Dusk began to fall again and the weather worsened, so the searchers were forced to retreat to the inhabited area. By then reinforcements had arrived from Egilsstadir. A headquarters was set up in Eskifjördur. At dawn next day a large number of people set out to comb both the moor and the Thverárdalur valley, and the slopes of the mountains Andri and Hardskafi. They tried to work out the boy’s movements after he had become separated from his brother. When the search in that area proved unsuccessful, it was extended both to the north and south but the boy was not found. So the day passed until evening fell.
The organised search lasted for more than a week but, to cut a long story short, the boy was never found. There were a great many conjectures about his fate because it was as if the earth had simply swallowed him up. Some thought he had drowned in the Eskifjördur River and been carried down to the sea, others that he had been driven by the weather higher up into the mountains than anyone had envisaged. Others still thought he must have been lost in the bogs above the head of Eskifjördur fjord as he was making his way home.
Sveinn Erlendsson’s grief at the fate of his sons was said to be terrible to behold. Later the rumour arose in the neighbourhood that his wife Áslaug had warned her husband against taking both boys with him on to the moor that day but that he had ignored her warning.
The elder brother recovered from his frostbite but was said to have been left gloomy and withdrawn by his ordeal. He was reputed to have continued searching for his brother’s remains for as long as the family lived at Bakkasel.
Two years after these events, the family left the district and moved to Reykjavík and Bakkasel was left derelict, as we have said.
Erlendur closed the book and ran his hand over the worn cover. Eva Lind sat silently facing him on the sofa. A long moment passed before she reached for the packet of cigarettes on the table.
‘Gloomy and withdrawn?’ she asked.
‘Old Dagbjartur didn’t mince his words,’ Erlendur said. ‘He needn’t have been so blunt. He didn’t know if I was gloomy or withdrawn. He never met me. He was barely acquainted with your grandparents. He learnt his information from members of the search party. People have no business printing gossip and rumour and dressing it up as the truth. He hurt my mother in a way that was quite uncalled-for.’
‘And you as well.’
Erlendur shrugged.
‘It was a long time ago. I haven’t been keen to advertise the existence of this account, probably out of respect for my mother. She wasn’t happy with it.’
‘Was it true? Didn’t she want you to go with your father?’
‘She was against it. But later on she didn’t blame him for what happened. Of course she was grief-stricken and angry but she knew it wasn’t a question of guilt or innocence. It was a question of survival, survival in the battle against nature. The journey had to be made. There was no way of knowing beforehand that it would turn out to be so dangerous.’
‘What happened to your father? Why didn’t he do anything?’
‘I never really understood that. He came down from the moor in a state of shock, convinced that Bergur and I were both dead. It was as if he’d lost the will to live. He himself only survived by the skin of his teeth after we were separated, and when it grew dark and night fell and the storm intensified your grandmother said it was as if he simply gave up. He sat on the edge of his bed in his room and took no further interest in what was going on. Admittedly he was exhausted and suffering from frostbite. When he heard I’d been rescued he revived a little. I crept into his room and he took me in his arms.’
‘He must have been glad.’
‘He was, of course, but I… I felt oddly guilty. I couldn’t understand why I was spared while Bergur died. I still don’t really understand. I felt as if I must have caused it in some way, as if it was my fault. Little by little I shut myself in with those thoughts. Gloomy and withdrawn. Maybe he was right after all.’
They sat in silence until finally Erlendur laid the book aside.
‘Your grandmother left everything in good order when we moved. I’ve been to derelict farms where it seems as if people have walked out in a hurry and never looked back. Plates on the table, crockery in the cupboards, furniture in the living room, beds in the bedrooms. Your grandmother emptied our house and left nothing behind, took our furniture to Reykjavík and gave the rest of the stuff away. No one cared to live there after we left. Our home fell derelict. That’s a peculiar feeling. On the last day we walked from room to room and I felt a strange emptiness that has stayed with me ever since. As if we were leaving our life behind in that place, behind those old doors and blank windows. As if we no longer had a life. Some power had taken it away from us.’
‘Like it took Bergur?’
‘Sometimes I wish he’d leave me in peace. That a whole day would pass without him entering my thoughts.’
‘But it doesn’t?’
‘No. It doesn’t.’
21
Erlendur sat in his car outside the church, smoking and brooding on coincidences. He had long pondered the way simple coincidence could decide a person’s fate, decide their life and death. He knew examples of such coincidence from his work. More than once he had surveyed the scene of a murder that was committed for no motive whatsoever, without any warning or any connection between murderer and victim.
One of the cruellest examples of such a coincidence was that of a woman who was murdered on her way home from the supermarket in one of the city suburbs. The shop was one of a handful in those days that opened in the evenings. She encountered two men who were well known to the police. They meant to rob her but she clung on to her bag with a peculiar obstinacy. One of the repeat offenders had a small crowbar with him and struck her two heavy blows on the head. She was already dead by the time she was brought in to Accident and Emergency.
Why her? Erlendur had asked himself as he stood over the woman’s body one summer’s evening twenty years ago.
He knew that the two men who had attacked her were walking time bombs; in his view it had been inevitable that they would commit a serious crime one day, but it was by complete coincidence that their paths had crossed that of the woman. It could have been someone else that evening, or a week, a month, a year later. Why her, in that place, at that time? And why did she react as she did when she encountered them? When did the sequence of events begin that was to end with this murder? he asked himself. He was not for a moment trying to absolve the criminals of blame, only to examine the life that had ended in a pool of blood on a Reykjavík pavement.
He discovered that the woman was from the countryside and had lived in the city for more than seven years. Because of redundancies in the fisheries she had moved there with her two daughters and her husband from the fishing village where she’d been born. The trawler that their community relied on had been sold to another district, the prawn catch failed. Perhaps her final journey really began there. The family settled in the suburbs. She had wanted to move closer to the town centre but the same kind of flat would have been considerably more expensive there. That was another nail in her coffin.
Her husband found work in the construction business and she became a service rep for a phone company. The company moved their headquarters, making it harder for her to travel to work by public transport, so she handed in her notice. She was taken on as a caretaker at the local elementary school and liked the job; she got on well with the children. She went to work on foot every day and became a keen walker, dragging her husband out every evening, walking around the neighbourhood and only missing her breather if the weather was really bad. Their daughters were growing up. The eldest was nearing her twentieth birthday.