"I'm glad you came, son," said Angus at last. "Your mother went to a lot of trouble tonight. And Dorothy, well, you can see how pleased she is to see you."
"And you?" asked Arcturus. "Are you pleased to see me?"
"Of course. You know I am. You are my son."
"I know, but the last time we spoke wasn't exactly friendly."
"You had just gone and joined the Marines," said Angus. "My son the Confederate marine... what did you expect?"
"I expected you to respect my damn decision," snapped Arcturus.
Angus sighed and took a sip of his port. "Are you trying to pick a fight, Arcturus?"
"No," said Arcturus. "I'm really not. It's just... well, we've never seen eye to eye on lots of things, have we?"
"Not that I can recall, no."
"Exactly, and back when I was living on Korhal, every time you looked at me, it was like you were trying to find faults with whatever I did. Nothing I did was ever good enough for you."
"That's ridiculous," said Angus. "I just wanted the best for you. You see that, surely?"
"The best for me? Are you sure? Or did you want the best for you? What I wanted didn't seem important. All you cared about was whether I was a fit successor to you."
Angus poured himself another glass of port, using the time to curb an angry outburst.
Arcturus knew that goading his father could only end one way, but couldn't stop the words from flowing. Two years of pent-up feelings were now coming out and he couldn't stop them.
"Arcturus, you are my son and I have only ever wanted the best for you. You are intelligent and can be the best at whatever you want to be, but to waste your life fighting for a tyrannical, corrupt regime that seeks to take control of everything in the galaxy is just stupid."
"So now I'm stupid?"
"That's not what I said. You're not even listening to me, you're hearing what you want to hear so you can prolong this argument."
Arcturus knew his father was speaking the truth, but the memory of Private Shaw leapt to the forefront of his mind, the image of the boy's torn-up body lying in a pool of blood on the floor of a bar on Tyrador IX fogging his usual clearheadedness.
"No, that's not it at all," said Arcturus.
"Then what is it?" demanded Angus. "Because I'd really like to know."
"It's what you're doing on Korhal,” said Arcturus. "The bombings and the riots. You and Feld and your band of revolutionaries are still fanning the flames of hatred here, aren't you?"
"Keep your damn voice down," hissed Angus.
"Why? Afraid this Confederate marine might report you to the authorities?"
"You wouldn't?" said Angus, genuinely horrified at the notion of his son turning on him.
"No, of course not, but I've seen the reality of what people like you are doing," said Arcturus. "I saw the bodies and the blood on Tyrador IX, and I heard the screaming. You can justify what you're doing with talk of corruption and with clever wordplay, but I've seen what's left behind. I saw men shot down without mercy, and God knows how many innocent bystanders were caught in the crossfire. If that's what you're doing, then I want no part of it."
"The attack on Tyrador IX was nothing to do with me, Arcturus," said Angus, taking a step toward him. "I swear it. We only attack military targets. Combatants. Because we're in a war, make no mistake about that."
"Military targets?" said Angus, pulling his marine ident-tags from beneath his shirt. "What do you think these make me? Tell me, would you bomb me or authorize some other attack that might get me killed if it was part of your grand plan?"
"Of course not! Arcturus, why are you doing this? Your mother wanted for us to became a family again tonight. Don't ruin it for her."
"It was a mistake coming here," said Arcturus, putting down his glass and turning toward the door. "I should go."
"No, Arcturus, please stay," said Angus, following him and taking his arm. "For your mother and Dorothy if not for me."
Arcturus turned to face his father. "I'll be gone in the morning."
Far from the glowing jewel that was Styrling, the darkness of the sky was absolute. Arcturus sat on the walnut bench his father had built at the end of the path from the villa, watching the sea explode against the cliffs below in silver cascades. A bronze plaque in the middle of the bench was carved with a memorial inscription to Arcturus's grandfather. Augustus, but the words had been obscured by a green skim of corrosion and could no longer be read.
Hle sat and looked up at the stars, wondering which ones he would travel to next. The possibilities were endless, and certainly he was likely to see a great many different worlds with the Marines.
And once he was tired of military life, a point he knew was fast approaching, he would muster out and head to the rim. Just far enough out to be free.
Arcturus felt a vibration in his pocket and took out his fone. He waited until the tone had stopped and then flipped it open. Another message from Juliana. That made fifteen since he had arrived on Korhal.
He sighed and replaced the fone in his pocket as he heard footsteps behind him.
"Mind if I join you?" said Achlon Feld.
"If you're here to convince me to stay then you're wasting your breath."
"I'm not. I know it's a lost cause trying to convince you of anything."
Arcturus nodded and gestured toward the bench. "Then sit down."
The two men sat in silence for a while, content to simply enjoy the majesty of the view. Farther out to sea, the ocean was like a black mirror, vast and reflecting the stars above in wavering pinpoints. Occasional sliver streaks flashed across the sky. Arcturus liked to believe they were shooting stars, though he knew they were simply starships hilling the atmosphere.
"You'll regret this, you know," said Feld eventually.
"What?"
"Leaving like this. You don't know what's going to happen in the future, so do you really want this to be the last memory you have of your folks?"
"You're being melodramatic, Feld," said Arcturus. "It doesn't suit you."
"I'm not, Arcturus. Trust me, what's happening on Korhal is more dangerous than you know. The Confederacy is running scared here, and anyone who's seen combat knows that's when the enemy is at its most dangerous. They'll try anything and, as good as I am, I can't guarantee anyone's safety in the face of that kind of desperation."
"Are things really that bad?"
Feld simply nodded and said. "You can never go home. Isn't that what they say?"
"Who?"
"They. Them. Whoever. It doesn't matter."
"What does it mean?"
"When you live here on Korhal, you think it's the center of the world and you believe nothing will ever change. Then you leave and don't come back for a few years. And when you come back, everything's changed. The connection's broken. What you came to find isn't there and what was yours is gone. You'll have to go away for a long time before you can come back and find your people. The world where you were born. But now, for you, it's not possible. You're not ready to come back to Korhal. Or maybe she's not ready for you. I don't know."
"Since when did you become a philosopher, Feld?"
"I've been around," said Feld, "and I picked up a few things along the way. Just don't do anything rash, okay? If you're going to leave, fine, leave, but say good-bye first. Don't leave like last time."