Hope

'Splendid,' said Dicky. 'Ouch, that hurts,' he told Jennifer.

'I'm sorry, Mr. Cruyer.'

To me Fiona said, 'Daddy suggests keeping the children with him a little longer.' Perhaps she saw the quizzical look in my face for, in explanation, she added, 'I phoned them this morning. It's their wedding anniversary.'

'We'll talk about it,' I said.

'I've told Daddy to reserve places for them at the school next term, just in case.' She clasped her hands together as if praying that I would not explode. 'If we lose the deposit, so be it.'

For a moment I was speechless. Her father was doing everything he could to keep my children with him, and I wanted them home with us.

Dicky, feeling left out of this conversation, said, 'Has Daphne been in touch, by any chance?'

This question about his wife was addressed to Fiona, who looked at him and said, 'Not since I called and thanked her for that divine dinner party.'

'I just wondered,' said Dicky lamely. With Fiona looking at him and waiting for more, he added, 'Daph's been a bit low lately; and there are no friends like old friends. I told her that.'

'Shall I call her?'

'No,' said Dicky hurriedly. 'She'll be all right. I think she's going through the change of life.'

Fiona grinned. 'You say that every time you have a tiff with her, Dicky.'

'No, I don't,' said Dicky crossly. 'Daphne needs counseling. She's making life damned difficult right now. And with all the work piled up here I don't need any distractions. '

'No,' said Fiona, backing down and becoming the loyal assistant. Now that Dicky had maneuvered himself into being the European Controller, while still holding on to the German Desk, no one in the Department was safe from his whims and fancies.

Dicky said, 'Work is the best medicine. I've always been a workaholic; it's too late to change now.'

Fiona nodded and I looked out of the window. There was really no way to respond to this amazing claim by the Rip Van Winkle of London Central, and if I'd caught her eye we might both have rolled around on the floor with merriment.

*

We stayed at home that evening, eating dinner I'd fetched from a Chinese take-away. F'ulham was too far to go for shriveled duck and plastic pancakes but Fiona had read about it in a magazine at the hairdresser's. That restaurant critic must have led the dullest of lives to have found the black bean spareribs 'memorable.' The bill might have proved even more memorable for him, had restaurant critics been given bills.

'You don't like it?' Fiona said.

'I'm full.'

'You've eaten hardly anything.'

'I'm thinking about my trip to Zurich.'

'It won't be so bad.'

'With Dicky?'

'Dicky depends upon you, he really does,' she said, her feminine reasoning making her think that this dependence would encourage me to overlook his faults for the sake of the Department.

'No more rice, no more fish and no more pancakes,' I said as she pushed the serving plates towards me. 'And certainly no more spareribs.'

Fiona switched on the TV to catch the evening news. There was a discussion between four people best known for their availability to appear on TV discussion programs. A college professor was holding forth on the latest news from Poland. '. . . Historically the Poles lack a consciousness of their own position in the European dimension. For hundreds of years they have acted out a totemic role that they lack the capacity to sustain. Now I think the Poles are about to get a rude awakening.' The professor touched his beard reflectively. 'They have pushed and provoked the Soviet Union . . . The Warsaw Pact autumn exercises are taking place along the border. Any time now the Russian tanks will roll across it.'

'Literally?' asked the TV anchor man.

'It is time the West acted,' said a woman with a Polish Solidarity badge pinned to her Chanel suit.

'Yes, literally,' said the professor with that determined solemnity with which those past military age discuss war. 'The Soviets will use it as a way of cautioning the hotheads in the Baltic States. We must make it absolutely clear to Chairman Gorbachev that any action, I do mean any action, he takes against the Poles will not be permitted to provoke a major East-West conflict.'

'Who will rid me of these troublesome Poles? Is that how the Americans see it?' the Solidarity woman asked bitterly. 'Best abandon the Poles to their fate?'

'When?' said the TV anchor man. Already the camera was tracking back to show that the program was ending. A gigantic Polish eagle of polystyrene on a red and white flag formed the backdrop to the studio.

'When the winter hardens the ground enough for their modem heavy armor to go in,' answered the professor, who clearly knew that a note of terror heard on the box in the evening was a newspaper headline by morning. 'They'll crush the Poles in forty-eight hours. The Russian army has one or two special Spetsnaz brigades that have been trained to suppress unruly satellites. One of them, stationed at Maryinagorko in the Byelorussian Military District, was put on alert two days ago. Yes, Polish blood will flow. But quite frankly, if a few thousand Polish casualties are the price we pay to avoid World War Three, we must thank our lucky stars and pay up.'

Loud stirring music increased in volume to eventually drown his voice and, while the panel sat in silhouette, a roller provided details of about one hundred and fifty people who had worked on this thirty-minute unscripted discussion programme.

The end roller was still going when the phone rang. It was my son Billy calling from my father-in-law's home where he was staying. 'Dad? Is that you, Dad? Did Mum tell you about the weekend?'

'What about the weekend?' I saw Fiona frowning as she watched me.

'It's going to be super. Grandad is taking us to France,' said Billy, almost bursting with excitement. 'To France! Just for one night. A private plane to Dinard. Can we go, Dad? Say yes, Dad. Please.'

'Of course you can, Billy. Is Sally keen to go?'

'Of course she is,' said Billy, as if the question was absurd. 'We are going to stay in a château.'

'I'll see you the following weekend then,' I said as cheerfully as I could manage. 'And you can tell me all about it.'

'Grandad's bought a video camera. He's going to take pictures of us. You'll be able to see us. On the TV!'

'That's wonderful,' I said.

'He's already taken videos of his best horses. Of course I'd rather be with you, Dad,' said Billy, desperately trying to mend his fences. Perhaps he heard the disappointment.

'All the world's a video,' I improvised. 'And all the men and women merely directors. They have their zooms and their parts, and one man in his time plays back the results too many times. Is Sally there?'

'That's a good joke,' said Billy with measured reserve. 'Sally's in bed. Grandad is letting me stay up to see the TV news.' Fiona had quietened our TV, but over the phone from Grandad's I could hear the orchestrated fanfares and drumrolls that introduce the TV news bulletins; a presentational style that Dr. Goebbels created for the Nazis. I visualized Grandad fingering the volume control and urging our conversation to a close.

'Sleep well, Billy. Give my love to Say. And to Grandad and Grandma-' I held up the phone, offering it, but Fiona shook her head. 'And love from Mummy too,' I said. Then I hung up.

'It's not my doing,' said Fiona defensively.

'Who said it was?'

'I can see it on your face.'

'Why can't your father ask me?'

'It will be lovely for them,' said Fiona- 'And anyway you couldn't have gone on Sunday.'

'I could have gone on Saturday.' The silent TV pictures changed rapidly as the news flashed quickly from one calamity to another.