“Worried about the match?” Zerleg asked. I didn’t even know he was there. Some catlike reflexes I have.
“No,” I answered truthfully.
The teenager sat down on the grass beside me. I took this as a sign that he wanted to talk, so I joined him.
“What is it, kid?” I asked with a smile, trying to lighten the mood.
“Nothing,” he answered. Which in teenage boy talk meant, Everything.
“Right.”
“It’s just…” Zerleg started. “It’s just that I don’t know why I am doing this.”
I admired his grasp of English. There was an accent there, but his grammar was flawless.
I crossed my legs. Might as well be comfortable. “I assumed you were doing it because you wanted to.”
“I did. And I do.” He waved me off and rose to his feet. “I just have cold feet. Thanks for listening, though.”
I watched as he walked back to the others, hands thrust deep inside his pants pockets. As much as I wanted to be a good friend to Zerleg, I was grateful he hadn’t confided everything. I didn’t need any more drama on this trip. For the first time since I’d arrived, I was actually looking forward to going home.
The next morning the entire camp began to move out. Sansar-Huu, because it was his truck, drove Yalta, Zerleg, Zolban and me to get us there early for some last-minute training. Veronica, to my surprise, insisted on traveling with Odgerel and the others. It was a gesture that made my heart skip a beat. I remembered when she arrived and was so worried about being lost in this foreign place. Now she was one of them. I liked that.
I sat in the back with the boys, insisting that Yalta have the passenger seat. Cool breezes dried our perspiration from the hot sun as we drove through the countryside to the city. Zolban was in high spirits-probably due to his success in the previous competitions. Zerleg was silent. Moody almost. Since we would be in the truck for a long time, I decided to ask him about the conversation we almost had.
“Oh, it was nothing,” Zerleg said over the wind.
Zolban laughed. “No, it is not!”
Zerleg looked quickly from me to his brother and told him to shut up in Mongolian.
“Do you want to talk about it?” I asked casually, hoping my tone would seem inviting.
“Go ahead!” Zolban punched his brother in the arm. Zerleg looked away.
“He wants to go to university,” his brother told me.
“That’s good,” I replied.
“Not good,” Zolban said eagerly. Clearly he relished his role of tattletale. “His girlfriend doesn’t like it.”
“Oh. I see.” Zerleg looked up at me sheepishly as I spoke.
He took over for his brother. “She wants to live on the steppes. She thinks my wanting an education is stupid.”
“But you want to go to school, right? Be a poet?”
He nodded.
“Can’t she come with you? Or visit during breaks?” I suggested.
“I don’t want her to. I want to meet other people. See the world.” Zerleg wasn’t meeting my eyes now.
“You don’t love her?” I asked gingerly.
The boy shook his head. “We do not have anything in common. I am not interested in her.” He leaned forward. “What would you do?”
Both boys looked at me eagerly, as if I would dispense words of wisdom on this matter. I used to be confident about women. But ever since Veronica Gale stormed her way into my life I was pretty sure I now knew less than nothing.
“What do your parents think?” That sounded like an intelligent way to stall. Technically, I was still an outsider, and the family would probably frown on any influence I had over the boys.
“Bah!” Zerleg spit. “They want me to stay here too. Like Sasug, they want me to be a sheepherder.”
“Sasug?” I asked, a little confused. “Doesn’t that mean ‘smelly’?” Maybe my Mongolian wasn’t that good.
Zolban nodded. “Yes. But it actually means ‘she smells good.’ At least, that is why they named her that.”
The boys seemed confused by my confusion, so I let the matter drop. I’d never really gotten the hang of Mongolian names and their various shades of meaning. All I could do was continue my profound respect for their culture and leave it at that.
“Have you told your family how much this means to you?”
Zerleg nodded. “Grandfather and Uncle Chudruk are on my side. But they have little influence.”
I had not met the boys’ parents or Sasug. They had not accompanied them on this journey. Zolbin said they would be at the naadam, though, so I wanted to be careful what advice I gave. Besides, who would listen to advice from a single carney/assassin whose most meaningful relationship had been with a guinea pig?
“I think your grandfather is a wise man and can help you,” I answered.
“What would you do?” Zerleg pressed. “If I were your son, what would you say?”
I thought about this a moment. “I would tell you to follow your heart,” I said, hoping they would get it.
They didn’t.
“What do you mean?” Zolbin asked. Apparently, he had a stake in this too.
“You should pursue what you love, and not what you don’t. By marrying a woman you do not love and working at something you do not enjoy, you are hurting everyone. If you love education and poetry, you should pursue them both.”
Zerleg’s face brightened and he threw himself into my arms. And although I was glad he was happy, I wondered if this was going to bite me in the ass later. One more thing to add to our trip-a couple of angry parents and one pissed-off girlfriend. Not good.
Chapter Eighteen
Pamela Landy: This is Jason Bourne, the toughest target that you have ever tracked. He is really good at staying alive, and trying to kill him and failing…just pisses him off.
– THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
The road to Ulaanbaatar was paved with trucks, yaks and horses. The sights and sounds were an exotic tonic for my nerves. I should say that I usually do not get nervous. However, I usually do not have this much going on. I tried to scan the crowds as we moved toward the edge of town, on the very slim chance that I could spot Dekker and maybe take him out before Ronnie arrived. No such luck.
Plan A was to ambush him. Missi still hadn’t sent me any information, and I was on edge. There was always the old standby of slipping on a banana peel (which has worked so many times it’s ridiculous) or falling in the bathtub, but I wasn’t sure I could maneuver it after all the wrestling (or if he was staying someplace with an actual bathtub)…if I was lucky enough to advance through the competition.
In the end, I’d do whatever I could to finish the job. There was no other option. And if it had to look like foul play, I could make sure Ronnie knew how bad this guy was. Damn, this woman was making my usually mess-free life a mess.
As we pulled into the campground area, I found these worries slipping away. It was as if the world exploded in color. The brilliant blue sky fused with the blindingly green grass. People were covered in bright silks of every color imaginable. The cool air softly mingled with the heat from the sharp sun. Sounds of music and laughter competed with the smells of food and beer. It was home to me. A carnival. I felt like I belonged.
Yalta barely waited for the truck to come to a complete stop before he hurried us into a practice session. In fact, men were wrestling all around us as we went through our routine, warming up muscles that were tense from riding in a beat-up truck down bumpy roads for hours on end.
My shoulder was feeling better, and that gave me a small surge of confidence. I’d need it. All the wrestlers around us looked either a lot younger or a lot bigger than me. There was no doubt they all had more training too.
“Focus, Coney!” Sansar-Huu swiped me on the back of the head playfully, and I resumed my workout.