Bran heard Ffreol's voice and felt the monk's hands on him, and awareness came flooding back. The blood-tinged veil through which he viewed the world dimmed and faded, and he was himself once more. He felt weak and hollow, like a man who has slaved all night in his sleep and awakened exhausted.
"What were you doing up there?" demanded Brother Ffreol.
Bran shook his head. "I thought… I-" Suddenly, his stomach heaved; he pitched forward on hands and knees and retched.
Ffreol stood with him until he finished. When Bran could stand again, the priest turned to the death mound and sank to his knees in the soft earth. Bran knelt beside him, and Iwan painfully dismounted and knelt beside his horse as Brother Ffreol spread his arms, palms upward in abject supplication.
Closing his eyes and turning his face to heaven, the priest said, "Merciful Father, our hearts are pierced with the sharp arrow of grief. Our words fail; our souls quail; our spirits recoil before the injustice of this hateful iniquity. We are undone.
"God and Creator, gather the souls of our kinsmen to your Great Hall, forgive their sins and remember only their virtues, and bind them to yourself with the strong bands of fellowship.
"For ourselves, Mighty Father, I pray you keep us from the sin of hatred, keep us from the sin of vengeance, keep us from the sin of despair, but protect us from the wicked schemes of our enemies. Walk with us now on this uncertain road. Send angels to go before us, angels to go behind, angels on either side, angels above and below-guarding, shielding, encompassing." He paused for a moment and then added, "May the Holy One give us the courage of righteousness and grant us strength for this day and through all things whatsoever shall befall us. Amen."
Bran, kneeling beside him, stared at the ground and tried to add his "Amen," but the word clotted and died in his throat. After a moment, he raised his head and gazed for the last time on the heap of corpses before turning his face away.
Then, while Bran bathed in the river to wash the stink of death and gore from his hands and clothes, Ffreol and Iwan covered the bodies once more with fresh-cut branches of hazel and holly, the better to keep the birds away. Bran finished, and the three grief-sick men remounted and rode on as the cacophony of carrion feeders renewed behind them. Just after midday they crossed the border into England and a short while later approached the English town of Hereford. The town was full of Ffreinc now, so they moved on quickly without stopping. From Hereford, the road was wide and well used, if deeply rutted. They encountered few people and spoke to none, pretending to be deep in conversation with one another whenever they saw anyone approaching, all the while remaining watchful and wary.
Beyond Hereford, the land sloped gently down toward the lowlands and the wide Lundein estuary still some way beyond the distant horizon of rumpled, cultivated hills. As daylight began to fail, they took refuge in a beech grove beside the road near the next ford; while Bran watered the horses, Ffreol prepared a meal from the provisions in their tuck bags. They ate in silence, and Bran listened to the rooks flocking to the woods for the night. The sound of their coarse calls renewed the horror of the day. He saw the broken bodies of his friends once more. With an effort, he concentrated on the fire, holding the hateful images at bay.
"It will take time," Ffreol said, the sound of his voice a distant buzz in Bran's ears, "but the memory will fade, believe me," At the sound of his voice, Bran struggled back from the brink. "The memory of this black day will fade," Ffreol was saying as he broke twigs and fed them to the fire. "It will vanish like a bad taste in your mouth. One day it will be gone, and you will be left with only the sweetness."
"There was little sweetness," sniffed Bran. "My father, the king, was not an easy man.
"I was talking about the others-your friends in the warband."
Bran acknowledged the remark with a grunt.
"But you are right," Ffreol continued; he snapped another twig. "Brychan was not an easy man. God be praised, you have the chance to do something about that. You can be a better king than your father."
"No." Bran picked up the dried husk of a beechnut and tossed it into the fire as if consigning his own fragile future to the flames. He cared little enough for the throne and all its attendant difficulties. What difference did it make who was king anyway? "That's over now. Finished."
"You will be king," declared Iwan, stirring himself from his bleak reverie. "The kingdom will be restored. Never doubt it."
But Bran did doubt it. For most of his life he had maintained a keen disinterest in all things having to do with kingship. He had never imagined himself occupying his father's throne at Caer Cadarn or leading a host of men into battle. Those things, like the other chores of nobility, were the sole occupation of his father. Bran always had other pursuits. So far as Bran could tell, to reign was merely to invite a perpetual round of frustration and aggravation that lasted from the moment one took the crown until it was laid aside. Only a power-crazed thug like his father would solicit such travail. Any way he looked at it, sovreignty exacted a heavy price, which Bran had seen firsthand and which, now that it came to it, he found himself unwilling to pay.
"You will be king," Iwan asserted again. "On my life, you will."
Bran, reluctant to disappoint the injured champion with a facile denial, held his tongue. The three were silent again for a time, watching the flames and listening to the sounds of the wood around them as its various denizens prepared for night. Finally, Bran asked, "What if they will not see us in Lundein?"
"Oh, William the Red will see us, make no mistake." Iwan raised his head and regarded Bran over the fluttering fire. "You are a subject lord come to swear fealty. He will see you and be glad of it. He will welcome you as one king welcomes another."
"I am not the king," Bran pointed out.
"You are heir to the throne," replied the champion. "It is the same thing."
Ffreol said, "When we return to Elfael, we will observe the proper rites and ceremonies. But this will be the first duty of your reign-to place Elfael under the protection of the English throne and-"
"And all of us become boot-licking slaves of the stinking Ffreinc," Bran said, his tone bitter and biting. "What is the stupid bloody point?"
"We keep our land!" Iwan retorted. "We keep our lives."
"If God and King William allow!" sneered Bran.
"Nay, Bran," said Ffreol. "We will pay tribute, yes, and count it a price worth paying to live our lives as we choose."
"Pay tribute to the very brutes that would plunder us if we didn't," growled Bran. "That stinks to high heaven."
"Does it stink worse than death?" asked Iwan. Bran, shamed by the taunt, merely glared.
"It is unjust," granted Ffreol, trying to soothe, "but that is ever the way of things."
"Did you think it would be different?" asked Iwan angrily. "Saints and angels, Bran, it was never going to be easy."
"It could at least be fair," muttered Bran.
"Fair or not, you must do all you can to protect our lands and the lives of our people," Ffreol told him. "To protect those least able to protect themselves. That much, at least, has not changed. That was ever the sole purpose and duty of kingship. Since the beginning of time it has not changed."
Bran accepted this observation without further comment. He stared gloomily into the fire, wishing he had followed his first impulse to leave Elfael and all its troubles as far behind as possible.
After a time, Iwan asked about Lundein. Ffreol had been to the city several times on church business in years past, and he described for Bran and Iwan what they might expect to find when they arrived. As he talked, night deepened around them, and they continued to feed the fire until they grew too tired to keep their eyes open. They then wrapped themselves in their cloaks and fell asleep in the quiet grove.