Pixie meets my eyes and there is the smallest smile on her face. “What’s your plan here, David? We’ve called the local police. Freddy — that’s the chief of police here — is on his way with probably half the force. They know you’re armed and dangerous and that you’ve already shot two men. I think Stephano is dead. Freddy loves Stephano. They play poker once a week. If you’re lucky — if you put the gun down and now stand on the lawn with your arms high in the air — you may, may not get shot.”
“I know what you both did,” I say.
“But you’ll never be able to prove it. What evidence do you have?”
I look over at Theo. He doesn’t seem particularly scared anymore. He looks more puzzled and engaged, an expression that’s a heartbreaking echo of his mother’s.
“You think, what?” Pixie continues. “They’ll run a DNA test on the boy? Not a chance. You need a court order. You need to convince a judge that there is compelling reason, and we know every judge in the land. We have the best attorneys. We work hand in hand with every politician. Theo will be back overseas by the time you’re back rotting up in Briggs.”
“Besides,” Hayden adds, “it’s like I told Rachel — what do you think a test would show?” He grinned. “You want to raise a boy with the Payne blood coursing through his veins? He’s my son.”
I glance at the old woman and see something cross her face.
Then I say, “No, Hayden, he’s not.”
Hayden looks puzzled. He looks toward the woman he calls Pixie. Her eyes are on the floor.
“I never believed my wife when she said she didn’t go through with it,” I say. “It was, I think, the final straw in our marriage. We tried with Matthew, but I’m not sure as a couple we would have survived.”
Hayden looks at Pixie. “What’s he talking about?”
I take out my phone. “I was able to get into my old email address. Here. These emails are eight years old. When I found out Cheryl went to a fertility clinic, I took a paternity test. Two, in fact. Just to be sure. It confirms that I’m Matthew’s father.”
His eyes almost bulge out of their sockets. “That’s impossible,” he says. “Pixie?”
She ignores him. “Come along, Theo.”
“Don’t,” I say.
“You won’t shoot me,” she says.
“But I will.”
It’s Rachel. She steps into the room with gun in hand. “Hayden?”
He’s shaking his head no.
“Let me guess,” Rachel says. “You brought Matthew back here. You were in a panic. You wondered whether you’d done the right thing. That’s what you told me, right?”
He still shakes his head. I hear the sirens approaching.
“If the paternity test came back that you weren’t the father, what would you have done? Told the truth probably. Confessed.” Rachel looks over toward Pixie. “She couldn’t have that. She lied, Hayden. You aren’t the father. It shouldn’t matter. A father isn’t about biology. But he’s David’s son. David and Cheryl’s.”
Hayden’s voice is that of a little boy. “Pixie?”
I hear sirens. For a moment I figure she’s going to deny it, but there doesn’t seem to be that fight in her. “You’d have given him back,” she says. “Or worse. Either way, you’d have destroyed the family. So yes, I told you what you wanted — needed — to hear.”
Squad cars, at least ten of them, race up the drive and set up in formation outside the house.
“It doesn’t matter, Hayden,” Pixie says. “You two need to go to the helicopter.”
“No.”
It’s my son speaking now.
“I want to know what’s going on here,” Matthew says.
“This is all part of the game, Theo,” Pixie says.
“How stupid do you think I am?” He looks at me. “You’re my father.”
I can’t tell if it’s a question or a statement. The cops are in the house now, running up the stairs, shouting about coming out with my hands up and all that. But I barely hear it. I ignore it all. I only see my son.
My son.
I am tempted to get down on one knee, but in truth, Matthew is an eight-year-old boy, not a toddler. I meet his eye and say, “Yes. I’m your father. He kidnapped you when you were three.”
My son is looking at me. Our eyes meet. He doesn’t turn away. He doesn’t blink. Neither do I. It is the purest moment of my life. My son and I. Together. And I know he gets it. I know he understands.
And as that realization washes over me, the first bullet hits my body.
Eight Months Later
I stand to the left of my aunt Sophie as my father’s casket, a plain pine box, is lowered into the ground. Philip and Adam Mackenzie are both pallbearers. Cops young, old, and retired have come out in big numbers. My father had a lot of friends. He hadn’t been in their lives in a long time, but they’ve come out to say a final goodbye.
I can feel Uncle Philip’s eyes on me. He gives me the smallest of nods, but it says a lot. He was there. He’ll be there.
I was shot three times at the Payne estate.
It would have been more. That’s what I was told. But Matthew ran over to me. When the cops saw that, they stopped firing. I wasn’t conscious for any of that.
From my right side, I feel a small hand slip into mine. It’s comforting. I turn and smile down at Matthew. I look past my son to Rachel, who holds Matthew’s other hand. She gives me a small smile, and my chest fills. I meet her eye and let her know I’m doing okay.
My father had been sick for a long time. He was more than ready to go. I think he held on long enough to see me exonerated — and to see his grandson again.
I can’t tell you how grateful I am for that.
We all lower our head for the Kaddish. I am first in line to throw ceremonial dirt on my father’s grave. Aunt Sophie goes next. I hold her arm as she does it, more for my balance than hers. I spent two months in the hospital and went through six operations. I’m told that it is unlikely I will ever walk without a cane again, but I’m going to work my ass off in physical therapy.
I like trying to defy the odds. I’m good at that, I guess.
After the funeral we head back to the old house in Revere to sit shiva. The ghosts are there, of course, but they seem respectfully quiet today. None of us are religious, but we find solace in the ritual. Friends have sent us enough food to fill Fenway Park. I sit in the low chair, as is the custom, and listen to stories of my dad. It is a comfort.
Aunt Sophie will live here alone now.
“This neighborhood,” she told me. “It’s all I know.”
I understand, of course.
When there is a break in the line of mourners, Aunt Sophie nudges my arm and gestures toward Rachel. Rachel is helping set out yet another plate of sloppy joe sandwiches.
“So you and Rachel...?” she asks.
“Early days,” I say.
Aunt Sophie smiles. She will have none of that. “Not so early. I’m very happy about it. Your father was too.”
I swallow and stare at this woman I love. “She makes me happy,” I tell my aunt. And I’m not sure I’ve ever meant something so much in my life.
Special Agent Max Bernstein is at the end of the mourners’ line with his partner Sarah Jablonski. They both shake my hand and offer their condolences. Bernstein’s eyes dart all over the room.
“I don’t know if this is the right time,” Bernstein says to me.
“For?”
“For giving you an update.”
I look at his partner, then back to him. “It’s the right time,” I say.
Jablonski takes that one. “We may have a lead on... on the victim’s identity.”
The little boy in Matthew’s bed. I look toward Bernstein.