Peregrine smiled. Betwixt was the main reason he stayed.
Betwixt was a chimera who’d been captured by the witch long before Peregrine, so long ago that he remembered neither his name nor his original shape. While the witch held him captive he had no control over where and when and how he changed form, but he was always some creature betwixt one animal and another, so the moniker suited him. And as Betwixt had not cared overly much for Leila, Peregrine’s presence suited him as well.
Peregrine nudged the dogsnake with his foot.
“If you intend on waking me up before I’m ready, you’d better intend to share some of that stew as well,” Betwixt growled without opening his eyes. “And a bowl of water.”
“Absolutely!” Peregrine said cheerily. “I was hoping you’d taste the stew for me. The spider meat is fresh, but it’s possible the brownie bits have gone rancid. And some of the mushrooms might have had a touch of color on them . . . it was hard to see. But then, it always is in this place.”
“Pantry Surprise again already?”
“Waste not, want not,” Peregrine replied.
“I’ll choose ‘want not,’ thank you,” said Betwixt.
Peregrine laughed at the retort. When one was forced to stay in another’s company in a cave beyond time, it was best to keep the atmosphere jovial. Peregrine and Betwixt explored together, hunted together, and avoided the witch together as best they could. In the time of Peregrine’s imprisonment Betwixt had become his best friend and closest confidant. It was a rare bond Peregrine had shared with no one since his father.
Peregrine took up a dagger and set to chopping shards of icerock out of the wall. He collected them in a bowl fashioned from an old warrior’s helmet and set them nearer to the fire to melt. After the fourth or fifth shard chipped away, the dagger snapped. The blade flew across the room and landed behind a clump of pillarstones.
“Troll blade,” said Betwixt. “Shoddy workmanship.”
The dagger might have also been a thousand years old. “I’ll try to select a dwarf blade next time.” Forced to move on to another task, Peregrine lifted the laundry pot and dumped the dirty water into a runnel that led back down to the heart of the mountain. One by one, he began wringing the clothes out for drying. “I had a vision of her again last night.”
“You had a dream. Stop calling them ‘visions’ or I’ll start calling you ‘witch.’”
“Fine, I had a dream. Of Elodie.”
And what a lovely dream it was. They’d lived in a rose-covered cottage at the edge of the forest. A low rock wall surrounded a garden and a small barn. The kitchen had two ovens and a pantry and a pump house for well water. The bedroom had been up a long flight of stairs that reminded Peregrine of one of the turrets at Starburn, but he had never seen this place before. He only knew that he was warm and safe and loved and that she was there, smiling at him over the dinner table. The light from the sun twinkled in her bright eyes and caught her hair and turned it gold.
“Or not,” said Betwixt. “You can’t be sure it’s her. You haven’t seen her since you were small children.”
“You’re such a killjoy.” Peregrine slapped the witch’s ratty dress against the side of the cauldron and wrung it out in frustration.
Betwixt sighed and gave in. He was too kind to demean any visions of loveliness, however fleeting, insubstantial, and wholly untrue. “Go on. Tell me about her.”
Peregrine nodded. “I see her as a goddess wrapped in waves of blue-green sea, or a terrible angel in a white gown sullied with blood, rising like the moon above a battlefield. Sometimes she holds a sword in one hand, sometimes an ax. Day or night, rain or shine, there is always a wind in her long golden hair and a fire in her bright eyes.” Peregrine sobered and moved on to the next item of laundry—it fell to pieces as he lifted it. He flung the rent fabric into the pile he used for torch rags. “I am a fool for getting myself cursed on the way to fetch her.”
“You can’t keep torturing yourself,” said Betwixt. “If the circumstances had been different, who knows what might have happened. If Leila had encountered you together, you or Elodie might have come to harm.”
“I might have fought back. Or declined her accursed wish.” Oh, all the things he might have done then. He’d gone over each scenario in his mind, futilely weighing his chances of success and defeat. “But you don’t think the woman I’m seeing is Elodie? I don’t see how it can’t be. I don’t know any other women.” Except the witch, her daughter, and some chamber and scullery maids he recalled as a child.
“Peregrine.” That name was never uttered in the company of the witch. The chimera used it now to get his attention, and he had it. “You were an earl’s son betrothed to a towheaded little girl with pigtails. The woman you’re envisioning might be Elodie fully grown, but she might just as easily be one of those goddesses you’re always praying to, or a figment born of desperation and Earthfire fumes. I just wish you would stop using her to regret your past. Fact or fiction, she wouldn’t want that. I don’t think the real Elodie would want that either.”
“You’re right.” But saying the words did not dispel the guilt he would forever feel for disappearing before he’d even had the chance to get to know his betrothed. He wondered if Elodie ever thought about him, or if she still waited for him. He wondered if she hated the idea of an arranged partnership, or if it would have afforded her the same freedom it had him. He wondered if similar visions haunted her sleep. Sweet Elodie. He would return to her one day, when he had learned all there was to learn. When he was worthy of her. For now, he would settle for visiting her in his dreams.
“Stop it,” said Betwixt.
“What?”
“You’re beating yourself up again! I can tell by the look on your face. She’s a dream. Let her fade into memory like dreams are supposed to.”
Peregrine stuck his tongue out at the dogsnake. Betwixt could decide what that facial expression meant.
“If Elodie of Cassot still thinks of you at all, I’m sure she feels what the rest of us do: pity that you never had a chance to live your life once it finally belonged to you.”
Peregrine’s childhood had been consumed with caring for an ill father, so he’d never enjoyed a life outside his family estate. Elodie embodied everything that might have been. “She was the only thing I was ever responsible for, and I let her slip through my fingers.”
“So go back to her. The mountain is waiting.”
“Waiting to kill me,” said Peregrine. “If it had been that easy, I would have left long ago.”
Betwixt swatted at Peregrine with his tail. He wandered to an opaque section of the wall where calcite had dripped down long ago in rippled lines and scratched his back against it. “You didn’t exactly have a choice. You got cursed, remember?”
“How could I forget?” Enough of this folly; it was time to lighten the mood. “But if I hadn’t been cursed I never would have met you, my dearest friend.”
“That would have been a pity,” Betwixt agreed, and they chuckled in unison.
Neither was ready when the first tremor struck.
Startled and confused by the sudden sense of vertigo, Peregrine lost his footing. Betwixt—fully awake now—snapped the sleeve of Peregrine’s shirt between his massive jaws and dragged him away from the fire. Peregrine huddled with Betwixt in a small archway. The mountain shivered beneath him. Fingers of icerock that had pointed down from the ceiling now joined them on the floor. Some crushed the pillarstones that grew up from the ground, splintering into white shards and glittering dust. Crystalline protrusions rang out like church bells as they crashed. Mighty columns that were created with the mountain toppled and fell. The air grew thick with ice and chalk. Peregrine coughed and hoped that slow, molten Earthfire was not soon to follow. Betwixt howled, his tail rattling madly.
“Dragon?” Peregrine yelled to Betwixt over the thunder of the cave. “Could it be?”