What seemed like only a few moments later, the elder entered. The guard opened the door for him then quickly fled, leaving Ico and the elder alone inside.
“Elder, I-”
The elder’s open hand hit Ico’s cheek with such force that he lost his words and gaped. “Elder?”
“What nonsense did you put in that boy’s head?”
The elder’s face was severe, his mouth strangely twisted. Ico had never seen him this way before, not even on the day that he had taken him into the north.
“I haven’t told him anything-”
“I know Toto came here the other day. I looked the other way because I know he’s your friend. And now I see I have made a terrible mistake. What did you put him up to? What are you planning?”
Ico’s mind reeled. Planning? Me? Why would I want to involve Toto in any of this? He’s my best friend. Why is the elder accusing me of things I haven’t done? So great was Ico’s shock that he didn’t even notice how his face stung.
“I’ll admit, I didn’t imagine children were capable of such scheming,” the elder said, his hands clenching into fists at his sides, as if he were holding them back from striking Ico again. “Toto disappears, and you leave the village on the pretense of finding him. With you two on Silverstar and Arrow Wind, no hunter in the village would be able to catch you. Tell me plainly-where is Toto waiting to meet you? Where were you going to go once you were together? I shouldn’t have to mention that there is no safe haven for the boy with horns.”
“We weren’t planning anything! I swear!”
“You lie to me, even now?” the elder said.
“It’s not a lie! Why don’t you believe me?”
Ico went to hug the elder despite himself, but the elder brushed his hands away and turned his back to the boy. “It gave me much pride that day you accepted your fate as the Sacrifice so readily. Even as it filled me with sorrow that you must bear this burden, I felt great gratitude. And now, you have betrayed us all.”
Ico stood there, staring at the elder’s withered back, unable to think of anything to say. That back was cold and hard, a barrier that none of his explanations or pleas could hope to pass.
When Ico had been younger, he had often gone for rides upon that back. And he had known since the time when his horns had been nothing more than bumps, that before the day came when he could give the frail, weakened elder a ride upon his own back, he would have to leave the village.
“The Mark will be ready for you by the end of the day,” the elder said, still facing the wall. “Once it is complete, a signal fire in the watchtower will inform the priest’s entourage in their lodgings across the river that the time has come. They will be in Toksa within a day, and you will leave with them without delay.”
“I won’t go anywhere until Toto is back in the village,” Ico managed to say, forcing out the words.
“I thought you might say that.” The elder snickered; it was a cold, derisive sound. “Buying yourself more time, no doubt.”
“I’m not, I swear it!”
“Whatever the case, Silverstar has already left. A messenger has gone to tell the priest what has happened. We will wait for word from him before deciding what to do about the boy. Until then, we can only keep searching for Toto in hopes that he was struck with a sudden urge to go hunting and will return of his own accord. I will send no one toward the mountains in the north, let alone you. Your plan has failed.”
Ico felt something cold on his cheek and lifted his hand to touch it. For the first time, he realized he was crying.
“I never thought to run from my responsibility.”
The elder was silent.
“Especially not since we went to the Forbidden Mountains, and I saw what lay beyond. My heart hasn’t wavered, not even for a moment. I couldn’t let something like that happen to Toksa, or to any place. If I can help stop that-if that’s my fate-then I accept it.”
The elder stood as silent and still as an ancient tree. The only motion in the cave was Ico’s trembling lips and the teardrops that fell from his eyes.
“It’s not a lie,” Ico said. “I haven’t lied to you. I could never send Toto into danger, even if I wanted to escape. I couldn’t.”
The elder hung his head and spoke in a low, rough voice. “The old books tell us we must never trust our hearts to the Sacrifice. How I wish I had understood the meaning of those words before now.”
With his long robes dragging across the dirt behind him, the elder walked unsteadily from the cave. Ico didn’t try to stop him. He sat there in silence, quietly sobbing.
In the distance, the sound of the loom began.
Mother-I want to see her. She’d understand how I feel. Like she always does. “I know, Ico,” she’d say. “Don’t cry.”
Or maybe that, too, was only a dream. Maybe she would never be like that again. Maybe to accept his role as Sacrifice was to accept that the elder, and Oneh, and everyone else he knew would change forever.
For the first time, the cruelty of it all sank inside his heart. Ico covered his face with both hands and wept out loud.
Yeah, you’re a good horse, real good.
Arrow Wind’s hooves skipped lightly over the stones, never flagging. The horse’s body was sleek and supple beneath Toto’s legs, his neck thick and strong, and his eyes alight with a black luster. Arrow Wind galloped onward, his chestnut mane whipping in the wind.
Toto had never felt so alive in his life. He had always wanted to ride like this. He was having so much fun that he had almost forgotten where he was going and why he had snuck out of the village late in the night.
By the time the dawn star shone in the sky, he had already reached the foothills of the mountains in the north. There, he stopped to give Arrow Wind a rest, watering him and rubbing him down as he whispered words of praise in his ears. They had ridden hard across the grasslands separating the village from the mountains without stopping. Toto ate some baked crackers, drank some water, and waited for the first light of dawn before beginning the climb up the Forbidden Mountains.
It was his first time coming here-he had never even heard of someone making the trip until the other day. Even still, in the morning light, the mountains seemed almost disappointingly peaceful and green. There was no path up them, but the slope was easy, with only short, mossy grass growing beneath the swaying branches of the willow trees. Arrow Wind kept his pace well. Toto gave him an occasional rub on the neck to keep him from going too fast. Other than that, he leaned forward and listened to the pleasing sound the horse’s hooves made on the grass below.
By the time the sun was shining on him directly, he was nearly halfway up the mountains. He looked back down at the grassland over which they had come. It spread out flat as far as he could see. It was beautiful.
These mountains aren’t scary at all, he thought. What’s so forbidden about this?
Toto’s chest swelled. A light of hope lit his face from the inside. His heart danced, running ahead of him toward the Castle in the Mist. He would go there together with Ico, defeat the master in the castle, and save the village. There was nothing to be scared of after all. Everyone had let themselves be frightened into cowardice by rumors and stories. If only they had ever dared to face it head on, they would have realized that they were stronger.
Arrow Wind’s footfalls mirrored Toto’s heart, growing lighter with every step as the little warrior and his gallant horse made their way up toward the pass.
If Toto had been just a little older, and his eyes a little more like those of the wary hunter, he would have noticed something very strange. Other than himself and the horse beneath him, there was no sign of life on these hills. No birds sang, no insects buzzed. Only the leaves of the trees swayed in the cool forest air. This was why the hunters never strayed here, why it was taboo to venture under these boughs.