Don was puzzled. How could she stay in business if people didn't like her?
"No, no, don't get the wrong idea," she said. "I'm always cheerful and polite. But when it matters I say what I think—cheerfully and politely."
"And you're in sales?"
"It doesn't require any skills," she said.
"Hardest skills of all."
"You think?"
"I work in wood, I know what I'm getting. I can see the grain, I can see the knots."
"People aren't much different," she said with a shrug.
"Harder to read."
"Easier to bend."
Cramped together in that bathroom, neither of them willing to lean against anything because it was so dirty, they were so close together Don could feel her breath against his shirt, against his face, could smell her, a light perfume but behind that, her, a little musky maybe, but the womanliness of her almost hurt, it took him so much by surprise. He hadn't been this close to a woman in a long time. And not just any woman, either. He liked her.
"You bending me?" he asked.
She smiled. "You feeling bent?"
He knew it as if he was in a play and the script said They kiss. Now was the time for him to bend over—not that far, really—and kiss her. He even knew how it would feel, lips brushing lips, mouths melting softly against each other, not passionate but warm and sweet.
"Better check upstairs to see if that bathroom has a usable shower," he said.
He could hardly believe he said it. But in fact, while he was standing there looking at her and wanting to kiss her, his mind had raced ahead: I can't hold this woman close to me, I'm dirty and sweaty and I need a bath, she'll be disgusted. And then he thought: Even if the water got hooked up right now, there's probably not a shower I could use here. And so he blurted out the next thought and the moment passed.
But it was a real moment, he could see that from the amused little crinkle in her eyes. "Sounds like you care about keeping clean, Mr. Lark," she said.
"Live in a truck long enough, a shower is like a miracle," he said.
She laughed. "A miracle with a drainhole." Then she brushed past him and led the way out of the tight hot bathroom.
Upstairs, the three apartments were smaller than the downstairs ones, and they all shared a bathroom. Even when the house was first cut up into apartments it would have been an old-fashioned, cheap arrangement. By the time the house went vacant, it must have been hard to find anybody willing to put up with sharing. The bathroom was at the end of the hall, right at the back of the house.
Don guessed that originally the back stairs had been there, narrower than the wide front staircase, and when the bathrooms were put in that staircase was taken out and the plumbing was run up through the space where it had been. Modern people needed toilets and showers a lot more than they needed a stairway for the kids to get down to the kitchen without being seen by guests in the front room. So the back stairs wouldn't be restored.
This shower still had a curtain hanging in it, spotted with ancient mildew but not disgusting. And the tub was pretty clean, not even as dusty as he would have expected. No sign of leaks in the tub; he'd be able to use it as soon as the water was hooked up and he replaced the rusted shower-head.
"This where you're going to put the Jacuzzi?" asked Cindy.
"No, I'm going to keep it simple up here. I'm making the back of the south apartment into the master suite and the fancy stuff goes there."
He didn't even have to squat down to look at the toilet. A big crack in the bowl and serious waterstains around the base of it were all the information he needed.
"Toilet doesn't look good?" she said.
"It ain't a toilet anymore," said Don.
"What is it?"
"Sculpture."
She laughed. "I can see it on a pedestal downtown in the Arts Center."
He liked her laugh. He wanted to listen to it again. He wanted to see if that moment would come again, when he'd actually want to be close to a woman, when the memory of his wife would disappear and he could see Cindy Claybourne as herself. "Listen," he said, "you want to meet sometime, not in a bathroom?"
"I don't know, I was just thinking that you bring a special je ne sais quoi to the discussion of plumbing fixtures."
"OK, how about dinner in a place with really nice sinks?"
"The bathrooms at Southern Lights really have character," said Cindy.
Don had taken his wife there the first time they went out to eat after the baby was born. He didn't think he could go there without picturing that baby seat on the floor beside their table, the little face in repose, breathing softly as she slept. He quickly ran down the list of restaurants that he had gone to with clients but not with his family.
"Cafe Pasta," Don said. "Art Deco."
"I'll go there, but only if you promise to share the sausage appetizer with me so both of us have garlic breath."
Again she stood in front of him, looking up at him, smiling, and this time he seized the moment, reached up and touched her cheek, bent down and kissed her lightly, so lightly it was almost not a kiss, more of a caress of her lips with his. And then again, just a little more lingering, lips still dry. And a third time, his hand now around her waist, her mouth pressing upward into his, warm and moist. They parted and looked at each other, not smiling now. "I was just thinking that there's more than one way for us both to have the same breath," said Don.
"Who's bending who, that's what I'd like to know," said Cindy.
"Bet you say that to all your clients."
"After we close tomorrow, you're not a client," she said. "In fact you never were—you were a customer."
"So what will I be when we go to Cafe Pasta?"
"A gentleman friend," she said.
He liked the sound of it.
"When?" she asked.
"I'm not the one with an appointment book," said Don.
"Tomorrow night?" she asked.
"Shower won't be running by then."
"Come over and use mine," she said.
That startled him. It sounded like a come-on, and not for anything he thought of as romance. "No," he said, perhaps too sharply. "Thanks, but let's just make it Friday, OK?"
"If it's Friday we'll have to make a reservation."
"You're the one with a phone."
"Glad to do it," she said. She led the way out into the upstairs hall, and as she preceded him down the stairs, she said, "By the way, my offer to let you use my shower—that's all it was. I'm not that kind of girl."
"Good thing," he said, "cause I'm not that kind of guy."
"I know," she said. As if she liked that about him. Maybe she wasn't looking for the alpha baboon after all.
At the front door she stopped and held up a hand. "Don't walk me to my car," she said. "I'd just want you to kiss me again and we wouldn't want to give the neighbors anything to talk about."
"Fine," he said. "See you in the morning."
"Come by my office and we can drive to the closing together. The lawyer's on Greene Street downtown and it's hard enough to find one parking place, let alone two."
"Eight forty-five," said Don.
"Nice doing business with you," she said with a grin. Then she bounded down the stairs and walked across the lawn. He stood in the open doorway and watched her all the way to the car, watched as she got in, started it up, and drove away. And then just stood there a while longer in the open door.
6
Lemonade
Without a building permit or title to the house, Don had about reached the limit of work he could do. Yet he wasn't interested in sitting around the house the rest of the evening, and he had no place he wanted to go. He had long since learned that movies and books were either stupid or not. If they were stupid, it made him impatient and angry to spend time with them. If they were not, then they had the power to unlock emotions that he had no desire to face again. Work was the solution, and so work is what he did.