There was no more swinging of the wrecking bar. Don worked very carefully, prying away wall-board, pulling out nails. No skillsaw and sledgehammer this time—he took each stud out of the false wall one at a time, then worked his way up the stairs, removing the wall on the other side, which was seated on the steps rather than touching the carved stringer. He should have seen that too, how the banister could not be the original, how the box around the stairwell had been extended inward by four inches, how the cheap molding could not have been the original. Why hadn't he seen it?
Because it was pretty well done, that's why. And he wasn't looking for it. This was where the bearing wall should be, so a bearing wall is what he saw.
But she had known.
"Sylvie," he called. "Sylvie."
He heard her padding across the floor in the other parlor. Coming through the entry. Then she was in the north parlor. He pointed to the beautifully carved stringer. To the polished wooden bench around the walls of the alcove under the stairs. She touched the pillars, looked in at the figures behind them. "You," she said to each one. "You."
She had seen all she could see at her height. "Want a boost to see the rest?" he asked.
She nodded. He knelt down under her, got her sitting on one shoulder, and stood up. She was so light. So small. Like a child. "You," she was saying. "Hiding here all this time." To help her see the last ones, he gripped her thighs and got her standing on his shoulders like an acrobat. Not dangerous, because she was leaning for balance against the stairway. When she said to, he took another step, another step, sidling along in front of the alcove, until she had seen all the carvings. Fourteen-foot ceilings. An extravagance, Don had thought. Useless, meaningless in rooms this size. But now, as he helped Sylvie glide along the stairs until she was bent over enough that he could hoist her down, he began to wonder about the rest of the room. It made no sense, it had never made sense, for the ceilings to be so high down here. This stairway now ruled the room. It was beautiful, but it was also too much for a room this size, just as the ceiling was too high. Nothing else in the house was so badly out of proportion. What was the builder doing?
Sylvie couldn't take her hands off the wood. She walked around under the stairs now, into the alcove. She sat on the wooden bench, slid along it like a child trying out every possible place to sit. Then she swung her legs up onto the seat and gripped her knees.
Exactly the pose that he had seen Cindy take, there on the untouched couch in her living room.
"I dreamed about this place," said Sylvie softly. "And candles everywhere." She reached up and touched the sloping underside of the staircase. Don stepped into the alcove behind her and saw that set into the wide expanse of walnut was a painting, one that could only be seen by someone sitting in the alcove. A double portrait. A man and a woman. Youngish but not young. The style of the painting made it of the era of Gainsborough. Or at least in imitation of that period. Sentimentalized. But Don knew, looking into the eyes of the woman, that it was for love of her that this house was built. And looking at the man, whose eyes were turned to look at the woman, Don knew that he was the builder. "Dr. Bellamy, isn't it?"
"And they left it here," she said. "Even when it was a whorehouse. That was an awful thing to do, to make them watch what their house had become."
"But it would have been worse to tear them out of it," said Don.
"I guess."
"And the whorehouse was upstairs. Down here it was just a speakeasy."
"I wonder if my father loved my mother like that," she said.
"Nobody ever knows the truth about their mother and father. What they really felt. Easier to see Elvis than to know your parents' hearts."
She chuckled. He liked that low chuckle.
She laughed, a cascade of mirth like water over mossy stone. He liked that, too.
"How do you know this stuff?" asked Don.
"What stuff?"
"How did you know that was the bearing wall?"
"Live here long enough, you get a feel for the house," she said.
But that wasn't it. He knew now. The Weird sisters were right. You could get caught by this house. It could hold you. That's why Sylvie was here. The house had her and she couldn't get away. But in return, the house talked to her. The house revealed itself to her. She knew where everything was. She didn't put it there, she just saw it.
I'm falling into their madness, thought Don. I'm getting caught myself, but not by the house.
Then he laughed at himself. "Why am I so certain of my doubt?"
"What?" she said.
"Why is doubt the one thing we're never skeptical of? We question other people's beliefs, and the more sure they are the more we doubt them. But it never occurs to us to doubt our own doubt. Question our questions. We think our questions are answers."
"We?"
"Me. I. I think that. I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For thinking you were crazy."
"Don't apologize for that." She smiled wryly.
"For what then?"
"For thinking I was lying."
"I'm sorry."
"You're welcome." She giggled. "Or whatever I'm supposed to say."
Sitting there beside her in the alcove, the painting above their heads, he suddenly wanted her to lean back against him.
Instead she swung her legs off the bench and turned to face him. "I think I am crazy, Don. I think I really am."
He shook his head. "Like that makes you different from the rest of us."
She buried her face in her hands. "You like me now, don't you, Don."
"Yes."
"Because I stopped you from wrecking the house."
"No. I liked you a long time before that. Now is just when I could admit it to myself."
"But you shouldn't," she said. "You shouldn't like me."
"Oh, right. OK. Whatever."
She laughed a little. But maybe it wasn't a laugh.
"If you knew what I did. What I've done. You wouldn't like me."
He could feel it coming. Another confession. Like Cindy's.
"Well then don't tell me," he said. "I don't want to know."
"I don't want to tell you."
"So don't, then! Why do people have to confess things? I'm not a priest! I'm just a guy with an incredibly screwed-up life who's trying to maybe fix it up into something, and every time I turn around somebody's laying their own screwups on me, and I don't want to hear it!"
She was starting to cry. Dammit, he didn't want to make her cry.
"Look, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't believe you before. I'm sorry you've been shut up in this place for—ten years? Why did you stay here for ten years? You had everything going for you. A degree. A job. Providence, right? It was a job you wanted, right?"
She nodded.
"But here you are. What is this, then? Penance? What crime did you commit that was so terrible you should be put away for ten years? In solitary confinement, it's a miracle you didn't go crazy. In this house, prowling around, letting it get under your skin, letting it get into you. What did you do that deserves this?"
In reply, she bent over and buried her face in her hands and wept.
"Your turn now," he whispered. "First me, now you." The family that cries together... what? Dies together? Fries together? Lies together? He shook the thought out of his mind. We're not a family. We're the opposite of a family. We're people so lonely that when we're together we make a black hole of loneliness and everything else gets sucked down into it and is never seen again.