It just didn't seem like Christmas with a temperature of nearly seventy and brilliant sunshine, but the insistent carols on the radio warbled again and again that it was beginning to look that way and Santa Claus was coming and bells were jingling ... Faith turned off the radio and thought how perfectly understandable it was that the suicide rate went up around holidays. Alone, she wouldn't have been able to bear it.
Thank God for Haven House, where she had spent hours helping decorate and bake and wrap presents for the kids. Thank God for Katie, who had been puzzled by Faith's sudden inability to play the piano, but forgiving. There weren't many blanks left now. There was even, finally, acceptance. And gratitude. Faith went back to trying to concentrate on the college-course catalog, silently debating whether to put her writing skills to good use in a course — other than journalism. Or communications field maybe advertising. Even if she had to take just general-interest courses until she made up her mind, she fully intended to sign up for the next semester. She needed to get on with her life.
She had ordered a pizza to be delivered, so when the doorbell rang she went to answer it with a twenty it in her hand.
"I never take money from redheads," Kane said.
"I was ... expecting a pizza." Faith hoped she wasn't staring at him as hungrily as she thought she was. Then again, maybe he'd think she was longing for pepperoni and cheese.
"May I come in?"
"Oh... of course."
"Very nice," he said, looking around at the comfortable overstuffed furniture and elegant but casual decorations. "This looks more like you."
Faith was afraid to probe that remark. "I needed to ... start over here. A clean slate."
He looked at her for an unreadable moment, then said abruptly, "I saw you at the memorial service."
"Yes. It was lovely." She had seen him, too, but had kept to the fringes of the crowd. She had spoken to Bishop briefly; she had forced herself not to ask him anything about Kane, and he had volunteered nothing.
"It was ... closure," Kane said.
"Was it?"
He took a step toward her. "I told you I'd say what I had to this time."
Faith swallowed hard. "Yes."
He reached out to her, his hand sliding under her hair to lie warmly alongside her neck. "And that I won't stop myself from touching you this time because I'm not sure you want to be touched."
She closed her eyes and pressed herself harder against his hand in mute pleasure.
"And that I won't let you shut me out of the parts of your life that matter," Kane finished unsteadily, and kissed her. "Not again. Never again."
When she could, Faith said, "I'll never try to shut you out of any part of my life, I promise."
He kissed her again, his hunger intense, unhidden, his arms drawing her close, holding her as if he meant never to let her go. "What I have to say is that I love you, Faith. Whoever you were, whoever you are or will ever be — I love you. And that's all that matters."
Faith looked into his eyes, deep enough to see the love and the beginnings of belief, of acceptance. She reached up and touched his face, the backs of her fingers stroking gently.
"That's all that matters. I love you, Kane."
The pizza delivery boy thought he must have been given the wrong address, because even though he rang and rang, nobody ever came.
FBI Agent Noah Bishop has a rare gift for seeing what others do not, a gift that helps solve the most puzzling cases. Read more of his electrifying adventures in two stand-alone novels of psychic suspense.