She sighed. “I didn’t do such a good job of that the first time.”
“That was his fault, not yours.”
“No, it was mine, too. I stayed with him and let him have that power over me because I was too afraid to walk away, too embarrassed by what I’d become.”
“No, that was abuse, and you need to recognize the difference. And you did make a choice to get away. A lot of women never do. You should be proud of yourself for all the positive changes you’ve made in your life since you left him.”
She pulled away and looked at Chelsea. “I am. I’m damn proud of all I’ve done. Which is why I’m also damn scared of chasing down that rabbit hole again. Love scares me, Chelse.”
“Love scares all of us, Emma. It’s probably the scariest thing any of us will ever do. To hand your heart over to someone who could crush it in their hands is the biggest step we’ll ever take. But when you do take that step, you have to know it’s for all the right reasons and for the right guy. The only guy. The one you trust completely, the one you know would never hurt you.”
Emma stared into the wineglass, the red liquid answering none of her questions. “I just don’t know what to do.”
“It’ll come to you. In the meantime, watch your back. And keep your gun close in case that crazy person is lurking around.”
She leaned back against the sofa. “As far as Vaughn is concerned, my eyes are wide open.”
EMMA MIGHT NOT want him in her life anymore, but Luke was still going to watch over her. Between running leads on the drug burglaries, he drove past her clinic and made periodic drive-by checks on her house at night.
Vaughn had made bail, with a court date set up for the next month. Which meant he’d need to stick around, though Luke would bet the bastard was lurking nearby anyway. He asked his fellow cops to keep an eye out for him and to let Luke know if they spotted the guy anywhere near Emma. They promised they would.
Since there’d been no break-ins for the past week, they were all working single shifts again. Which meant Luke could get in some gym time. He hit the basketball court with Will and Carter and a few other guys, some of them cops, some of them friends from school.
He needed the stress release. Too much had been going on lately, and he was wound tight.
“Hey, princess. You gonna hold the ball and daydream all night, or are we going to play some basketball?”
He looked at Carter, then dribbled around him and shot into the basket.
“Asshole,” Carter said with a grin.
“You called me a princess. You’re lucky I didn’t knee you in the balls on my way around you to the basket.”
“You ladies gonna stand around and gossip all night, or are we gonna play ball?”
Carter and Luke turned to Evan, who waited on the other side of the court.
Carter laughed. “Let’s go break a sweat.”
In an hour, Luke was drenched in sweat and more than ready for a water break.
“You’re out of shape, McCormack,” Evan said as he downed a bottle of water. “I can’t believe you missed that layup.”
“I can’t believe you were picking your butt and missed that pass,” Luke shot back. “Maybe you need a haircut. Or are you bucking for the town police calendar, so you’re letting it grow out in hopes some of the ladies will vote you in?”
“It sure can’t be based on his physique,” Deacon, one of the other cops playing, shot back. “He’s got more of a one-pack.”
Evan lifted up his shirt to show off what even Luke had to admit was a mighty impressive eight-pack.
“I’m not the one sucking down all the beer after work, Deacon. You can kiss my ass. And they couldn’t pay me to do that calendar.”
“So maybe it’s a lady you’re doing all those crunches for,” Carter said.
Evan went to the cooler for another water. “I’ve got no comment.”
“So . . . no lady,” Deacon said. “Otherwise he’d be bragging about it. That must mean he’s spending all his time at the gym because he’s only got his right hand for company.”
Evan frowned. “Are we gonna play ball here or what?”
“See?” Deacon said. “It’s the only thing he knows. Playing with his balls.”
Luke let out a snort. Trash-talking was always the best part of playing basketball. Fortunately, they all genuinely liked each other or there would have been bloodletting by the end of the game.
“How’s it going with your girl?” Carter asked him during a break as they swiped sweat from their faces with their towels.
“It’s not.”
“That didn’t last long. Did Emma give you the heave-ho?”
“We’re on a temporary break.”
Carter laughed. “That means she gave you the heave-ho. She find another guy?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Sure you do. You’re just playing the man card. Even guys want to talk about it with other guys. We just like to pretend we can man up and deal.”
Luke gave Carter a look. “You never talked about it. You and Molly.”
There was that look again, that shadow that always crossed Carter’s face whenever Molly’s name was mentioned. “Yeah, well, I wasn’t a man back then, and that’s ancient history. So let’s man up, and after the game we’ll go out for a beer and you can tell me about Emma.”
Luke nodded. When the game was done, they showered and dressed, and Carter met him at No Hope At All, a bar run by Logan’s best friend, Bash, and one of their favorite places to play pool.
“You wanna rack ’em?” Carter asked.
“Definitely.”
They played the first game in virtual silence, shooting the appropriate balls into the appropriate pockets and drinking a few beers. By the second game, Luke knew Carter was going to ask.
“So what happened with you and Emma?”
“She had a problem with an ex-boyfriend who came back in her life.”
“Someone she still liked?”
“No. Someone she had a restraining order on.”
Carter’s brows lifted. “Oh. Bad news. So what happened?”
“I interceded, and I don’t think she cared much for that. She’s got an independent streak, and I think she wanted to handle it herself.”
Beer in hand, pool cue in the other, Carter nodded. “Women are a damn mystery sometimes.”
Luke took his shot, then took a long swallow of beer. “Tell me about it. Anyway, I think the whole ex-coming-back thing just freaked her out, and she asked for some distance. So I’m giving it to her.”
“But you’re still watching over her because of the crazy ex-boyfriend, right?”
“Yeah. He’s out on bail, and I don’t trust that he’ll leave her alone.”
“I hope he does. And I hope that the two of you figure it out.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.” Carter took a swallow. “Not all of us get second chances with people we love. Don’t let her get away if she’s the one you want.”
Luke wasn’t sure if Carter, who usually wasn’t one to get profound, had just told Luke what he needed to hear, or if what Carter had told him was what he’d wished had happened with Molly all those years ago.
Either way, he was right. He wasn’t about to let Emma go. Things between them had been perfect before Vaughn showed up. And he knew she was scared, but just because someone pushed you away didn’t mean you had to go away.
He’d walked away from one relationship. It had been the right thing to do because it was what they both wanted.
Deep down he knew neither he nor Emma wanted their relationship to end. So he was going to make sure it didn’t. He just had to make sure it was on Emma’s terms. Because he wasn’t going to be like Vaughn and make her come around to his way of thinking, or try to overpower her. Emma had to choose him and come to him of her own free will.