The memory of gaping jeans flicks at him, the painful end part the grinning faces waiting for him when he stumbled out. The howls, the dribble down his leg. Being cool, pretending to laugh too. You shit heads, I'll show you. 1 am not a girl.
Bud's voice rings out, chanting "And a hap-pee New Year to you all down there!" Parody of the oily NASA tone. "Hey, why don't we shoot'em a signal? Greetings to all you Earthlings, I mean, all you little Lunies. Hap-py New Year in the good year whatsis." He snuffles comically. "There is a Santy Claus, Houston, ye-ew nevah saw nothin' like this! Houston, wherever you are," he sings out. "Hey, Houston! Do you read?"
In the silence Lorimer sees Dave's face set into Major Norman Davis, commanding.
And without warning he is suddenly back there, back a year ago in the cramped, shook-up command module of Sunbird, coming out from behind the sun. It's the drug doing this, he thinks as memory closes around him, it's so real. Stop. He tries to hang onto reality, to the sense of trouble building underneath.
– But he can't, he is there, hovering behind Dave and Bud in the triple couches, as usual avoiding his official station in the middle, seeing beside them their reflections against blackness in the useless port window. The outer layer has been annealed, he can just make out a bright smear that has to be Spica floating through the image of Dave's head, making the bandage look like a kid's crown.
"Houston, Houston, Sunbird," Dave repeats; "Sunbird calling Houston. Houston, do you read? Come in, Houston."
The minutes start by. They are giving it seven out, seven back; seventy-eight million miles, ample margin.
"The high gain's shot, that's what it is," Bud says cheerfully. He says it almost every day.
"No way." Dave's voice is patient, also as usual. "It checks out. Still too much crap from the sun, isn't that right, Doc?"
"The residual radiation from the flare is just about in line with us," Lorimer says. "They could have a hard time sorting us out." For the thousandth time he registers his own faint, ridiculous gratification at being consulted.
"Shit, we're outside Mercury." Bud shakes his head. "How we gonna find out who won the Series?"
He often says that too. A ritual, out here in eternal night. Lorimer watches the sparkle of Spica drift by the reflection of Bud's curly face-bush. His own whiskers are scant and scraggly, like a blond Fu Manchu. In the aft corner of the window is a striped glare that must be the remains of their port energy accumulators, fried off in the solar explosion that hit them a month ago and fused the outer layers of their windows. That was when Dave cut his head open on the sexlogic panel. Lorimer had been banged in among the gravity wave experiment, he still doesn't trust the readings. Luckily the particle stream has missed one piece of the front window; they still have about twenty degrees of clear vision straight ahead. The brilliant web of the Pleiades shows there, running off into a blur of light.
Twelve minutes… thirteen. The speaker sighs and clicks emptily. Fourteen. Nothing.
"Sunbird to Houston, Sunbird to Houston. Come in, Houston. Sunbird out." Dave puts the mike back in its holder. "Give it another twenty-four."
They wait ritually. Tomorrow Packard will reply Maybe.
"Be good to see old Earth again," Bud remarks.
"We're not using any more fuel on attitude," Dave reminds him. "I trust Doc's figures."
It's not my figures, it's the elementary facts of celestial mechanics, Lorimer thinks; in October there's only one place for Earth to be. He never says it. Not to a man who can fly two-body solutions by intuition once he knows where the bodies are. Bud is a good pilot and a better engineer; Dave is the best there is. He takes no pride in it. "The Lord helps us, Doc, if we let Him."
"Going to be a bitch docking if the radar's screwed up," Bud says idly. They all think about that for the hundredth time. It will be a bitch. Dave will do it. That was why he is hoarding fuel.
The minutes tick off.
"That's it," Dave says-and a voice fills the cabin, shockingly.
"Judy?" It is high and clear. A girl's voice. "Judy, I'm so glad we got you. What are you doing on this band?"
Bud blows out his breath; there is a frozen instant before Dave snatches up the mike.
"Sunbird, we read you. This is Mission Sunbird calling Houston, ah, Sunbird One calling Houston Ground Control. Identify, who are you? Can you relay our signal? Over."
"Some skip," Bud says. "Some incredible ham."
"Are you in trouble, Judy?" the girl's voice asks. "I can't hear, you sound terrible. Wait a minute."
"This is United States Space Mission Sunbird One," Dave repeats. "Mission Sunbird calling Houston Space Center. You are dee-exxing our channel. Identify, repeat identify yourself and say if you can relay to Houston. Over."
"Dinko, Judy, try it again," the girl says.
Lorimer abruptly pushes himself up to the Lurp, the Long-Range Particle Density Cumulator experiment, and activates its shaft motor. The shaft whines, jars; lucky it was retracted during the flare, lucky it hasn't fused shut. He sets the probe pulse on mar and begins a rough manual scan.
"You are intercepting official traffic from the United States space mission to Houston Control," Dave is saying forcefully. "If you cannot relay to Houston get off the air, you are committing a federal offense. Say again, can you relay our signal to Houston Space Center? Over."
"You still sound terrible," the girl says. "What's Houston? Who's talking, anyway? You know we don't have much time." Her voice is sweet but very nasal.
"Jesus, that's close," Bud says. "That is close."
"Hold it." Dave twists around to Lorimer's improvised radarscope.
"There." Lorimer points out a tiny stable peak at the extreme edge of the read-out slot, in the transcoronal scatter. Bud cranes too.
"A bogey!"
"Somebody else out here."
"Hello, hello? We have you now," the girl says.
"Why are you so far out? Are you dinko, did you catch the flare?"
"Hold it," warns Dave. "What's the status, Doc?"
"Over three hundred thousand kilometers, guesstimated. Possibly headed away from us, going around the sun. Could be cosmonauts, a Soviet mission?"
"Out to beat us. They missed."
"With a girl?" Bud objects.
"They've done that. You taping this, Bud?"
"Roger-r-r." He grins. "That sure didn't sound like a Russky chic. Who the hell's Judy?"
Dave thinks for a second, clicks on the mike. "This is Major Norman Davis commanding Unhed States spacecraft Sunbird One. We have you on scope. Request you identify yourself. Repeat, who are you? Over."
"Judy, stop joking," the voice complains. "We'll lose you in a minute, don't you realize we worried about you?"
"Sunbird to unidentified craft. This is not Judy. I say again, this is not Judy. Who are you? Over."
"What--' the girl says, and is cut off by someone else saying, "Wait a minute, Ann." The speaker squeals. Then a different woman says, "This is Loma Bethune in Escondita. What is going on here?"
"This is Major Davis commanding United States Mission Sunbird on course for Earth. We do not recognize any spacecraft Escondita. Will you identify yourself? Over."
"I just did." She sounds older, with the same nasal drawl. "There is no spaceship Sunbird and you're not on course for Earth. If this is an andy joke it isn't any good."