an A+. I was always under great pressure to measure up, make him proud of
me. He always told me 'don't disappoint me Riley'. It was always assumed I
would go to college and take pre-med. In college a new kind of pressure started.
My aunt and uncle began harping about how I needed to be seen with the right
people and date 'appropriate men'. I just never felt anything for the guys my
uncle pressured me into dating. I finally met a guy on my own and started dating
him. I kept hoping I'd feel something, anything for him when he touched me."
She glanced up at Sam. "But I never did." She blushed and looked down at the
sheet, her hands twisting the material. "Mike had been pressuring me for a while
to sleep with him. Whenever we went out his touching got more and more
insistent. I went to a party with him and intentionally got drunk. It was the only
way I could let him touch me. He took my virginity in one of the bathrooms with a
bunch of people outside the door waiting to get in." She admitted sadly. "I
continued to date him for another two months but finally broke it off. He kept
demanding sex and I just couldn't pretend any more. I never felt anything and
had to get drunk so I could stand for him to touch me. I told him I needed to
concentrate on my studies."
Sam gently stroked Riley's back. She cursed, what kind of slime would take his
girlfriend in a bathroom at a party and she's a virgin. Bastard had to have
known. She mentally shook her head in disgust. Riley finally worked up the
courage to look up at Sam. She was sure she would see distaste and
condemnation in her eyes. She was surprised to find love and compassion
burning brightly in Sam's vivid blue eyes. Sam leaned down and placed a kiss
on her forehead.
"I'm sorry your first time was such a horrible experience Baby."
Riley smiled and hugged Sam before continuing with her story. "When my uncle
started up again about my dating I told him I wanted to get into medical school
with top grades. I knew that would feed into his ego. He stopped trying to set me
up and I graduated Magna Cum Laude. I wanted to apply to several medical
schools but my uncle decided I'd be attending his alma mater. I got accepted
right way and was excited to be moving out of my aunt's and uncle's for the first
time. Little did I know my uncle already had plans for me. He knew an alumnus
who had a big house in a really nice upscale neighborhood. It was traditionally
rented out to medical students attending their alma mater. It was in big demand
to get into. My uncle of course pulled some strings with his friend and got me in.
That's where I met Linda. She was one of the roommates. There were five
bedrooms in the house. Steven was graduating and I took his room. Paul was
starting his fourth year, Terry was a third year, Carol and Linda were both second
year and I was of course a first year."
"Carol? Is this the Carol who's married to your friend Denny?" Sam clarified.
Riley laughed, "Yes it's the same Carol but we didn't know Denny yet. You're
getting ahead of the story."
"Sorry."
Riley squeezed Sam's waist and went back to her tale. "Linda and I became fast
friends during the first six months I lived in the house. She helped me study and
showed me around campus. We spent a lot of time together, studying, watching
movies. I soon realized I was developing feelings for her. I wanted to touch her
and it scared me. I'd never felt anything like that before. We both started to find
excuses to touch each other. It started out as backrubs then progressed to
massages. Everything had an explanation; we were just helping each other
relieve the tension of school, it was normal for friends to touch each other. It was
a confusing time for me. I longed to touch her and got more excited rubbing her
back than I had with Mike when we had sex." Riley said, blushing at her
admission.
"I understand. I get turned on just looking at you."
Riley blushed again, hiding her face in Sam's shoulder.
"It's true, you're a very beautiful woman." Riley wasn't used to hearing that and didn't know how to react.
Sam seeing she was making her uncomfortable steered the conversation back
to Riley's story. "So then what happened?"
Riley shifted getting more comfortable before she continued. "It was really
strange, one minute she would be rubbing my back or lying with her head in my
lap and the next it was like she barely knew me. I quickly learned that I wasn't to
touch her if anyone else was around including our other roommates. This went
on for several months then one night we were in my room studying. Linda
leaned over and kissed me. The next thing I knew I was underneath her and she
was removing my clothes. I was just in this haze, my body felt like it was on fire.
I'd never experienced anything like it before. I finally understood what all the fuss
was about. It was enlightening to say the least. I ah... I umm...I experienced my
first orgasm with another person." Riley stuttered blushing hotly. Riley glanced
up to see Sam's smirking face. She poked her in the ribs with her elbow.
"Hush..." she admonished. Sam just laughed. "I couldn't believe it when she got up and got dressed as soon as we were finished. I had just had the most
amazing sexual experience of my life and she was just going to leave. She told
me 'we need to keep this just between us. It wouldn't look good for either of us if
this gets out. Just think of how your uncle would react.' I should've realized then
how things would turn out but it was all new to me so I went along.
"Bitch!" Sam muttered angrily.
"Yes she was but it would take me almost two years to figure it out." Riley said
sadly.
"We had no relationship in public. Linda would slip into my bed and we'd have
sex. She always put her clothes back on afterward and insisted I do the same.
After the newness of the experience wore off it was just... I don't know, not that
exciting. She'd come into my room, take what she wanted and leave. I never
initiated anything between us and she always came to my room. I didn't really
see or have much to do with anyone else. Carol tried to make friends but Linda
didn't like her so I never returned the overtures of friendship. This went on 'til the
end of my first year. She had me convinced that it was the way things had to be
for both our sakes. Things changed when Paul graduated and Denny moved in.
He didn't like Linda one bit. He and Carol quickly got involved and they would
insist I go places and do things with them. Linda refused to be seen in public
with me once we became lovers, so we never went out. I developed a close
friendship with the Denny and Carol. If it weren't for them I probably wouldn't
have ever gotten out of the house except to go to class or the hospital. Linda
had her own group of friends that she did things with but I was never invited to
join them. That was pretty much how things went for the next two years. In
retrospect I know she used what she knew about my relationship with my uncle
to keep me in line. Whenever I'd press to go out with her she would remind me
how my uncle would react if he found out I was seeing a woman. She knew how
much my uncle's approval meant to me and how much I wanted him to be proud