“That part is true.” He sighs, as if being in my presence is painful. It makes me want to cry, because seeing him makes me want him more than ever. “C’mon, let’s go to the swing.”
“Okay . . .”
We walk next to each other, close enough that I want to reach out and grab his hand. Many of my daydreams have looked a lot like today, him and me and the late summer sun peeking through the trees.
He leans on the trunk of the oak tree and gestures for me to take the swing. It’s hard to sit there, the place where we first kissed, but I do.
Winn takes a deep breath before he starts. “My great-great-grandmother Cordelia did run, and she even found Fanny and told her the truth about what the Blacks were doing. She and Phillip didn’t want any part of it—they were so in love that Phil wouldn’t even take Cordelia’s magic. Your aunt Fanny, she was more concerned about protecting them than herself. She was worried they’d be punished for divulging Black secrets.”
“So she stayed here with them and put up all those spells?” I ask.
He nods. “A lot more than that. Fanny, well, she became obsessed with trying to stop the Blacks. She kept it very secret, because she knew they’d all be dead if word got out. Once she created a spell she thought would work, Cordelia and Phil became the test subjects.”
All I can do is nod because I’m too riveted by his words to speak.
Winn looks away, shame flooding his features. “It worked. Fanny was able to seal Cordelia’s and Phil’s magic. It’s still sealed. I can’t use it, but all of us Carters can feel it a little. It worked out great for Phil and Cordelia because they were pretty much regular humans after that. Except for one thing . . .”
“Fanny died,” I whisper. I put my arms around myself, the truth filling me to the brim. Cutting two people off from magic? Of course she did. How reckless, and yet noble at the same time.
“I’m so sorry, Jo. They never meant for it to happen, but after it did they were helpless. Cordelia was afraid to go to Fanny’s sister, and it seemed like she didn’t even recognize her as a witch. They couldn’t tell others what happened without the Blacks coming for them, and they had nothing to defend themselves with. They were scared—hell, I’m still scared. So it became a secret.”
“Why are you scared?” I ask, the information still sinking in.
“Because you deserve to seek vengeance. In Cordelia’s history it says killing a witch is unforgivable. She always felt horrible for what happened and said we should never forget the price that was paid for us to be free.”
He crouches down and puts his head to his knees. “I don’t have to be what Levi is because Fanny died, Jo. At first I thought I could tell you—was even excited to tell you—but then I saw the fear in your eyes when you came into the house. It scared me, and then I didn’t want to tell you and lose you. But you found out anyway.”
“You’re such an idiot.” I gulp back tears. Stupid, stupid boy.
He looks up at me. “What?”
I stand, furious. “You should have told me! I thought you were a Shadow—I thought you were the bad guy. You made me break up with you over something that doesn’t even matter!”
“It doesn’t?” Finally, I see hope in his eyes, and it fills me with courage.
“No! I’m glad Fanny sealed your powers. I’m sorry she died, but she gave me a huge gift because now I can have you.” I shrink back, my face suddenly warm. “I mean, if you still want me.”
He’s already on his way over, and I gasp when he grabs me. His lips meet mine, hot and urgent and so happy I can feel them stretch into a smile between kisses. We fall into the grass, his weight on me the most exhilarating sensation in the world. He pulls back enough for us to look at each other.
“I can’t believe that’s even a question.” He pushes a strand of hair behind my ear. “Of course I want to be with you. I thought you didn’t want to be with me.”
“Ridiculous.” I laugh and kiss him about a thousand more times.
We lie there, hand in hand, watching the stars come out one by one. And with them, the fireflies, just as alive and twinkling. I put my hand to Mom’s pendant and pick a particularly bright star. With all my heart, I promise to live my life like she did, treasuring every perfect moment.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I owe so much of this story to the legacy of my grandmother and the example of my mother, who taught me how to pick myself up after grief tore through our family. Mom, thank you for your unfailing love, your quiet strength, and your endless understanding. We may have lost grandma too early, but I see her in you everyday.
I wouldn’t have been able to write about friendship without having friends I’d give everything for. To Kiersten White and Kasie West, thank you for being my Kat and Gwen. (In writing this, I totally just realized how apt that comparison actually is. Dude.) To Michelle Argyle, Renee Collins, Jenn Johansson, Sara Raasch, Shannon Messenger, Sara Larson, Stephanie Perkins, and Candice Kennington, thank you for always listening and laughing and sharing a piece of your lives with me.
My family is everything to me and my husband most of all. Nick, thank you for supporting me through thick and thin, for your undying patience, and for making me laugh at the most random times. To my Benji, Kora, and Gil, thank you for being such good kids and letting me squeak in writing-time.
I’ve been so lucky to have the amazing Curtis Brown agency looking after me all these years, and I particularly have to thank Anna Webman for selling House of Ivy & Sorrow and Ginger Clark for being the amazing agent she is. I have never felt so well taken care of. I’m the luckiest writer ever!
Speaking of incredible luck, I also have the best editor alive—Erica Sussman. Thank you so much, Erica, for falling in love with Jo and her story as much as I did while writing it. Thank you for helping me find the missing pieces I’d tried so long to discover, and for helping me take this book to the next level. It’s everything I ever wanted it to be. And thank you to Tyler Infinger, too, whose happy faces and giddy comments always make me smile just as much as Erica’s.
And finally, a big thanks to all the people at HarperTeen who have helped turn my story into a real live novel. I never stop being grateful that you have let me live my dream.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
NATALIE WHIPPLE loves testing new concoctions in the kitchen, and sometimes pretends she’s actually mixing potions instead. Her food has yet to curse anyone, which she supposes is a good thing. Along with cooking, Natalie loves anime, kdrama, drawing, and exercising (so she can eat more food). She lives in Utah with her three kids and husband. Visit Natalie online at www.nataliewhipple.com.
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