BY THE TIME WE return from Walmart, with chocolate chips, spatulas, peanut butter, candles, and socks, there’s an email from Natalie with an attachment: a photo of Jason.
I stretch my bad leg out on my bed, battered white MacBook propped on a pillow on my lap, and open the attachment.
He’s a kid. Younger than me. Longish brown hair. Full cheeks and a backpacker beard. Pretty brown eyes, almost toffee-colored, with flecks of gold in them. A soulful expression, like the dude should be playing an acoustic guitar at some college open mic night or maybe pulling espressos at the local coffee joint.
“What do you feel like for dinner, hon?” my mom asks. “Maybe tacos?” She holds up an avocado. “Look what I found at the Carrefour!”
“Sure. Sounds good.”
I go back to my laptop. I have the usual pileup of email in my inbox to deal with.
There’s a knock at the front door.
My mom glances over her shoulder and pads off to answer.
The water guy, maybe? Though he usually comes in the early afternoon. The security door to the building is always propped open till later in the evening, so it could be anybody.
I hear a man, his words too faint to make out. And then my mom.
“Ellie,” she says, a flat note to her voice. “There’s two policemen here to see you.”
CHAPTER TWO
I TELL MYSELF NOT to panic.
I’m better about stuff than I was. My heart’s pounding, but it’s not so bad that I feel like I’m going to throw up. They could be here for all kinds of reasons. Checking to make sure I registered my mom at the local Public Security Bureau, maybe.
I stand up, wincing as my foot hits the floor, and hobble into the living room.
The two men stand in the doorway.
“I said they couldn’t come in till you checked their IDs,” my mom hisses. “Since I can’t tell what they say. I don’t think they speak very much English anyway.”
The two men are wearing dark blue uniforms with silver buttons, silver wings on their epaulets, and winged bars on their chests. One has his overcoat slung over his arm-the younger of the two men, tall and slender. The other is middle-aged and stocky, with a pockmarked face. He stands behind the first one, looking bored.
“Ellie McEnroe?” the younger one says, only the way he says it sounds more like “Mack-in-arr.”
“Yeah?”
“Can you come with us, please?”
“Why?”
“Just for a talk. To have some tea.”
I can see the patch on his shoulder. “Guo Nei Anquan Bao…” something something. My written Chinese sucks. But I’m pretty sure I know where these guys are from.
“We can talk here,” I say. “I have all kinds of tea. Your choice.”
He hesitates. Glances over his shoulder at his companion, who half raises an eyebrow and makes a tiny smirk. “I don’t think,” the younger one says, “this is convenient place. Because my English is not very good. So much better if we go talk with my… my laoban? My boss? So we can understand each other. Just a short talk.”
I think about refusing.
When they ask you to “drink tea,” it’s not exactly official. It’s not exactly optional either. It’s a way to try to gather information, to intimidate you. But you’re not getting arrested.
Yet.
Not that they’d arrest me. I’m not Chinese. They’ll just kick me out of the country, if it comes to that.
But I’d rather it didn’t come to that.
I shrug. “Okay. I need to use the bathroom first.”
Now they step inside. “No time for that,” the younger one says. The older one flanks him.
For a moment I think they’re actually going to drag me out of here. My heart’s pounding so hard I’m starting to shake. I hope they can’t see it.
I’m tired of being scared.
“Really?” I say in Chinese. “You want me to liberate myself in your car?”
At that the older one lifts both his eyebrows and makes a little snort.
I grab my canvas bag off the coffee table. Young cop starts to object. Old cop just shakes his head.
Yeah, I’m going to make a phone call, assholes. What do you expect?
Mom follows me toward the bathroom. “You’re not going with them!” she says. “Are you? We should call the American embassy.”
“It’s just for a talk. Not a big deal.”
“Who are they?”
“Domestic Security Department. They’re like the… the… kind of like the FBI.”
They’re in charge of tracking “subversives,” such as democracy activists, environmental crusaders, underground church members, pissed-off petitioners, miscellaneous malcontents-basically anyone with a point of view that isn’t in line with the “harmonious society.” They have plainclothes spies, a vast network of informants, I don’t know how many millions of them.
Not that my mom needs to know this level of detail.
“But why are they here? Why do they want to talk to you?”
“I don’t know,” I say, though I have a pretty good idea. “It’s probably just… some of the people I know, some of the artists. They do stuff that’s kind of controversial sometimes.”
I go into the bathroom, shut the door, and turn on the water in the sink. Get out my iPhone and touch a number.
It rings a few times and goes to voice mail.
Fuck.
“Hey,” I say, in English, “I’m going for tea with the National Treasures. Thought you should know.”
I hit the red DISCONNECT button. And then I pee. Because I actually need to go.
When I exit the bathroom, my mom is facing the two cops, hands on her hips, like she’s daring them to take a step closer.
I gather up my coat and a hat. “Remember that number I gave you?” I say. “The one I put on your cell?”
She nods.
“If you don’t hear from me in a couple of hours, call it and explain what’s going on. And if there’s no answer…”
I think about it.
“Yeah, call the embassy.”
WE RIDE IN A squad car, heading southwest.
The older cop drives. The younger one sits next to me in the back and tries to make polite conversation. I wish he’d shut up. I need to think. To get my story straight, plan what I’m going to say, what’s safe to admit and what isn’t.
“Your Chinese is really good,” he says. “Really standard.”
“Thanks.”
“Where did you learn it?”
“Here.”
“How long have you been in China?”
“Three years.”
He shakes his head. “We learn English in school. I study a long time. But I don’t speak it very well.”
“Helps to be in the country,” I say.
He sighs. “Yes. But I think I won’t have that opportunity. Very difficult in my position.” He hesitates. “I like American movies and TV shows very much,” he says in English. “To practice English. I watch… 24. The Sopranos. Sons of…” His brow wrinkles. “Ah-nah-key. I am not sure, how to say. They are bad men. Criminals. They drive those… those…”
“Motorcycles,” I supply.
“Yes!” He mimes twisting the handles. “Very dangerous!” His eyes light up, and he grins.
I keep thinking we’re going to stop. We pass the local police station. Then monumental government buildings with the state seal attached to the concrete like a giant badge stuck on awkwardly with a pin.
But we don’t stop. We keep driving. West, then south.
After a while I have no fucking clue where we’re going. The traffic’s so bad that the cop takes sides streets, nothing I recognize.
Besides, no one goes to South Beijing unless they’re going to the new train station. This far south? I don’t even know what’s here.
The farther we go, the more it looks like we’re not in Beijing anymore, like we’ve suddenly been transported to a podunk third-tier city in some interior province.