mr Landerton appeared. He came running out of the school — apparently he had been up to something in there before heading into the church — and bounded down the driveway towards us. His face was pink with rage. We stood our ground, brave with drink, and sneering as he bore down on us. Then he began to slow, and the fury in his face changed to doubt, caution. He was realizing that, as of last week, things had changed between him and us.

He came to a halt with ten yards and the high iron gate still separating him from our group. We laughed and waved.

‘You haven’t got any power over us any more, Landerton,’ said Rez calmly. No one had ever called Landerton anything but ‘sir’ to his face before; it sounded weird.

‘Get out of here, yee cretins,’ he barked. ‘I’ll call the police if yis don’t.’

‘Ye faggot,’ said Kearney with a sneer.

‘Come out and have a drink with us, Landerton,’ I called.

‘You, Matthew, I’d have expected more from you. And from you as well, Richard.’

‘And not from me?’ called Cocker. ‘Ah sir, me feelins are hurt.’

‘I’m goin to call all your parents!’

Cocker shook his head and said, ‘Landerton, we really couldn’t give a fuck.’

Landerton was about to say something else but then his eyes widened and his body visibly tensed up. During the exchange, Kearney had slunk in behind us and now he reappeared holding a rock. He gripped a bar on the gate with one hand and then hurled the rock through two other bars. All of us flinched; only Landerton didn’t move a muscle as the rock flew from Kearney’s hand. We watched in amazement as it shot right for his head. But it missed him by inches, whizzing overhead with momentum enough to carry it right through the stained-glass window above the church door. The entire pane shattered, and shards of purple and indigo rained down into the doorway.

‘Leg it, lads!’

We scurried away into the night, exhilarated. Laughing as I ran with the pack, I looked back once at Landerton before we ducked into a side road, out of sight of the school. He wasn’t shouting after us; he didn’t even look angry any more, or disgusted — only sad. Mystified and sad. I snuffed out the flicker of pity I felt for him, and I whooped as we vaulted a wall into the darkness of the neighbouring industrial estate, and kept on running.