I pulled the journals out. “They’re mine. I work with Abraham. Now, who the hell are you?”
But I knew who she was. I recognized her by that headful of curly dark hair. It was Anandalla, the woman who’d left the cocktail napkin note. The woman who’d rushed out of the Buena Vista last night, causing me to run uphill in uncomfortable shoes. I’m not sure I could forgive her for that. She was even more petite than I’d thought. Also unforgivable.
Was she also a cold-blooded killer?
“What are you doing here?” I demanded.
“None of your business.” She sounded like a snotty kid. But then she scooped up an X-Acto knife and waved it at me. “Answer my question first.”
Snotty and dangerous.
I straightened up, happy to use the height card to intimidate and taunt, not that it seemed to be doing much good. “I’m Brooklyn Wainwright, Abraham Karastovsky’s very good friend and colleague. I work here with him. I belong here. What’s your story?”
She surveyed the room for a full minute, decidedly uncomfortable. Her gaze finally met mine and she said defiantly, “I’m Abraham’s daughter.”
Chapter 11
My mouth dropped open. “You are not.”
She threw down the knife and planted her hands on her hips. “Am, too.”
Okay, this was unexpected. I studied her for a minute, then wondered how I hadn’t seen it before. The hair was a dead giveaway, the same curly dark mop as Abraham’s. She looked about twenty-five years old, probably five feet two, short for someone who claimed Abraham for a father. Her mother had to be really short.
“I’m sorry,” I said helplessly. “I didn’t know Abraham had a daughter.”
She blurted out a harsh laugh. “Yeah, well, neither did he till a week ago.”
“You’re kidding me. Where did you come from? When did he… hmm.”
She shrugged. “I live in Seattle with my mom. She only told me a month ago who my father is.” She grabbed a spool of sewing thread and rolled it between her hands. “She’s, um… My mom’s dying. Of cancer. Guess she figured it was time to come clean.” She put the thread down and rubbed her eyes. “I’m so tired. I’ve been staying with a girlfriend near Ghirardelli Square. She’s kind of a night owl.”
“Did you…” How did I ask this question? “Did you get a chance to meet Abraham?”
“Yeah.” She smiled. It transformed her face and I realized she was even younger than I’d first thought. Late teens or early twenties, maybe.
“He’s a big bear, isn’t he?” she continued, chuckling. “We had a great dinner in the City; then I came out here the other night to meet him, see his place, but he wasn’t here. I left him a note but he didn’t call.”
She looked perturbed. “He told me all about you, even showed me your picture.”
“My picture?”
“Yeah, the one he carries in his wallet.” She said it like an accusation. Hey, it wasn’t my fault if she was miffed. But why was she talking about him in the present tense? I was getting a bad feeling.
“Anyway,” she continued, “I told him I’d meet him at the Buena Vista last night but he didn’t show up. Then all of a sudden you were there. I recognized you and I-I didn’t know what to do, so I took off.” She waved her hands helplessly. “Probably a chickenshit reaction, but it was weird to see you there. I felt a little threatened, I guess. Fight or flight, you know? So I ran.”
“Yeah, I know.”
“So I thought I’d try to snag him here today, but no such luck. And here you are. Must be my lucky day.”
I would’ve risen to the sarcastic bait but I couldn’t. She didn’t know. Now what? I really wished my mom were here. She would handle this so much better than I could.
“I’m sorry, Anandalla,” I said, clasping my hands tightly. “Abraham died a few days ago.”
“What?” She shook her head. “No, I just saw him. What’s today?”
“It’s true,” I said softly. “I’m sorry.”
Her eyes were wide, filled with shock. “No, no, I’m supposed to… um, no.”
“I’m sorry.”
“That’s not possible,” she whispered. “You’re lying. You’re just…”
She blinked a few times and gulped. Then her face crumpled as the tears started. She buried her face in her hands and her shoulders hitched as she cried silently.
I grabbed a stool and forced her to sit. She laid her head on the surface of the worktable and continued to cry with heart-wrenching sobs. I rubbed her back but felt completely useless. I rifled through my purse and found a packet of tissues and shoved one into her hand.
I couldn’t believe it. After a lifetime of not knowing, this girl finally had a chance to meet her father. And now he was gone. And her mother was dying, too. How could anyone survive that much pain?
My heart broke for Abraham, too. What a happy shock it must’ve been to find out he had a daughter after all these years. At the same time, I felt a spurt of anger for Anandalla’s mother. How could that woman have kept them both in the dark for so many years?
And I suddenly realized this must’ve been what Abraham had been talking about the night of the Covington opening. “Life is good, Brooklyn,” he’d said, hugging me. “I didn’t think it could get any better, but it can.”
At the time, I thought he’d been referring to the overwhelming success of the exhibition. Now I realized he’d been talking about his daughter. It was so unfair.
Anandalla’s sobs echoed in the room and reached right inside me. As always, no one cried alone when I was nearby. I wiped my damp cheeks as I put my hand on her arm.
“I’m so sorry, Anandalla,” I said. “He was a good man and I know he would’ve gone to any lengths to find you if he’d known. I-I don’t know what else to say. It’s just a tragedy.”
Anandalla sat up, took in a big breath and let it out. She hopped off the stool and absently pulled at the cuffs of her jacket. “Yeah. It sucks.”
“That pretty much sums it up,” I said.
After a moment, she blurted, “You can call me Annie.”
“Annie?”
“My mom tried to be Hindu for a while, so that’s where I got the name.”
“There was a lot of that going around back in the day.”
She snickered. “Yeah. After a few years, she went back to being a legal secretary and I’ve been Annie ever since.”
“I like the name Annie.”
“Thanks. So I guess I’m going to be an orphan,” she said with a chuckle, but it set off a fresh bout of tears and another round of heavy sobs.
I pulled her into my arms and held her. After a few minutes, she stopped sobbing but began to gasp with heavy jerks as she tried to catch her breath.
“Easy,” I said. “Take it slow.” I patted her back. Her breathing slowed, deepened, softened.
Finally, she stepped away. “I’ll be okay.”
“I don’t know how,” I said. “I’d be a complete disaster.”
“Denial helps. I’m hoping it’ll kick in any minute now.”
“Well, I can promise you one thing.”
She dabbed the tissue along her wet temple. “Yeah? What?”
“You’ll never be an orphan. Not while you’ve got the Fellowship around you.”
“The what?”
I sighed. “I guess your mother never told you about that, either.”
She took a defensive step back. I was making an educated guess that her mother had kept Abraham from her because of his connection to the commune and Guru Bob. To an outsider, Guru Bob had often been mistaken for a cult leader. But he wasn’t, just as his followers weren’t held captive and hypnotized into drinking Kool-Aid.
“What exactly didn’t my mother tell me?” Annie asked as she swiped her eyes dry with her knuckles. Some of her Goth eye makeup smeared across her cheek and I handed her another tissue.
“I could try to explain but it would take hours.” I grabbed my bag. “Why don’t I show you instead?”