“Captain Hornblower will need a postchaise.”
“Aye aye, sir.”
“Have it at the gate immediately.”
“Aye aye, sir.”
“Have a travel warrant made out for London.”
“Aye aye, sir.”
Foster turned his attention once more to Hornblower and smiled sardonically at the bewilderment and surprise he saw in his face. For once Hornblower had been caught off his guard and had allowed his emotions to show.
“Seventeen guineas that will cost King George, God bless him,” said Foster. “Aren’t you grateful for his bounty?”
Hornblower had regained control over himself; he was even able to conceal his irritation at his lapse.
“Of course, sir,” he said, in almost an even tone and with an expressionless face.
“Every day — ten times a day sometimes,” said Foster, “I have officers coming in here, even admirals sometimes, trying to get travel warrants to London. The excuses I’ve heard! And here you don’t care.”
“Of course I’m delighted, sir,” said Hornblower. “And greatly obliged, too.”
Maria would be waiting at the gate, but he was too proud to show any further weakness under Foster’s sardonic gaze. A King’s officer had his duty to do. And it was less than three months since he had last seen Maria; some officers had been parted from their wives since the outbreak of war more than two years ago.
“No need to be obliged to me,” said Foster. “This is what decided me.”
’This’ was of course the dispatch which he tapped again.
“Yes, sir.”
“Their Lordships should think it’s worth seventeen guineas. I’m not doing it for your sweet sake.”
“Naturally, sir.”
“Oh yes. And I’d better give you a note to Marsden. It will get you past the doorkeeper.”
“Thank you, sir.”
Those last two speeches — Hornblower digested them while Foster scribbled away at the letter — were hardly tactful when considered in relation to each other. They implied a certain lack of charm. Marsden was the Secretary to the Lords of the Admiralty, and the suggestion that Hornblower needed a note to gain admittance was an unexpressed but disparaging comment on his appearance.
“Chaise will be at the gates, sir,” announced the flag-lieutenant.
“Very well.” Foster sanded his letter and poured the sand back into the caster, folded the letter and addressed it, sanded it once more, and once more returned the sand. “Seal that, if you please.”
As the flaglieutenant busied himself with candle and wax and seal Foster folded his hands and looked over again at Hornblower.
“You’re going to be pestered for news at every relay,” he said. “The country can’t think about anything except ‘What’s Nelson doing?’ and ‘Has Boney crossed yet?’. They’ll discuss Villainnoove and Calder the way they used to discuss Tom Cribb and Jem Belcher.”
“Indeed, sir? I fear I know nothing about any of them.”
Tom Cribb and Jem Belcher were disputing the heavyweight championship of England at this period.
“Just as well.”
“Ready, sir,” said the flaglieutenant, handing the sealed letter to Hornblower, who held it for an embarrassed second before putting it in his pocket — it seemed rather cavalier treatment for a dispatch to the Secretary of the Admiralty.
“Goodbye captain,” said Foster, “and a pleasant journey.”
“I’ve had your baggage put in the chaise, sir,” said the flaglieutenant on the way to the gate.
“Thank you,” said Hornblower.
Outside the gate there was the usual small crowd of labourers waiting to be hired, of anxious wives, and of mere sightseers. Their attention was at this moment taken up by the postchaise which stood waiting with the postilion at the horses’ heads.
“Well, goodbye, sir, and a pleasant journey,” said the flaglieutenant, handing over the blanketbundle.
From outside the gate came a wellremembered voice.
“Horry! Horry!”
Maria in bonnet and shawl stood there by the wicket gate, with little Horatio in her arms.
“That’s my wife and my child,” said Hornblower abruptly. “Goodbye, sir.”
He strode out through the gate and found himself clasping Maria and the child in the same embrace.
“Horry, darling. My precious,” said Maria. “You’re back again. Here’s your son — look how he’s growing up. He runs about all day long. There, smile at your daddy, poppet.”
Little Horatio did indeed smile, for a fleeting instant, before hiding his face in Maria’s bosom.
“He looks well indeed,” said Hornblower. “And how about you, my dear?”
He stood back to look her over. There was no visible sign at present of her pregnancy, except perhaps in the expression in her face.
“To see you is to give me new life, my loved one,” said Maria.
It was painful to realize that what she said was so close to the truth. And it was horribly painful to know that he had next to tell her that he was leaving her in this very moment of meeting.
Already, and inevitably, Maria had put out her right hand to twitch at his coat, while holding little Horatio in her left arm.
“Your clothes look poorly, Horry darling,” she said. “How crumpled this coat is. I’d like to get at it with an iron.”
“My dear—” said Hornblower.
This was the moment to break the news, but Maria anticipated him.
“I know,” she said, quickly. “I saw your chest and bag being put into the chaise. You’re going away.”
“I fear so.”
“To London?”
“Yes.”
“Not one little moment with me — with us?”
“I fear not, my dear.”
Maria was being very brave. She held her head back and looked straight at him unflinchingly; there was jus the tiniest quiver of her lips to indicate the stresses within.
“And after that, darling?” asked Maria; when she spoke her tone gave a further hint of those stresses.
“I hope to get a ship. I shall be a captain, remember dear.”
“Yes.” Just the one word, of heartbroken acquiescence.
Perhaps it was fortunate then that Maria noticed something that distracted her, but Hornblower was inclined to believe that Maria deliberately and bravely distracted herself. She lifted her hand to his cheek, to his jawbone, below his left ear.
“What’s this?” she asked. “It looks like paint. Black paint. You haven’t looked after yourself very well, dear.”
“Very likely it’s paint,” agreed Hornblower.
He had repressed the almost automatic reaction to draw back from a public caress, before he realized what it was that Maria had observed. Now there was a flood of recollection. The night before last he had stormed on to the deck of the Guèpe with a gang of yelling madmen with blackened faces. He had heard a cutlass blade crunch on bone, he had heard screams for mercy, he had seen nine pounds of canister fired down into a crowded ‘tweendecks. Only the night before last, and here was Maria, simple and innocent and ignorant, and his child, and the staring onlookers, in the English sunshine. It was only a step out of one world into another, but it was a step infinitely long, over a bottomless chasm.
“Horry, darling?” said Maria, inquiringly, and broke the spell.
She was looking at him anxiously, studying him and frightened by what she saw; he felt he must have been scowling, even snarling, as his expression revealed the emotions he was reexperiencing. It was time to smile.
“It wasn’t easy to clean up in Princess,” he said. It had been hard to apply turpentine to his face before a mirror in the leaping waterhoy with the wind on the quarter.
“You must do it as soon as ever you can,” said Maria. She was scrubbing at his jaw with her handkerchief. “It won’t come off for me.”