But in fact I was given no choice: when I unlocked the wardrobe only a single suit was hanging from the rod, wrapped in a cloth cover and sprinkled with naphthalene — the black one which I wore for funerals and, not without superstitious prejudice, avoided for all other ceremonial occasions. I had no time to imagine what Katarina had done with the sixteen others; perhaps she had sent them out to be cleaned. I put on the thin summer trousers, the black vest, and the black jacket with the buttons covered in dark silk. I could, it is true, have worn one of the only two which I used with my house jacket and kept in the wardrobe with the registers, but they were too ordinary for this occasion. And I could hardly hold it against Katarina that she had left me without a suit; she didn’t know I was going out, and those two were quite enough to wear in the house. Moreover, she took good care of the older, abandoned ones: in spring and autumn she aired them at the window, brushed them, and sprinkled them with snowy naphthalene powder, then put them back in the wardrobe with a certain veneration, almost as if she were putting them in a tomb. And now she had sent them to the cleaners. My good Katarina! Even though her meticulousness condemned me to go to Simonida in a suit which boded evil, I was thankful to her for that unspoken certitude that one day I would go out of the house again.
From the drawer I took a white poplin shirt with mauve stripes, and a hard shiny rubber collar and cuffs. Then I expertly knotted an ash-gray silk tie and attached it to my shirt with a gold pin, its head dark as night with a precious alexandrite diamond. From Katarina’s jewel case I took a pair of hollow gold cuff links like filigree tennis balls. Several more of my valuables were scattered about the box, but there were none of Katarina’s jewels. Suddenly I was seized with a terrible premonition. Ignoring it, I hoped that for greater safety she had transferred the jewels to the wall safe under the icon of Saint George. But they were not there either. Nor could I find them in her desk. I had nothing more to hope for; quite clearly Katarina had deposited her jewelry in the bank. Despite my resentment toward banks and their thieving activities — and she must have known of my attitude from my open feuds with all the eminent bankers of the kingdom — she had probably, from an irrational female fear of loss, entrusted her jewels, our jewels, our valuable possessions, the possessions of Arsénie Negovan, to people to whom I wouldn’t even have entrusted my excrement! So that’s it, I thought angrily: we’ll have something to talk about when she comes back from town.
I retained the linen I was wearing, but put on black socks, then my pointed black Bally shoes. In order to hide the seams, which were slightly cracked from standing long unused, I pulled on gray spats with a thin, darker edging. To all this I added two handkerchiefs hemmed with lace, arranging the smaller one in my coat pocket; light-blue gloves flecked with green; a light cane with a handle in the form of a silver greyhound’s muzzle; and after short reflection, a Panama hat whose wide Boer brim gave me a bohemian appearance, and which with its air of holiday relaxation compensated for the gloomy significance of my suit.
Bearing in mind an old man’s infirmity and my lack of practice in those slow actions which make up the art of dressing — the tie had to be tied in a pleated knot and pinned to the shirt front as a butterfly is pinned to a cardboard base; the buttons had to be pulled through the holes in the cuffs, which were stiffened from lack of use; the laces had to be threaded into the shoes, and the spats tugged on — and bearing in mind also my fear of being discovered, I, in fact, dressed myself quite quickly and neatly. However, I hadn’t once turned around to look in the mirror, being quite determined to view myself only when everything was in place. So at last I gathered up gloves, stick, and hat and went up to its crookedly hung, framed surface, marred by smoky streaks, to see how I looked in the suit which I had almost certainly worn last at the funeral of Constantine Negovan.
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Of my eight fellow pallbearers, opposite me is Jacob Negovan, son and heir of the deceased. Behind us, barely keeping his dignity under the weight of the hexagonal oak coffin, wriggles Timon, representing the dead man’s absent brother Kleont, and the contractor’s first-born son, Daniel Negovan. The massive rear of the coffin is being hustled along by two of Constantine’s construction foremen with such unstoppable force that the nailed-down coffin sways as we charge down the steps of the chapel, and threatens to run away with the honorary pallbearers and descend like an avalanche on the hired musicians listlessly playing the Funeral March, and on the silent company gathered around the black and silver coach, to which are harnessed four black horses with the feathered mourning plumes fixed to their leather halters.
I can hear Timon, with the sharp-pointed ornament on the coffin lid painfully scraping his chin, telling the over-zealous bricklayers to slow down: “You’re not carrying a load of bricks on a building site, damn it!” The pressure from behind slackens off. Once again we’re carrying the coffin more slowly, though with every step we still stagger along the black carpet like an eight-masted boat pushed over a black wave by a wind from the stern.
I have no feeling for anything else but the dangerously increasing weight of the coffin; I am conscious of nothing save the orientally ornate chains, glistening in the damp October mist. From the sides of the coffin hang eight bronze handles entwined with thick gilt branches which only make it more difficult to carry the coffin, since my fist is too small to get a firm grip on them. Level with the lid, which is the color of burnt coffee, spread silver roots and palm fronds in riverlike profusion, recalling for Constantine, the architect, our Moskopolje origin; between them, gleaming islands of three-limbed, rhomboid-shaped bronze plaques alternate with silver arabesques, rolls, medallions, and gilt haloes from which the metal faces of angels shine as from a darkened window right up to the clasps, from which clustered silver lace falls motionlessly, caught up in places in loops of bulging yellow grain the size of ripe peas. I cannot see the legs, rolled in the form of scrolls, but one of them, the one beneath my handle, bangs against my bent knee at every step.
We move to one side, turning on the spot like a team of horses stuck in the mud, and place the coffin on the low catafalque, facing the gaping glass innards of the hearse. Then those on the left, headed by Jacob, come around to our side, and we line up along the right edge of the coffin so as to be able to take up the handles again immediately after the funeral oration, and lift the coffin into the coach. With my handkerchief I wipe away the sweat mixed with rain; the rain is no longer falling but is stationary in the murky air, lying on it like a veil of leaden drops. The musicians in their mournful capes press their instruments to their black chests: deadened movements of gold, from which here and there flutter damp, crumpled note sheets hung on wire hooks. In the darkened depths of the chapel somebody’s hand — probably Katarina’s — adjusts the folded-back draperies which cover the empty bier. The greasy dark yellow, brown, and mud-colored candles, cut by the funeral attendants’ scissors, smoke and hiss and choke in their wax.