were visiting but Riley just hadn't been open to anything she had to say. She still
vividly remembered the first morning after she'd spent the night at Sam's. Sam
had walked out of the bedroom in her uniform and she'd burst into tears. It was
the first time she'd seen her in uniform since that fateful day of the shooting.
She'd immediately had a flashback to the shooting. Seeing her dressed that way
was just more than Riley could handle. After that, Sam had taken to keeping her
uniform at work and leaving the house in jeans and getting dressed at work. She
always changed out of her uniform before returning home. Sam's work was
never mentioned either. Riley would come home and talk about her day but Sam
knowing how Riley felt never made any mention of hers. Tonight the other
women had given her a lot to think about. She knew if she didn't come to terms
with this and quickly it would drive a wedge between them. As she pulled into the
apartment complex, she vowed to start fixing the problem right now. After only a
month of, for all intents and purposes living together, she knew Sam was her life
and she would do whatever was necessary keep them together.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sam was lying on the couch when Riley opened the door.
"Hey Babe, how was the meeting." She asked as she sat up.
"It was good. I learned a lot and I..." Riley couldn't help it the tears just started flowing as she realized again what she'd been putting Sam through.
Sam panicked and jumped off the couch rushing over to take Riley in her arms.
Sam's heart was pounding in fear. Riley looked so heartbroken that Sam tried to
brace herself. She figured this was where Riley told her she couldn't be involved
with a cop anymore. She cursed herself for even suggesting the damn meeting.
She knew the way they were going wasn't good but was now berating herself. I
should've left well enough alone. They probably scared the hell out of her and
now she'll run. The thought of losing Riley made Sam feel like a metal band was
slowly closing around her chest. It was hard to breath.
Riley finally got her tears under control and looked up into Sam's face; her eyes
were full of fear. Riley could feel Sam's heart pounding. That's when it dawned
on her that Sam had misinterpreted her tears. She felt a surge of guilt knowing
she was to blame for Sam being so unsure. She put her hand behind Sam's
neck and pulled her down into a gentle loving kiss.
"I love you Sam and now I know how unfair I've been to you." She put her finger
over Sam's lips to stop her from interrupting. "I want you to start getting dressed
at home and..." she again stopped Sam from interrupting. " And I want you to tell me about your day, just like I tell you about mine."
Sam's eyes filled with tears of relief. She gulped loudly. "I thought you were
going to tell me..." Her voice trailed off, she couldn't even say it.
"I know Honey and I'm sorry. I'm kind of new at this." She smiled up at Sam her
eyes sparkling with love.
Sam had had all the emotional upheaval she could take for one night and
decided to lighten the mood. She grinned at Riley then leaned over to nuzzle her
neck, peppering it with open mouth kisses.
"Well in that case, maybe you need more practice." She purred as she began to
unbutton Riley's blouse.
Riley groaned when Sam's lips made it to the top of her cleavage. She reached
over and pulled Sam's shirt from her pants. They stumbled down the hall toward
the bedroom pulling each other's clothes off as they went.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
Riley leaned up on her elbow her eyes tracing Sam's body. Sam had kicked off
the covers and lay sprawled naked on her back. She glanced over at the clock. It
was 5am Monday morning. Where did the weekend go? She sighed. She knew
the alarm would go off soon. Riley ran her hand down Sam's tight stomach.
Unconsciously her fingers traced the scars on her hip and down her leg. Sam
had picked up her uniform from the cleaners the previous day and brought it
home as Riley had requested. Riley knew no matter what she couldn't break
down when she saw Sam in her uniform. It was so much a part of who she was
and she understood that now. She would support her no matter how much it
scared her. It was the only way they could hope to have a life together. As her
thoughts drifted so had her hand, she was brought back to the here and now by
a loud groan from Sam. She grinned straddling Sam as her eyes slowly fluttered
open. She continued to stroke between Sam's legs as she leaned down to
capture a nipple. Sam's back arched when Riley's fingers slipped inside; she
climaxed quickly under Riley's knowing touch. Sam lay panting her body still
quivering from aftershocks when the alarm went off. She leaned over to slap the
offending clock. Riley started to get up. Sam's arms wrapped around her and
rolled over trapping Riley beneath her.
"Just where do you think you're going?" She growled in Riley's ear as she ran
her tongue around the rim.
Riley groaned and the throb between her legs intensified. She'd become
incredibly aroused just watching Sam in the throes of passion. "We've got to get
ready for work." Riley said making no effort to move.
"Don't worry Babe, I'll be quick."
True to her word Sam was quick but thorough. Riley lay on her back gasping for
breath as Sam got up to get a shower. She leaned back over the bed and gave
Riley a quick kiss.
"Love you Babe."
Riley could only grunt in response. Sam chuckled as she headed for her shower.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Riley was drinking her coffee from a travel cup and had another cup made for
Sam as well as a wrapped up bagel. They were running late because of their
morning playtime. Ah... but it was sure worth it. She glanced down the hall when
she heard Sam's footsteps. Riley tried to swallow past the lump in her throat as
Sam came towards her dressed in her uniform, her utility belt around her waist.
She forced away the images of a wounded Sam that flooded her mind. Sam was
a little hesitant to hug Riley not knowing how she'd react. She finally shrugged
and loosely wrapped her arms around Riley giving her plenty of chance to
retreat if it was too much for her.
Riley smiled tentatively at Sam, "You look nice." She reached out to reassure
herself that Sam had on her bulletproof vest under the uniform shirt, signing in
relief when she felt the vest under her fingers.
"Thanks Baby. You doing okay?"
Riley's expression became more relaxed. "Yeah I'm fine." Once she'd gotten
over the initial reaction, she felt a little better. She was determined to learn to
manage her fear.
"We better get going; we're going to be late." Sam reminded.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Riley growled at the interruption. It was the first chance she'd had to sit down all
day and was busy with her charts. She stomped over and snatched open the
door to her office. "What..." she demanded before she even had the door open.
Her eyes met a wide expanse of blue and traveled up to meet Sam's vivid blue
eyes.
"Catch you at a bad time?" Sam asked smiling.
Riley grinned and pulled Sam into her office. "No... I was just working on charts."
Riley looked suddenly worried. "Is something wrong?"