‘Yes,’ agreed Heyden, who thought the Premier had over-committed them but didn’t know the man well enough to suggest criticism. ‘We’ll have to watch ourselves.’
‘We must let the departments and ministries know the new feeling,’ said Smallwood. ‘Particularly the permanent people who think they can ignore us and make their own policy.’
‘A gentle hint?’ said Heyden carelessly.
‘No,’ Smallwood corrected him immediately. ‘A positive directive.’
FOUR
The mid-Channel passport check was always the most dangerous part, the moment when, despite the previous occasions, there could be a sudden challenge and they would be trapped aboard the ship, unable to run.
They had learned to time the public announcement about the immigration office and in the last few minutes preceding it Edith became increasingly nervous, sitting tense and upright and abandoning any attempt at conversation. There were no outward signs from Charlie, except perhaps in the way he drank the habitual brandy, not in spaced-out, even sips, but in deep swallows, so that the barman had already recognised him as a drinker and was standing close at hand, waiting for the nod.
They made an odd couple, she restrained, carefully coiffured and with the discreet but expensively maintained elegance of a Continental woman unafraid of obvious middle age, he baggy and shapeless in a nondescript suit, like a dustcover thrown over a piece of anonymous furniture about which nobody cared very much.
Edith started up at the metallic-voice broadcast, coming immediately to Charlie for guidance. Unspeaking, he led the way out into the purser’s square, then paused by the perfume and souvenir shop.
‘Don’t worry,’ he encouraged her.
She appeared not to hear.
What he wanted appeared almost immediately and he smiled at Edith. She looked back, without expression.
The smaller child was already crying, overtired and demanding to be carried. The mother, face throbbing red and split by sunburn, tried to push it away and by mistake hit the other girl, who started crying too, and immediately an argument began between the woman and her husband.
‘Perfect,’ judged Charlie.
He moved quickly now, his hand cupping Edith’s elbow. He could feel the nervousness tighten within her as they wedged themselves behind the squabbling family and began edging closer to the immigration office.
‘It’ll be all right,’ he assured her emptily. She remained stiff by his side, staring straight ahead.
The children caused the expected distraction, filling the tiny room with noise. The parents’ row spilled over to the immigration officer at a query about the children being entered on both passports and Charlie and Edith passed through in the wake of the official’s anticipated anxiety to regain order in the file of people.
‘Works every time,’ said Charlie, still holding Edith’s arm and leading her back towards the bar. She was still very frightened, he knew.
In recent months she had shown her concern at his drinking by almost total abstinence, but she accepted the brandy now, gulping at it.
‘It’s been too long,’ he said. ‘They will have abandoned the blanket scrutiny long ago. And there’s nothing wrong with the passports.’
She shook her head, refusing the lie.
‘That’s nonsense and you know it. They’ll never give up. Not until you’re dead.’
‘This is the fifth time we’ve crossed from the Continent without any trouble.’
She shrugged, still not accepting the reassurance.
‘Thank God we won’t have to go through it again.’
‘We’re safe, I tell you.’
With his empty glass, he gestured to the attentive barman, waving away the change.
‘If you’re so safe, why are you drunk every night by ten o’clock?’ she demanded. It was an unfair question, Edith realised. Fear wasn’t the only reason. But she wanted to hurt him, desperate for any reaction that would cause him to stop. She was very worried at the growing carelessness. She should be grateful, she supposed, that he’d finally agreed to abandon England. It had taken enough arguments.
He smiled, a lopsided expression.
‘Nothing else to do,’ he said, answering her question.
Edith shook her head, sadly.
‘You know something, Charlie?’ she said.
He drank awkwardly, spilling some of the liquor down his suit. It was already stained, she saw.
‘What?’
‘I never thought I would feel sorry for you. Amost every other emotion, probably. But never pity. And that’s nearly all there is now, Charlie. Pity.’
Another attempt to hurt, she recognised. Because it wasn’t true.
‘What about love?’
‘You’re making it difficult,’ she persisted. ‘Very difficult.’
He tried to straighten, to conceal the extent of his drunkenness, then discarded the pretence, slumping round-shouldered in the chair.
‘Thank you for agreeing to leave England,’ she said sincerely. The gesture was for her, she accepted.
Charlie shrugged, knowing the words would jam if he tried to speak. She had been right in persuading him, he knew. They were both much happier in Zurich, and having dispensed with Paris there wasn’t much point in retaining the Brighton house either. That was the trouble, he decided, extending the thought; there didn’t seem much point in anything any more.
‘We’ve still got to get nearly?300,000 out of England,’ he said. ‘Won’t you be frightened?’
‘Yes,’ she said. It would be wrong to suggest he just left it and lived on the money she had, she knew.
‘Won’t you be?’ she asked.
He humped his shoulders, an uncaring gesture.
‘Perhaps,’ he said. He nodded and the refilled glass dutifully appeared.
He probably wouldn’t recall the conversation in the morning, decided Edith. It was already long past remembering time … long past many things.
Charlie was bored, she recognised. Bored and uninterested. For someone who had led a life as unique as Charlie’s, it was like an illness, gradually weakening him. Now he had nothing. Except guilt. There was a lot of that, she knew.
‘Promise me something else,’ she tried, hopefully, as the ferry began to move alongside the Southampton quayside.
His eyes were filmed, she saw, and his face was quite unresponsive.
‘Don’t go to the grave,’ she pleaded. ‘It’s a stupid, sentimental pilgrimage. He wouldn’t have expected you to do it.’
‘Want to,’ said Charlie, stubbornly.
‘It’s ridiculous, Charlie. There’s absolutely no point. And you know it.’
‘We’re coming here for the last time,’ he reminded her. ‘So I’m going, just once. I’ve waited long enough. It’ll be safe now.’
She sighed, accepting defeat.
‘Oh Charlie,’ she said. ‘Why does it all have to be such an awful mess?’
The office of George Wilberforce, Director of British Intelligence, was on the corner of the Whitehall building that gave views over both the Cenotaph and Parliament Square.
It was a darkly warm, reassuring room, in which the oil paintings of bewigged and satined statesmen adorning the panelled walls seemed an unnecessary reminder of an Empire.
The modern innovation of double glazing excluded noise from outside and deep pile carpet succeeded within. The books were in hand-tooled leather and the massive desk at which Wilberforce sat had been salvaged in 1947 aboard the same vessel that brought home the Queen’s throne from an independent India. Wilberforce considered he had the more comfortable piece of furniture.
The Director appeared as tailored for the room as the antique furniture and the unread first editions. He was a fine-featured, elegantly gangling man who affected pastel coloured shirts with matching socks and a languid diffidence that concealed the fervent need for acceptance in a job he had coveted for fifteen years and seen to go to two other men before him.